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People don't make money off of Buddhism and taoism? I was referring more to keeping the general populace docile and less apt to start revolutions against the ruling class. Opiate of the masses and all that. Well, I accidentally got the answer I was looking for. It is that guy. Not entirely sure he's doing it on purpose, it might just be me inadvertently being a sexual voyeur. That's a question I don't want to know the answer to. Bother, looks like I'm already a succubus in this life! I thought I had given up my wicked ways. And static permanence is death. I'm going to be dead a long time, I want to enjoy the changing dance of life while I'm alive. I think my desires are pretty moderate--my apartment is tiny and rundown and I love it. I've got this ridiculously ephemeral love interest and am content. I just want enough income to feed and clothe myself and provide for my children. I am very happy with very little. Oh and link please to the UVA study.

Hm. I read about that Liver Chi stagnation, and I don't have those symptoms. That doesn't sound like me either, except for the lack of exercise part. I already drink a lot of apple cider vinegar--I got rid of my allergies that way. Honestly feel fit as a fiddle, although fat.

Emergency room! My goodness, I will research it a little more before I try it! Thank you.

His name is Raven. But that doesn't tell me whether he's a thoughtform or not!

And this is why I posted my original post. I know my first thoughtform was a thoughtform, because I made it. But this one just sort of popped up. I'm trying to figure out if it's fish or fowl. I'm certain if it is an alien entity that it's a human one, just a projection. But I can't tell in the end whether it's an entity or a thoughtform. If that liver treatment will distinguish between a thoughtform and a spirit, I will try it. Curiosity is the driving force under this thread, not caution. I don't feel underlying emotional blockages. It will be interesting to see if that treatment produces stones. I'm certainly clean as a whistle down there, I had a colonoscopy over the summer and watched the whole thing. It was funny, I was chatting with the doctor and he kept commenting how beautiful my colon was.

hmm? Well of course there is no real "self" as in a static unchanging monad. The self of everyone is in a constant state of change, with changes in neurochemistry from hour to hour and outside influences. The idea of self is based in the material world and dependent on our animal brains, and I believe also changing astrological influences from day to day. That's hardly profound, it's basic neuroscience. If you damage the temporal lobe, for instance, the "self" will radically change. The self is created while we dance through life and is merely the product of our relatively sophisticated brains--elephants, for example, have a strong sense of self while a fish does not. I did not know that about the Buddha. I am glad to learn it; I am now much more cheerful about the laughing fat Budai statue I own for luck that sits near my computer. Ever since I was a child I have rubbed his belly for good luck. I do know the real Buddha nearly (and stupidly) starved himself to death, and it took a sensible woman to fish him out of the river and give him something good to eat. Frankly I think reincarnation or any sort of promise in the afterlife is simply religion's way of exerting control over the populace. It can never be proven, so religions make things up to elicit the desired behavior, from the virgins rewarding a suicide bomber to the Christian hell that practicing homosexuals are sent to. I'm confused about satiation. If I'm hungry, I eat and then I'm full. While my capacity for orgasms is vast, as I said I have these hallucinations? entity visits? where I come so hard I am sated for a few days. I also breathe every few seconds. The desire for oxygen is never ultimately sated--does that mean we should become less attached to breathing? The state of non-attachment to breathing is something I prefer avoiding! Sometimes this sort of attitude reminds me of my younger daughter who fiercely denies her body needs sleep. Sure some yogis can train their bodies to need less breathing, or to avoid death much longer than most people. But death comes to everyone and it's a natural part of life. I don't see the point of wanting only permanent things. Everything is in a state of change and permanence would stop the dancing. And the world certainly is imperfect! It is out of balance, now even down to the most basic chemistry of the planet. My hedonism is often satisfied. I do have concern for the suffering of others, but I am very happy with a steady income and my small home and children. The steady income thing is more iffy in this economy, so I do worry about that, but it doesn't take much to satisfy me.

Oh yes, I'm going to take you seriously after that remark. First off, I don't think the principle of non-attachment is particularly taoist. Is it? It's more Zen Buddhism, I think. I fiercely attach to things and of course get heartbroken, but that's just because the world is imperfect, not because attachment is a bad thing. And I don't know the sort of sex you've had, but I've had plenty of non-attached sex, as in not knowing the guy's last name. If this isn't attachment, it's certainly practice for it. It's very intimate. And it's not that I don't care about anything, I care about OTHER PEOPLE! That's why I like attachment. I'm not so attached to the idea of a very long life or great health. Those I can take or leave, but other people, yes, I like those other people. They don't seem to like me much though, I'm too peculiar I think. I am absolutely a hedonist, but the opposite of a nihilist. I think it might be different for women, there is not the need for sexual temperance to force the energy up high. I think hedonism is a good thing in women. Also, wasn't Buddha himself nice and plump? He must have been attached to food, and that's a good thing. I think for attachment it is good to attach to real things--other people, family, good food, a comfortable bed, a warm house, pretty clothes. It's not good to attach to pretend things--money, what other people think, status objects.

