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Whose thoughts do I think? Whose food do I eat?
silent thunder replied to silent thunder's topic in General Discussion
On the tangibility of thoughts... was sharing with my son on the way to school. Hey, isn't it interesting that at one point, this truck was just an idea. A thought passing through mind. Now we sit inside and drive to school listening to music in what was once, just a thought.- 25 replies
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I'm always drawn to read other's descriptions of such, yet whenever I'm looking for words to describe it myself, it feels like I'm trying to gather clouds with spider webs. Oh well... as with the universe... better something than nothing so here goes... No longer experience it as a body of any sort. No longer distinguish an energetic body of itself, as a thing that is in any way separate from any other. It's an ever sinking, expanding, unfolding experience. No matter where I seek, it reveals itself there. Just as we develop scientific instruments to help us peer beyond the range of 'normal' vision, to look at the nature of reality of the very tiny, or the very far away. My relationship to the energetic body unfolds ever revealing itself no matter which direction I peer, or with what sense i experience. For just as in science, wherever we aim a tool to observe, however deep or expanded we focus, there is always something to observe.... as that is what we do. It is this way with the 'energetic body'. Wherever I go, there i am. So this 'energy body' is not 'a body' any longer. It expresses as a unified multi-faceted flowing inter-permeative process... all interconnecting with and through all else. The experience accomodates all senses physical and 'etheric' and seems fluid at some levels, diaphenous and vaporous at others, electrical, magnetic, layered inter-related, inter-flowing process of ever unfoldingness ever inter-relatability. Certain aspects of it seem to rise to awareness and gain prominence when there are intense shifts in either capacitance, resistance, permeability, permeativity... inertia. Or when there is a rapid shift in focus from the galactic to the myopic, or vice versa, this shift dominates and hyper focuses conscious awareness for a time and I used to say 'i've just had an experience of my energy body'. Now it's all energy... inter/intra-relational flows, emptiness-clarity-bouyancy of varying densities, or varying levels of perception of simply what is, all interconnected/related. unfoldingness in one word, unfoldingness no matter what level i engage with the process, this unfoldingness word arises wave moves through water. water and wave seems all one wave made of water? Wave is not water. A wave moves through the water. Water is waving. Ocean waves are not made of water. The wave is not 'a thing', but a process. Wave equals observation of motion through water. A whirlpool in a river. Is this 'a thing'? Arising and holding an observable pattern for a time. A relationship of varying currents and flows, that arises then dissipates. Energy may be perceived. Is energy then the perception? where does the break between one and another arise and fall away. and here i am again... utterly unsatisfied with words, fun though they may be... that's the latest attempt. as I said... clouds with spiderwebs.
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silent thunder replied to GrandTrinity's topic in General Discussion
Hear the echoes and feel yourself starting to turn. Don't know why you should feel that there's something to learn... It's just a game that you play. Al Stewart: Time Passages -
What I appear to be, seems dependent on how myopic the view is of the tool perceiving. At the level of the human eye... a human hand. at 40x magnification eta: which one is real? both same time it would seem
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Whose thoughts do I think? Whose food do I eat?
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Whether it's hearing the ethers, or just deep familiarity... After 30 years together... even the inner hearing goes it seems. Me: What hon? I didn't hear you. Her: I didn't say anything. Me: ... did you think something real loud?- 25 replies
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edit to add: This album cover... such an impact it had on me. lol
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Nice one! My Mom had one of those awesome solid Walnut console stereos built in the 60's (man they had great resonance) and an extensive record collection. She loved to fire that thing up loud and dance around while she cleaned the house on Saturdays. Roger Whittaker, Herb Alpert and the Tijuana Brass, Ferrante and Teischer, Tchaichovski, Kenny Rogers and Charlie Pride come to mind as routinely shaking our walls with the bass on full.
