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I've avoided ceremonial magicians so far--too much of a muchness with me. But probably best to be among my own kind. At this point I want to be eaten anyhow. Arha.

No men want to do it on the up and up.

Hm, I guess being a predator is my only option after all.

I'm back to 100% of my abilities. I had everything back that I lost with the Shakti device but the spontaneous vaginal orgasms, and I had one this morning. In light of this discussion, I had it at 8:45 am EST. Did someone give it to me? Just curious. By the way, I did use the Shakti device the proper way the other day, on the altered states settings, and it did nothing to my abilities, pro or con. So that is good to know.

Yes, I'm using my own juice for heart chakra orgasms. I generate the energy from having lots of vaginal orgasms--I have fifty or so a day. It takes me two or three days to work up enough sexual energy to have a heart chakra orgasm--when I do have one I am completely depleted and I have to start from scratch again.

I can share sexual energy with a group, but what I want to test I can only do with one man at a time. And I can't recuperate fast enough to give it to multiple men serially. Takes me a couple days to, erm, get back my juice.

Drew, so you have two explicit verbal confirmations. Good. Shaktimama, personally, I do want to know. I'm tired of not knowing. I'm also tired of men not knowing where it's coming from. I want to be valued.

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Damn it, I don't want to know through my pineal gland, I want to know through my ears. I want a man to say to me, or write to me--"Yes, I had an orgasm," or "No, I did not have an orgasm, I didn't even have wood." At least when I'm in the same room with a man I can see if I am making him pop a boner by simply observing his trousers. You can't tell. Women don't show arousal the way men do, they can fake it. A man can't fake a tentpole. I mean, aren't you curious? You spend so much time in full lotus doing it and so much time talking about your abilities, don't you want independent verification? I do. Because if I can't send at distance, then it's a just a really awesome sex fantasy and I can beat off as much as I like without feeling guilty or like I have to apologize or that I'm intruding some way. I don't want it to be real. At the most I want it to simply be that I'm psychically eavesdropping or peeping, getting off on spying without any ramifications to the person I'm spying on. I don't want it to be fucking real. But I want to find out if it is, now.

He did. I had to laugh seeing a recent picture of him in full lotus--made me think of Drew. I'm glad I came back to read TaoMeow's response. I was having trouble with the silence thing anyhow! Spent my time instead reading about the healthcare bill and getting angry at Joe Lieberman, so it wasn't really a break from thinking with the left brain. So this third thing, this Jade Stalk Talk--no, that's not my path at all. That is the path of the planet Pluto, and I have Pluto's match Eris in my first house. Eris is the planet of blinding light, not secret transformation. I was not depleted in the slightest by orgasming on television. My vaginal orgasms generate energy and having them in the light doesn't impair them in the slightest. It's not something I particularly enjoy--I'm not an exhibitionist, although I've certainly been called one enough times. I did it for teaching purposes only, same as posting in this thread. Now that I have been released, I will confess I am very curious. This whole thing with the Shakti device and seeing the Men Who Stare At Goats documentary and movie makes me want to find out more, a scientific exploration of what exactly this ability brings to the real world. Half of me has been convinced it was just my sexual fantasies and had no effect on other people, but now I'm shaken. I don't know what I believe anymore, although I do know how incredibly pleasurable it feels. I now want to look this gift horse in the mouth. Can I send heart energy from a distance? Can I test it? Can I take sexual energy from a distance? I am tired of being in the shadows, I want to know in sunlight if this is real outside the confines of my body, or if it is just that it feels incredibly real--like a really horny guy convincing himself, "Oh, she's so into me." Am I tricking myself because of my high libido? I want a man who is not in a serious relationship or married, someone over forty, someone with an open heart, someone who can easily have prostate orgasms (because otherwise it would be boring), someone who is both respectful and openminded. I'm not saying I want to date, although I'm of course willing to, I'm just damn curious! I want to try this and get honest feedback--that would be a refreshing change. I want words, I want emails. I want to be able to ask--did you have an erotic dream this morning? I know I can do what I do skin against skin--I want to know if I can do it at a distance. I want to KNOW! I don't want to be like Drew not really sure if he did or did not give women orgasms at a distance, I want to do it, ask and verify. I'm glad I got that off my chest. To sum up, I don't want to pussyfoot around with Crimson Palaces and innunendo--I want to KNOW--did you have an orgasm! Yes or no, black and white, can I do this or not! And I don't want to feel guilty about it anymore. I want someone who can unequivocally declare--yes, I want a succubus. Of course totally wrong forum for all this, with all the men practicing retention.