The orgasms I have are vaginal orgasms. My rate of clitoral orgasms is pretty normal for a woman my age, two or three a week, sometimes more or less depending on my cycle. Of course I do eat a lot of rich food and take copious amounts of fish oil. Clearly I am silly, since I am not interested in sending my sexual energy up to my head, or the golden body, or longevity. Also I have the word witch right in my name to warn people off from doing what I do. I am only of interest to this board because I do know how to increase basic sexual energy, and from what I've gathered that seems helpful for retention practice.

As always, you reassure me. I'd say I have more control than I did in my marriage. Although most visits are his idea, he mostly comes to me when I call him, and it's not always for sex. Sometimes he's not around, but mostly he is. And he'll back off if he comes at a bad time, if I'm driving or with my kids. Obviously he's more advanced than me, since he pulled me up to the sixth chakra. I just found out Chiron is the shaman "planet" in Western astrology. I have Chiron rising, so it means the way I interact with the world is by healing/hurting, that's what that asteroid does.

Honey, it could be anybody--I wrote a popular book on how spontaneously orgasmic I am. I orgasmed on Katie Morgan's show, for goodness sake. Well, whoever it is I'm not going to snoop, I respect his privacy. But thank you for the offer, I do appreciate it!

What about entities from this dimension? In other words, what if it's just a guy who's handy at projecting? Also, to deepbluesea, I am not a taoist. I am not concerned with preserving energy, and I don't particularly value health. I do value attachment, very much. So I will continue the way I am.

Well, as long as you brought that up, that's of course what happened when I did my shenanigans with trying to teach him a lesson. I was totally out of my league. He just reached out and not only did I lose my entity, I lost all memory of my entity. It was a complete negation, a void. There was only him. I assume it wasn't really him, just some sort of protective spirit, because it wasn't quite...human. And I was pretty tapped out, because I usually am but what little I had left was taken--swiftly and thoroughly. It made me so sad, that he took my one little lamb. And of course I was pretty scared. On the other hand, maybe he was doing me a kindness to banish my entity, since they seem to be looked on rather dimly here, but it didn't taste right. To give the benefit of the doubt, maybe with Kunlun if you go into it with low motives, like I did and possibly a little the way you did it sounds like, you attract the wrong sort? One thing I will say, contemplating doing this liver cure. I realized two things--first off, when I look at all this, there is no doubt in my mind that the entity is human and male. Second, the man I am in love with I am in love with because I think he might be my entity, and not the other way around. In other words, I am in love with this entity and don't want to do the liver cure to make him go away. I know that sounds ridiculous but there it is, it is now obvious to me.

All right, I will give it a try. Thank you!

previous lives But all right, I'm all about balance. If that is an imbalance in my physical system, I'm happy to do whatever cleansing that is. Although I will say I enjoy the way I am now. Is this an appropriate liver-gallbladder cleanse? http://www.hps-online.com/hliver2.htm I found this over at the realmsofmagick messageboard and it made me laugh. Not completely applicable because mine comes to me just as easily while I'm awake, no difference. - There is no "boring everyday life" with Dream Lovers. It's just... sex. - You do not have to tell Dream Lovers what it is you especially like in bed. They are in contact with your subconscious, you know. - Distance is not an issue. Move where you want and your Dream Lover can follow without a problem. - There are not any "you don't love me anymore!"s. If you get bored - just banish the bastard! - No need to hassle with condoms. (Astral protection is still advisable...) - You do not have to take your Dream Lover to meet your parents. - Dream Lovers can shape shift. Imagine the possibilities! - You do not have to worry about unexpected pregnancies. (At least those are very, very rare.) - No fighting over silly things like who left the toilet seat up or where a toothpaste tube is supposed to be squeezed. - You will not get "I'm having a headache" or "Not now, it's that time of the month!" from a Dream Lover. - Dream Lovers aren't stuck at being one sex. Not even being one sex at the time... - You will not be nagged to change your diet and exercise more. On the dream planes, weight is not an issue. Neither is your physical condition. - A Dream Lover will not whine how you are using it just for the sex. That is the whole deal with them anyway. - Even the most egoistic person can find an ideal sex partner. Just summon a Dream Lover who wears your looks. - Dream Lovers will not get drunk and embarrass you at a party. - They do not mind if you got drunk and embarrassed yourself at a party. - You will never have to worry about what to say in the morning and whether you are supposed to cook them breakfast or not. Once you wake up, they are gone. - They will not run off with your best friend and hang around in your favorite night-out joints making you jealous. - If your Dream Lover does run off with somebody else, just summon another! - You will not be hearing "When are you going to make me a decent Incu/Succubus?" No earthly instance would marry you anyway. - Dream Lovers do not that much care if you have other Dream Lovers. Not even the same time with them. - They will not complain about your cooking. You are always serving them their favorite dish: you. (They might, however, complain about the dinner being late if you happen to suffer from insomnia...) - Dream Lovers will not move in and never pay any rent. Their upkeep is free anyway. Written by Faerie K.