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Dao of the Death Penalty: on Punishment, Rehabilitation and Retribution.
silent thunder replied to silent thunder's topic in The Rabbit Hole
Well said. I no longer see things as right and wrong. Right and wrong, normal and crazy is little more than what we were exposed to from the ages of 0-8 and shift radically from society to society (and even within one society they shift drastically according to individuals). Look at the range of opinions in this one conversation. All across the range of potential reactions. Individual reactions are not right or wrong to me, they are reflections of the ones who convey them. All facets of a gem are as they are, yet they don't all refract and reflect light the same, while still all are part of the one gem. We move collectively as a society. All input is equally relevant, though in action, some causes strife and other's bring peace. Such is the way of the manifest. So, though I can no longer experience things such as right or wrong, I do experience things quite clearly as tenable and untenable. Sustainable and unsustainable. Tolerable and intolerable. While I don't have energy for death penalty, I will not stand and allow actions I find reprehensible or harmful take place. I interfere when I see abusive behavior toward children and the elderly for example. It's just that once the violence has been stilted. Once the harm has ceased and the perpetrator isolated, I no longer have energy or desire to heap more harm on an already damaged individual. To me, society grows stronger and more tenable if we can rehabilitate and return to functioning society, healthy whole individuals. There will always be those who are beyond shift and change. These were I making the decisions, would be relegated to isolation indefinitely, but not harmed further. Sweeping notions of ridding disease by mass culling of the herd smacks of throwing the baby out with the bath water and overreaction to me. At times surely some surgical means are required to deal with disease. But our 'modern medicine' approach to cancer is a good example of this overreaction to me. The notion that we will irradiate the entire organism, banking on the organism's ability to out heal the poison and survive the radiation while the cancer cannot abide, seems a result of the oversimplification of our notion of our own bodies. The Cartesian model of the body as a machine that can be taken apart and put together again and understood is vastly out of focus in my experience of a fluid interrelation of systems all interconnected and interfeeding. Many behaviors in society are untenable in the long run. In my experience these fall away under their own unsustainability before long. My actions seem better spent in healing my self and those I come in contact with, from isolating and then trying to heal those damaged ones who cause problems. Bucky Fuller put it very succinctly back in the 50's when he spoke of how to approach sweeping change in a large system... Paraphrasing he said "you never change the sytem effectively by fighting it directly, that only brings greater resistance and reinforces the system. (this is deeply reflected in the daoist cannon btw). To change the system, create a new model that renders the old model irrelevant and then wait. As the next generation arises, they will see the irrelevance of the old system and it will fall away effortlessly as they adopt the new model, no fighting needed." My uncle worked as a homicide detective for decades. The vast majority of violence and harm is caused by a small group of damaged, angry and rageful folk. Things are not as bleak as they may seem. Our human nature is not worse than before in my exprience. Things are not worse now, than before, but in our age of instant information, we hear about so much more than we used to, it lends an ease to the assumption that we are spiraling in disease. So my approach is a softer one now. No need to irradiate the whole. Just as great rage is not sustainable for long, poor farming habits, poor mental processes bring small yields and nature culls in authenticity. -
Thinking of doing a DNA Kit analysis
silent thunder replied to thelerner's topic in General Discussion
Spent another dozen hours or so over the last couple days following records and have uncovered a few very interesting things in my tree. Now glad I decided to pay for the membership to access international records. I resisted for several years as it's pricey in my opinion, but now seems worth it. On my Father's side, records are very strong and run back to the early 1400's with relative ease (pun intended). I found one rather fun unexpected surprise. In my Father's Father's line, one of my ancestors Johanson Bjorngard born in 1560 Nord Trondelog Norway went Viking, left Norway and settled in the Virginia Territory where he died in at the age of 50 in 1610. No records of any children or marriages have emerged so far, but I'll keep digging. Found another who left Norway for England, landing in Staffordshire and passing there in the 1560's. There's far less info on my Mother's side. Info on my great grandmother stops with her cold so far. This is the line that was said to come from Germany. Found a bit on her husband, name of Lowe. Traced his line back to the 1640's where it turns out his family came from Switzerland, not Germany. By far the most enriching thing has been the host of names I have now to call upon. Some truly epic names... coming from Trondelog. How's this for a Valkyrie Warrioress Name? Gunhild Ivarsdatter Loksengard... 1639-1699. Or Ingeborg Sigbjornnsdatter Eikeland 1637-1701. I walked around the house calling out these names and my wife, watching a film, removed her headphones and said "if I wake up tonight with some Valkyrie Warrior named Gunhild sizing me up from the foot of our bed, I'm holding you responsible!" good times! -
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silent thunder replied to GrandTrinity's topic in General Discussion
Saying the things you do not have to say weakens your talk. WILLIAM STAFFORD, Crossing Unmarked Snow -
Dao of the Death Penalty: on Punishment, Rehabilitation and Retribution.