And yet, if I don't speak, then how will women know what I can do, and how they can learn how to do the same thing? I don't give shaktipat to women, I can only teach them. Not that any of them listen to me! For several years it was my job to talk about sex. It was a relief to post in this thread what I really wanted to say, rather than what I did say. The only reason I posted was because I was finally convinced it was true and universal, after reversing everything with the Shakti device. I am not telling women to do anything involving language, except for writing erotic stories. I suppose rather than talking I could show women. I did try, making an ass of myself on television showing how I could orgasm. I met with Betty Dodson--she showed women what to do, I just don't think I have the fire in me to be that sort of a leader, to set fire to a woman's kundalini with my own hands on her body. You really should watch the videos on this website: http://www.spiritualbrain.com I think what you saw is quite literally true. The left brain holds the sense of us being separated from the rest of the cosmos. It also holds all of our language. The right brain connects us to the whole cosmos--without a sense of self, the person cannot "die". I think that crown chakra orgasms somehow trigger a shutdown of the left brain completely, except maybe the left amygdala. There are two ways to use words. One is as a mantra, saying a word or words over and over again until the words lose all meaning and the right brain is freed. The second is to say words with meaning, to tether the right brain. After conversing with the inventor of the device, he recommended what I have instinctively done--the latter choice. Ritual is also good for me, playing with things, having altars, the physical tactile world. However, if you look at the path of death simply meaning a bad path, and the path of life meaning a good path, does it only apply to sex? Because if not, then you shouldn't even been posting, unless I'm misunderstanding. It would be difficult to restrict one's life to communication without words, but restricting communication to always be face to face where 90% of the communication is non-verbal, could theoretically be done. It would be an anomaly in the Internet age--you probably would have to join the Amish or a monastery. Would no books kill me? Twenty years ago it would have been difficult. I think I could do it today. I do very much respect your opinion, more than anyone else's. I'll try it for a year and a day. NPR headlines on my homepage. One one sentence post a day on my favorite website, and no other websites. No Internet--neo-Luddite. I don't really need to say anything anymore anyhow--everything I know I either wrote in my book or have already posted here, mostly in this thread. My store of knowledge is very small! As for specifically talking about sex, if this restriction was meant just for sex, I haven't been talking about it. Watching porn isn't sex, exercising the PC muscles isn't sex, taking lots of fish oil isn't sex. I don't think I mentioned it at all, except being open to having more of it. Anyhow, happy St. Lucia's day, talk to you next year! Much love.

Well...I wasn't really sure it was real until a couple weeks ago, when I turned it off. And it was more of a chicken/egg thing with Billy Zane. I was a fangirl first. He's a witch and at the time was experimenting with astral travel, he was out traveling so it kind of makes sense that I ran into him. I hadn't even had a regular orgasm for six months (long story) and he turned that right around. And then I instinctively discovered and followed the other things, including stumbling on my diet. Notice I didn't say that in my instructions to the ladies--"First, become a rabid fangirl." I don't believe in an afterlife or karma, I'm a wicked witch. I don't think orgasmic energy harms anyone, particularly at a distance. If you were blasting someone up close with it all the time who wasn't ready for it then yes. The danger is turning into a stalker, no need to wait for a second life. But if it makes you happy, I'll offer my current one some protection hexes and mojos and things. If he wants to use them, he can. Britney Spears had problems not from receiving orgasmic energy, but by falling in with a very bad boyfriend who drugged her deliberately to take control of her finances. I'm NOT doing that! If anything, it's the other way around.