I know exactly how it happened, exactly. I wrote a little bit about it in my book. I was in a really bad marriage, the sex was truly awful and my husband held me in contempt. At the time I was a devout Christian, and I strongly believed that it was the wife's duty to have sex with her husband whenever he wished. After a time the sex started feeling a lot like rape, and I was shutting down as a person. I deliberately constructed a fantasy lover so that I could feel amorous all the time and be ready for sex whenever my husband wished. It worked so well and I was so convinced that marriage was for life, that I did witchcraft to make it real and permanently bind it to me, so that I wouldn't be tempted to commit adultery or otherwise leave. I didn't know it was witchcraft at the time, but I do now. Then of course I got divorced and was saddled with this unwanted thoughtform. I couldn't get rid of it permanently by any means, not even voodoo. Then eventually this entity showed up and immediately banished the thoughtform. So it was an out of the frying pan into the fire type of situation. But it's a nice fire. With the thoughtform, it helped my energy rise to my chest, but it never got farther than that. This entity has occasionally pulled my energy up to my head. I enjoy sixth chakra orgasms. And that one time I was in the process of having one, but I happened to be sitting up in a chair, and the energy accidentally slipped out the top of my head and I had a crown chakra orgasm. Which is what brought me here, I found it very disconcerting! Another nice thing about the entity is that I always need more vaginal orgasms. Even when I've been with men and had hundreds of orgasms, the longest that holds me is like a day. I don't know what it is about the deep dicking this entity gives me, but the orgasms he gives me are so strong and deep, that just one or two will hold me for several days. Maybe he can reach spots that a human cock can't reach? I think you are right, particularly about the lighthouse thing. I will most definitely investigate that, like I said, having a framework to view this in with some sense of perspective and belonging to a community will help a lot with living with this. Half the time I'm worried about schizophrenia or something--it feels so incredibly real!

Definitely hard on the old mental health. I suppose the greatest danger is hoping that it is a projection of the man I love. It certainly is very convincing in all aspects! As long as I can keep perspective there I will be fine. What it really feels like, this is what my gut is telling me. Although my gut is often wrong! It feels like someone I know well in the future coming back into my past. It does keep me pretty drained, but I consider that a good thing. I am very hard to find now, unless I make an effort to reach out and enter someone or someone knows me very well.

Get rid of the energy! Right? Or shut off the ability to perceive that realm. You said in another thread you've never had an orgasm. Get a good vibrator like a Hitachi Magic Wand or an Eroscillator. I can get rid of my energy rising up to my heart if I have enough ejaculation orgasms, and that will get rid of the entity, at least for a while. Very time-consuming though, because I have to have several of them to disperse all the energy and it takes a while. Hard on the wrist too! And anything that raises serotonin will act as a grounding and shut off the water realms. Starchy and sugary foods, caffeine, antidepressants, St. John's wort, 5-htp (or whatever it's called).

I'm in Boston. I think I'm going to look into old school shamanism--from what I've heard this sort of thing is pretty standard for shamans. At least it would provide a cultural framework for reflecting on what I'm experiencing

I wouldn't say I believe in ghosts, exactly. The only experiences I have had directly with ghosts were of people in comas and other living people. I'm agnostic about the afterlife. If it exists, I will undoubtedly go to hell or be reincarnated as a animal or something. I certainly don't believe in it enough to change my life. This entity could be a thoughtform, a product of a VERY vivid imagination, outright hallucination, some kind of supernatural spirit, a live person, a dead person. Most likely a thoughtform, I would assume. Still, I see a good thing and I eat it. Tonight I stopped at Whole Foods on the way home and had a shawarma sandwich. Beef/lamb, cucumber salad, hummus, pickles, red onions, and the man poured on the tahini--the pita couldn't contain it all, it was messy and the tahini ran down my hands and chin. It was delicious. This entity is delicious too. I don't practice retention--I have fifty orgasms a day and my sexual energy leaps to my chest easily. I have no interest in sending it higher. Been there, done that, got the T-shirt. So if I'm ejaculating the energy from my chest anyhow, I'm happy it's being put to good use. I unload every few days--why not? And the entity gives me wonderful sex in exchange. And as I said, peace and quiet. And I don't have to do his laundry! I suppose it is like bestiality in some ways, unless there's a person on the other end of it. Either way is fine.

That would be a cheerful thought, if it were a live person travelling rather than a dead person! and ghost jism is completely absorbed by the recipient.

I rather like being alone. All my life I've been with someone. After I turned thirteen I don't think more than a month went by when I was between boyfriends. I'm old, I've had children, I've already done the marriage thing--so all that doesn't bother me. As for falling in love, not much control there. I could force myself to stop feeling the way I do, I suppose. But I enjoy it. Being in love makes other men kind of bland to me, at least the idea of them. And there is the fact that I'm old, fat, have my kids on the weekends, and work long hours during the week with a long commute. Unlikely to find someone anyhow interested in more than casual sex, and this provides pleasure.

Truly, Madly, Deeply? Well now, I am in love with a human but he doesn't love me. The entity is happy to dress up.

Given up on treating men like fast food. And this is pretty wild.