silent thunder replied to silent thunder's topic in The Rabbit Hole
While I understand the mindset and you're not wrong, no one in this conversation is. No one person knows the correct response to a tragedy or a crime. Your response is your response. But it is only yours. You don't speak for all and your words echo the sentiments spoken often by my wife's father. Whenever I encounter them, I now pay close attention to see when the justified actions creep in... The character of a society is seen in how it treats the least powerful among them. The animals, the slaves, the destitute, the transgressors. The next step once this level of certainty was arrived at is 'justified retribution' for perceived transgressions or strong corrections for 'lack of proper vision', or 'inability to see "the truth"... and once this has been established, then the real harm begins to flow and we enter the territory where the punishments for perceived crimes being 'justified' often become crimes of their own in my experience. Often far worse than the crime they are being dealt out in retribution for... such is life. The punishment becomes an obligation. His (my wife's father's) words reflected his mindset and belayed an inner torment, born of deep trauma, pain and fear. He utterly rejected healing. He was too tough for that. It was a weak man's business. He was out for blood and correction. I was too for a good portion of my life. The Viking in me is ancient and raw, visceral. When I was certain about something, I could utterly dissolve into justified rage. It nearly killed me, rotting my body. Itself the very core bad apple you speak of. That which rots us, I find, comes from within, not without. For as Sadhguru says so poignantly. "if someone outside of you, controls you, you are a slave... is this not so? How much more a slave are you then, if your inner state, is controlled by someone outside of you? If your inner condition of life is manipulated by someone other than you, then you are truly the slave of slaves." Hate is not healed through hate. My take on hate now, after long experience with it is 'be very mindful what you allow yourself to hate, you will surely come to emulate it.' But not all are interested in healing at this point. For many years, there were times I would sense a softening of my rage that arose naturally and I would rise up and reject it, re-establishing my anger to keep the ball rolling. Some have a pressing need to carry and nurture only that burning seed, it's what defines them, keeps them going, becomes them. While it saddens me, I'm not of a mind to even attempt to remove it for anyone any longer, I used to be... now I see it's not my place, nor within my abilities, nor my job. I'm not the world police. I have no idea what path processes will provoke awakening in others. I recall at an exhibit on buddhas at the Bower Museum some 20 years ago, being stunned at encountering the 'Buddha of Rage'. A buddha who woke up in the midst of his rage. I once bathed in justified anger, resentment and rage filled fantasies of retribution, it's part of my path. So I understand it. Though it caused such harm in me, it was not sustainable for long without manifestations in the body that debilitated. Whenever I hear this tone in folks, I prick my ears and put energy into paying sharp attention and watch them closely, if from a distance. For when this tone arises, harm is often shortly to follow and when I witness this harm, I have no compunctions to action. My wife is firmly for the death penalty. I have no energy for it. I'm not against it per se... but there seems no longer any point to it. Isolating the damaged, the violent is enough for me. Their rot cannot spread from isolation. And I don't inflict rot on myself from holding and nurturing a desire to inflict harm more harm for something already passed. -
I've come to a place where there is no mountain. All rigid forms of mind and body and practice have fallen away for the time being. Nice description, as you say, there's a deal of paradox in these processes. My body was healed thoroughly in the first two years of returning to this work and the forms laying the foundation and a fair amount of 'doing' were part of that. The last years have seen the affects of the form work shift into the mental and ephemeral aspects of non-form, thought and no thought. Release has been key and has gone farther than I ever expected. During parts of this process any engagement of 'doing' became untenable and released of their own accord. All process has shifted in the last 15 months to a deep resonant releasing on all levels... there is no mountain. Though as all has steadily fallen away and an experience of that which remiains is what is here naturally of its own accord and not maintained by excess grabbing, doing, reaching, striving or seeking... I sense the mountain returning and this approach I've glimpsed through your words may be an indication to test the waters again. a balance and a dance, wei wu wei... allowing action to flow unimpeded. action without forcing... mind without rigid, or excessive mind. I recall the period I used to work in sand on the beach, the obsessive fun and joy of playing with simple shifts of foot placement and angle in the sand, flattening and arching the soles and how that affected knees/hips and energetic flow lines to the body overall. As you say, much fun for the obsessive types. Absolutely. Thanks again for sharing, it's appreciated.
