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My relationship with the search function here at the bums has always been idiosynchratic. It's comical to me, the 'no matches' answer I get, when it's not frustrating. When it's frustrating, then it's tragical for me and comical for my family. As it just happened again, I wonder if anyone else finds the search function here to be oddly unforthcoming at times... particularly when using the exact phrase of a thread title that is well known. here's a recent example. I searched titles only for the thread "What are you listening to" in order to add a reply this morning. my search: and here's the thread that search claimed didn't match the search parameter: i are confusion in regards to this... thankfully, i've grown much accustomed to confusion and uncertainty, I just find it odd and felt like sharing in case it's some simple thing I'm missing in spite of my incredible intellect and vast experience (cough) cheers!

raw awareness... radical simplicity. ever unfolding presence... radical release. beingness... descriptions of resulting mental/emotional experiences: unity consciousness, emptiness, bliss, clarity, bouyancy, passionate compassion, resonating self reinforcing gratitude cycles, spontaneous healings, realizations of the consistent nature of perceptual fallacies, the dissolution of rigid mental constructs/preconceptions/projections

For me, it's a morning for non-psychological sound.

"There is a fundamental error in separating the parts from the whole, the mistake of atomizing what should not be atomized. Unity and complementarity constitute reality." “atoms or elementary particles themselves are not real; they form a world of potentialities or possibilities rather than one of things or facts.” “We have to remember that what we observe is not nature in itself but nature exposed to our method of questioning." Werner Heisenberg

I've infiltrated dozens. Here's my ingenious-foolproof method. 1) Lull the cult into a false sense of security by completely ignoring it in all aspects for a decade at least. (some for much longer) 2) Spend time and energy daily in the presence of people, places, animals and insects that I love and want to see thrive. 2a) Cease spending energy on things I despise. 3) Have a beer and laugh with a friend once in a while, while ignoring the cult in question. 4) Spend entire days taking no action whatsoever, aside from the nominal functions of biology and the unconscious. 5) Remember that every cult and cult member is as close to the Dao as I am. 6) Mind my own buggering business. 7) Make and share food with folks I dearly love. 8) Walk in nature. 9) Remember that the earth delights in the feel of my bare feet and the winds long to play with my hair 10) Remember that we unwittingly plough the dust of stars, blown about us by the wind and drink the universe in a glass of rain. Cheers!

Upon walking in to find his students waiting for him, he proclaimed. "you are all perfect, exactly as you are... and you could all use, a little improvement." Shunryu Suzuki

where!? where!??? oh fer fucks sake!!! did I miss him again!??

echo post

effort, ease strain, relaxation always up goes with down bottom with top there is no selling, unless simultaneously there is buying there are no waves with only crests no sticks comprised of only tops the action of dao is as a bellows the drawn bow settles in balance... or snaps.

what bouyant freedom i uncovered such open clarity and bliss when i realized that what i'd been seeking is what had been seeking unfolding in presence requires nothing

I know that you believe you understood what you think I said; but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant. Robert McCloskey

Howling in the mist. Twin wolves, one of heart, one mind. Who is it they call?

Much empathy in reading this thread. I had a rather intense awakening some years back, shockwaves through all aspects of life. Body nearly shut down a couple times. Marriage was sent into spiraling seeming unrecoverable chaos. Life upheaval in full cyclone mode, basically. In the midst of this chaos... I woke from the fever dream that had become my foggy routine of robotic life. First thing, I revamped my physical health that started with an overhaul of foods and soaps/toothpastes/clothing detergents and a regular fasting regimen. Anything that went in, or on my body was scrutinized and chosen with care and a rather fierce love. This was very effective and while my general practitioner was staggered by the shift in my blood chemistry after only 90 days, looking back, I perceive the physical was preperatory work that only scratched the surface. Turned out the vast majority of my suffering was in another sphere. Lately, (last few years) I have realized that far more impacting to my overall health than what I put in my body as food, or on my body as soap, is my mental environment... what i choose to put in my mind and what i allow myself to ruminate upon have a far deeper reach and greater impact on my health than any fast food pellet ever did. When I got rid of broadcast television/cable/satellite, there was a powerful shift. And I'm fortunate my job requires no computer time, so I was also able to take half year media fasts free from all manner of digital/social media as well. The effects of these were staggeringly beneficial. I now regularly unplug from all media for weeks/months at a time. The resulting inner calm and peace is beyond words. Not diminishing the importance of healthy food and non-toxic topical soaps and clothing detergents/toothpastes, but sharing the pivotal beneficial work in my case, which seemed to stem from within, not without and was intangible.

oh my...

is the conversation decaying? is the death of one concept, the nurturing of another? as the decay of life in my belly nurtures the life of my body? never considered conversations to have life... yet they are part of life. hmm...

Thanks mate. That happened once or twice in the beginning. Lately, I start at the advanced options tab my parameters, enter the exact phrase in quotes and then make offerings to the digital search gods as well. From now on, if it's in the public section of the board, I'll just use duckduckgo and see how that plays out, skirting the gods all-together. They are a fickle lot, but once in a while, they do respond.

They do not exist. Phantoms comprised of mind fog. Vapor Emperors.

On Children Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself. They come through you but not from you, And though they are with you yet they belong not to you. You may give them your love but not your thoughts, For they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams. You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth. Kahlil Gibran

A retired CIA/career military man, at his retirement party was approached by a youngin who, staring up asked him with the purity and gravity possessed of the very young. "what was your job?" His authentic response shifted the energy of the entire group into silence for a time. It was stated with such authentic simplicity. youngin: what was your job? retired man: I traveled the world, learning secrets and killing strangers, or providing material support to those who did. youngin: were they bad strangers? retired man: (silence)

may know the whole world. i sought to change the whole world. now content, right here.

Marblehead really tends to visit my mind on Sunday mornings. Our Sundays have developed a calm, sameness to them in our home that remind me of Marble. In his demeanor, he really seemed to embody and emanate to me, the simple relaxing tone of a simple Sunday morning nearly all the time; when nothing is required, no pressing needs press, just whatever comes is what comes and it's welcome. He was a good friend and unwittingly, a teacher for me of great simple truths. Missing you Marble... going to be diving into some bluegrass and channeling you in the house.

welcome home rene i ranged all round the world and found home within