I should post the second half of the process now that I've climbed up to it. The first half is to get very vaginally orgasmic, optimally spontaneously orgasmic, whereby simply flexing the PC muscles causes an orgasm. Have lots of these orgasms and it will generate a sexual ball of energy in your belly. The trick is then to get the energy to rise. For that you need a love object. Picking a love object is tricky, because most guys are about as open to receiving this energy as women are open to receiving a facial. You need to find a man to focus on with an open heart chakra, or at least one who pretends to have an open heart chakra. Not my personal cup of tea, much too young, but that foul young Pattinson chap in these popular vampire movies is along those lines. You know he's hitting as much young tang as he can get his hands on at clubs and probably is up to his earlobes in blow, but on camera he's all soulful and not trying to get into the young lady's panties (or neck, as it were). Not that there's anything wrong with wanting to get some! But to get the energy to rise it must be thwarted at the base. So if you don't have someone handy about the house, pick a movie star or rock star or two, preferably two or three. Don't do what I did and stupidly focus on one guy! Poor Billy Zane! Soulful pictures of the man showing his face and upper chest are especially good. Let me find a good example. And of course there's always the old standby If you do have a willing man about the house who's willing to act a little goofy, spend lots of time in yab yum with you both wearing comfortable pants like sweatpants and naked from the chest up. You rub your chest on his chest, almost like you have a penis in the center of your chest and he has a vulva in the center of his chest, and you are giving him a good rogering. This will help the process along, as long as the relationship between you is good. If he's being a dick, well, your energy will just drop back down to your nads. There's a good binaural CD that has two songs, one for each part of the process, both the energy generation and then getting the energy to rise, it's from Brainsync and called Ecstasy. And that's basically it. At first you should feel a pressure in the chest. I thought I was having angina! Except if angina felt really really good, yet frustrating. During the part where the energy is trapped in your chest you will probably get frantically horny, which is good. The more pressure built up, the easier it is to release. Finally the energy will shoot out, and it feels a lot like a regular orgasm, except centered in the chest. Having your partner give you nipple stimulation may also help the energy to rise but it may distract from actually ejaculating it. The energy goes out through the center of the chest, not the nipples. In my experience, my back arches usually, sometimes to the point of arching my whole body so it makes a bridge. I often cry afterwards or sometimes faint. It's very good and pleasurable! And very womanly too. It comes in handy during sex, because if you give a man this energy he will be able to recuperate very fast for another round. But the man has to have an open heart for it to work--some men are like Barbie dolls--no opening where there should be an opening!

Success! Still not spontaneously orgasmic, but plenty regular orgasmic, I guess enough to generate some energy. This morning I had a heart chakra orgasm! Nothing came out, like when you put a guy through his paces one too many times and he shoots blanks, but still, it felt great! Yesterday I was having tingles in the center of my chest, so I guess my body was revving up.

She sees her boyfriend once or twice a year--unless he's got hidden videocams all over her place he's not going to know.

The calcium/magnesium/zinc I simply recommend the RDA. Make sure you get at least 100% of the RDA of zinc--that's the most important mineral for libido. The fish oil supplements, although very high, actually replicate the nutrients our bodies would get on a hunter-gatherer diet, where most of our calories came from seafood, wild game and insects, all high in omega-3 fatty acids. The problem with the modern diet is that it is full of grains (which we did not evolve eating) and the meat that we eat, aside from fish, is raised eating grains rather than grass and free-range. This makes the meat very low in omega-3 fatty acids and high in omega-6 fatty acids. Having a baby takes a tremendous amount of omega-3 fatty acids, so a woman's libido drops on the modern diet, thinking there is a famine. The amount of omega-3 fatty acids I recommend for a 130-pound woman are the amount one would get eating a salmon steak for lunch and dinner every day, which women in fishing villages have done for millennia with no ill effects. I can't recommend women do that now, however, because the oceans are so polluted that the mercury would make you sick. The mercury is removed from fish oil so it is safer than eating fish. So if you want to be on my diet without taking supplements, it can be done if you only buy free-range meat and poultry and use free-range butter and eggs in cooking and eat some non-farm-raised fatty fish twice a week. Also better from a karmic point of view, but of course extremely expensive.

Oh Drew, be gentle with the newbies! Don't mind Drew, he's quite extreme. An Aneros might help things along, considering your husband's age, if he's open to that sort of thing.

As for the porn, again only do this after you've been on the full dose of fish oil for a few months and have been exercising your PC muscles with the Gyneflex every other day, or it will backfire. If your husband is up for it, while you are exercising your PC muscles he lies down apart from you so you get a good view, and slowly and erotically masturbates. It would be good if all you can see is his cock, but not required. He doesn't have to ejaculate, if he's saving it up for sex or taoist retention or whatnot, although if he does ejaculate that's good. Try not to have sex during these sessions--the goal is to increase your longing for cock, so if you know you're getting yours it won't work as well. Although if you like, when you're done with the PC muscle exercises you can masturbate too. Just stay apart. Also, some advice from an old woman to a young woman--if at all possible you can open up your boundaries to permit the concept of porn being enjoyed in a committed relationship, even helping a committed relationship--it might make things easier in the long run, over the long haul.

http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?showtopic=2552&st=20 But if you start asking me questions that are already in the book I will get vexed! Book answers all questions, particularly about the fish oil brands, doses, etc., and can be fully read in an afternoon, costs less than ten bucks.