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Zhou never mentioned it, but then, he didn't speak much when I studied with him. It was show and follow, not show and tell. Wang Li Ping talked about a variety of things going on in the nine palaces of the head space, the central orifice, the back mirror and entering and exiting the top of the head after the third eye opens, but not a pillar in particular like you describe, or anything related to an aura in that manner that I recall. edit to add: here's a reference pic from the cover of Wang's book
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silent thunder replied to GrandTrinity's topic in General Discussion
That's from memory. Though I would imagine in his career, he used it thousands of times in a variety of ways. A true master social commentarian. He reminds me of a modern version of Chuang Tzu in many ways. -
your presence and sharing is appreciated mate. sad to see you leave, but fully understand the need, when it arises. travel well and thrive!
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silent thunder replied to GrandTrinity's topic in General Discussion
Fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity. ~ George Carlin -
Dao of the Death Penalty: on Punishment, Rehabilitation and Retribution.
silent thunder replied to silent thunder's topic in The Rabbit Hole
It certainly seems the one set free when forgiveness arises, is the one forgiving, not the one forgiven. That was my experience. Forgiveness for me is not condoning, accepting, or accomodating the one forgiven. It's at its core a decision that I no longer am able or willing to spend energy in resentment, anger, rage and bitterness. When I forgive, I'm setting my burden down. I'm letting myself live free of resentment, unknotting anger. When I burn in resentment, I burn. The one I'm resenting is not burnt, they are living their life, oblivious. I watched my Mother carry a burning seed of resentment over her divorce for years. She'd be boiling about it sometimes for hours a day, many years later; meanwhile he was on his boat, mixing martinis and enjoying his life. Don't forgive because they deserve it, forogive because your life is worth more than living in resentment. Or don't... no one holds a gun to anyone's head for this stuff. It comes when it comes or it doesn't... no right or wrong on timing of grief, trauma and healing. -
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silent thunder replied to GrandTrinity's topic in General Discussion
The border between the Real and the Unreal is not fixed, but just marks the last place where rival gangs of shamans fought each other to a standstill. - Robert Anton Wilson The web of life is a beautiful and meaningless dance. The web of life is a process with a moving goal. The web of life is a perfectly finished work of art right where I am sitting now. - Robert Anton Wilson Pregnancy is a kind of miracle. Especially so in that it proves that a man and woman can conspire to force God to create a new soul. - Robert Anton Wilson Anyone in the United States today who isn't paranoid must be crazy. - Robert Anton Wilson (1970's lol) Of course I'm crazy, but that doesn't mean I'm wrong. - Robert Anton Wilson -
Dao of the Death Penalty: on Punishment, Rehabilitation and Retribution.
silent thunder replied to silent thunder's topic in The Rabbit Hole
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Dao of the Death Penalty: on Punishment, Rehabilitation and Retribution.
silent thunder replied to silent thunder's topic in The Rabbit Hole
Intriguing to encounter this thought. update for those who may not follow the news: (I've been taking it in daily for about 3 months now and will soon cease) The man convicted to death in my quote of the opening post died in Texas on Wed as planned. One thing seems certain. That man will never drag anyone to death behind a truck again. And yet some of the victim's own family sought to stay his execution. Perhaps it's the victims who should decide the punishment once guilt has been established? Why leave it to a judge or jury who were not involved directly? Deeply appreciate everyone's thoughtful and passionate sharing here. I consider no one wrong, or correct in this conversation or their take. It's all invaluable. -
Bearded Dragon... enjoying some of your old posts recently and missing you mate.