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Of course! Ddecomposition is a leading source of the direction of Primal Alchemy! Have you not recognized the Alchemy of decomposition all around you? The rotting food in your colon and small intestine is the source of all your energy and sustaining of your bodily form. Every thing you consume is dead, or dying as it enters your body. Decomposition is the source of the Vigor and Vitality of Livingness in your bodily experience. The Awareness of Being. In your response, you seem to be looking at my finger... not what the finger indicates.

Awareness is. Awareness is shift. Awareness is our (local) interaction with sensation/reality. All (of experienced reality aka what we are aware of) arises and diminishes within the center of the field of awareness. (personality) There is Awareness, here. This seems to be one of the few truths. The rest is... subject to interpretation, accomodation, rejection, worship, etc. of awareness based on social and familial conditioning.

Life is Alchemy. (seems to be to my local awareness/experience) Life is the ever shifting of one into another. Awareness (the experience of being) itself is Alchemy. My Son's body formed within my Wife's body. Forming within the womb tzujan, of itself, by transmuting food, air and water that she consumed while pregnant. My Son's body now alchemizes food/air/water into bones, organs, muscles, nerves, etc and sustains awareness of this for a time, before further decomposing (alchemizing) into ought else.. Sunlight stimulates seeds in soil that, which alchemize with water, minerals and light to grow into trees, bushes, wheat, moss etc... these forms further alchemize, transforming into new soil. Transmutation. Alchemy. Reality=Alchemy of Awareness. As awareness is always shifting and morphing, accomodating new sensation, interpreting, adapting, rejecting, believing, seeking etc... Indeed, is there any aspect of phenominological awareness that is not an alchemy of transitioning from one observed form/structure/makeup, into another? Is there ought which is not Alchemy?

ego is not a thing. ego is not a noun, but a thinking within awareness which operates as a verb. ego is a process that arises and diminishes, like all phenomenon and noumenon. It is a mentation among human awareness and an ephemeral, diaphenous non thing endlessly rising and falling, like all form, all 'material' and all sensation and thought. ego could perhaps be described in english more effectively as egoing. When we encounter the ego in thinking, we are 'egoing' within awareness. (of late, my local awareness cannot find a single instance of a noun (static object) anywhere in Awareness. All perceived nouns are illusory, projectional and delusionary, like all form, phenomenon and noumenon).

I don't sense it's an all or nothing choice. All paths lead up the mountain. Damo and Nathan approach Source and process from different paths. I've benefited from Freeform's sharings here, but his path is not necessarily yours, or anyone elses'. Explore and find your way. It's there. Why not give each method 180 days and see what arises within?

Wow. Just Wow.