Wow, you are having that sexual response while you are still breastfeeding! Brace yourself, because it's going to get a LOT stronger once your child is weaned. The attractive young men thing is quite strange. I suppose it's Nature's way of keeping everything in balance, since older men are often attracted to young women, that way everybody has someone! The ridiculous thing is that they get emotionally attached, and then there you are with well, anyhow it gets complicated. Handle young men carefully! You said you were married so it's not an issue for you, but any other women going through this I'd say no more than three times for sex and then kick them to the curb.

The red meat is for iron, and for the saturated fat. Fatty red meat. The beer doesn't help longterm with this power, in fact it is against it, but wine and beer are both disinhibiting, and especially for women a lowering of inhibitions at the beginning is helpful. All women at the start get absolutely nothing from staring at naked pictures of men or watching big cocks in porn. That's why I mentioned in my post it's to open things up. Once this has opened up, then yes, one develops an appreciation. But I wouldn't say I'm "driven" to watch porn. I am prescribing watching porn as homework for the kundalini opening process. It doesn't affect the conscious mind, but will affect the subconscious mind, particularly if done right before bed and while doing PC muscle exercise. This is a technique to force open the root chakra to become a kundalini furnace. It is not meant to be enjoyable, it is meant to be homework. And will probably be somewhat distasteful to most women. In the modern world, men's and women's sexuality is not complementary. Men generally have much higher drives than women, and men are tremendously frustrated and rejected on a fundamental level. That's why porn is so popular--men have a deepseated need to see women at least pretend to be the way I genuinely am. When one is horny, even obvious pretending can seem genuine. Men "know" their cocks should be worshipped and that their cum is a very valuable and important substance, and then they have to unlearn what they instinctively know to fit in with society and be able to date, etc. And again women watching porn isn't for higher spiritual bliss, this is to jumpstart the process and get the energy rising. To pop your kundalini cherry so to speak! Oh I don't mind free. Heck, I've posted my entire diet on this website! To be openminded, I was right about the libido thing and fish oil. If you ever feel curious, you might want to try the lefthand path thing I recommend, maybe for six months, if you do go on the diet. That way you can compare both ways of being and see for yourself which you prefer.

Get a VIBRATOR! Jumpstart the process. I know about this.

I must have a lot of karma and emotional baggage, because I like staying where I was. I mean eventually it will have to calm down when I enter menopause, unless I do HRT, but I like being the way I was, exactly that way. Still, I assume any woman who does start on this path with our advice will want to follow it further than I have gone, and will come to you to perfect things.

Of course you can post a warning in my thread, by all means. I'm not trying to hide what I am here--my handle here, my avatar, lefthand path in the title. Are you sure about your information on the foods? My main claim to fame is that I consume positively ENORMOUS amounts of fish oil. I thought that fish oil was a yin food? I also thought that good quality oils and fats like butter and other saturate fats are yin foods? I'm not a taoist, I might be wrong about that, but a quick google seems to indicate that I'm right. For men to encourage the yang energy, don't they look at pictures of naked ladies, among other things? So doesn't it make sense for women to look at pictures of naked men to encourage yin? At any rate, you probably don't need to issue a warning. Women for the most part think I'm stark raving bonkers, even if I tone down all the woo woo stuff and only talk about simply increasing libido, which my diet does. When I start talking about snakes and Olympic gold medal gangbang ability I lose the rest of my female audience. Men, on the other hand, generally find it gripping. It's a shame. In a perfect world, men would read Jane Austen, and women would watch lots of porn. Also, to be clear, my brain used to function perfectly normally, I was a typical woman (except for the empathetic ability, which I've always had to a greater or lesser extent). The things I ended up doing changed my brain function, in a sort of rewiring. So that's what I'm recommending women do--change how their brain functions. It goes back to normal if you go off the fish oil and stop all the other stuff, so it is reversible. And it looks like it goes back even if you are doing all the other stuff if you do what I did with the Shakti device, at least temporarily.