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I didn't realize I had a master until this weekend. I guess I do, my Jungian animus is throwing its weight around. Anyhow, I'm pretty handy already with playing with energy. That's why I was confused in the other thread on shaktipat, because on another board I was describing my experiences and the people there said I was pouring out shaktipat, and then all of a sudden I had men offering to fly to meet me to get it, offering to pay me. That flustered me so I left the board, but that was my only exposure to the term so I thought it was a girl thing, especially with "shakti" in the name. Basically what I do is this--I have dozens, sometimes over a hundred vaginal orgasms every day, without ejaculation, and that builds up this huge pulsing ball of energy that rises to the center of my chest. I ejaculate that energy into men's chests or alternately in a form of I guess tantric masturbation, imagining a man's chest as I ejaculate the energy. Doing this sometimes causes me to faint, but it generally triggers an automatic arching of the back, sometimes my whole body is thrown into a bridge if I am lying down, and the center of my chest literally spasms in orgasmic contractions, with the same timing as a normal orgasm. If I don't do this every few days I get the tantric girl equivalent of blue balls. I get really fratchety, my chest starts to hurt, etc. I can make it go away by G-spot stimulation and multiple ejaculations, but that's really hard work. This has been happening to me for the last several years, might be five years now. I have a question about that, I generally have one go-to guy at a time, for fantasy purposes. Do I have to worry that the heart energy is actually going anywhere? But my more pressing question is about the boy equivalent. From what I can glean, energy exchange like this forms a figure 8. Men give sexual energy to women by typical ejaculation during sex, women give men energy back with this sort of heart chakra orgasm, and I'm pretty sure men can return the favor through the forehead, because I've had a very sexual opening up in the middle of my forehead. I'm pretty sure that's a place for receiving energy, it feels really, well, vaginal up there, so I'm assuming that men can ejaculate energy from there into a woman. I want to learn more about this, so if you talk about this on your DVD's or whatnot, I'm buying. The thing that originally brought me to this board was one time when I was aiming for a sixth chakra orgasm I happened to be sitting up at my desk, so instead of having a regular sixth chakra orgasm it oozed out the top of my head, like a bubble trapped underwater escaping. It was interesting but I didn't much care for the experience. Once was enough! I like my self, the loss of self one with the cosmos thing was something to experience, but I'm not in pursuit of it the way most other people are into the crown chakra orgasm thing. But Taomeow answered my questions about that, so I'm reassured. So really it's the male sixth chakra information I want to know, much like a twelve-year-old girl wondering about what boys are like "down there."

Very confusing! 1 water, 1 fire, 3 earth, 2 wood, 2 metal Although I think I just figured out how the two systems fit together, I have to do a little more research to be sure.

Wow! Now you've got me curious. Where is the tenth number? Shouldn't there be ten? I will investigate. I still think Western ways can hold their own--we have catching up to do since our system has only completed several years ago. There will be a lot of sudden changes in the Western world in the next decade, some sudden catching up to do! The Western way is on 12, and now finally there are 12 found. Actually technically 13, but in usage acts like 12.

I called it wrong. That was a quick jump from obsessive psychotic thoughts to easily getting a new girlfriend! The resiliency of the young! You don't need my book if you can detach that easily, never mind! Also my diet can cause premature ejaculation in men.

Interesting. I didn't know I was restricted, I guess I am--good to know! Just as well, Miami is pretty far away from Boston. With Master Max I was personally frightened, with you I am not allowed. My curiosity is only for information anyhow. You have many pricey DVD courses there on your website. Which one will tell me all about male sexual sixth chakra ability? If you direct me to the right one I will buy it.

Does that invitation extend to me? I think you could answer a lot of the questions that drew me to this board in the first place. -Marrena

Hmm. I don't usually push my book on this forum, but I'm going to here. Get The Orgasmic Diet, by Marrena Lindberg. Go on the diet. Men on the diet need to not take the extra iron I recommend, and they should use the Aneros rather than the Gyneflex device. I don't think it's coincidence that these things are happening at the same time. Unrequited desire is a very powerful force to draw up sexual energy into the higher chakras. I think your subconscious is instinctively fastening itself onto the quickest way to your goal, and you will find difficulty in breaking that connection. You will end up fighting yourself. Going on my diet will make your daydreams sweeter. Also, I personally don't think extreme cultivation is healthy--I think you should ejaculate at least once a week. If you can see your desire for what it is, your subconscious deliberately choosing someone who will reject you in order to facilitate the rise of kundalini, it might help with balance. Also keep a sharp watch on yourself. Thoughts are one thing, actions are another. If you find that you cannot handle the intensity of emotion and are finding yourself making contact in the real world with her, in any way, even going to places she might be, then you must stop all of this immediately, and throw yourself in the other direction--get a Wonder Wave Fleshlight, a boatload of porn, and ejaculate as much as you can every day. And start dating other women!

I should point out I didn't much care for the crown chakra orgasm I had. I've experienced loss of self, and I dislike it. It was amazing, just not my cuppa. I like sixth chakra orgasms, where each person is fully themselves. I agree here. Some women's drive to have sex is mental rather than driven by their body's desire. If it counts for anything, I've made it my life's work to make women like me less rare. I like being this way.

I don't get what Ian is saying at all. Without excitement and personality, energy exchange is flat and anemic. Even friction has its place. ?

It's always the man's fault, isn't it? The cause is very simple--hidden malnutrition. Period. The loving heart energy pouring from the center of my chest is overwhelming. True it's nice to find a man with the capacity to receive it, but men don't determine the ability. Likewise I can fuck most men under the table. My capacity for frequency and variety in partners is much more outsized than a man's. Pardon my cussing, but it is to emphasize I'm not some sort of delicate flower, unless it's a Venus flytrap. It's like in Shakespearean times, where his running joke was the insatiable horniness of women. Or further back in Greek times, where they were talking about wives just wanting sex sex sex, and homosexual relationships were about a meeting of the minds. Women's libido is the canary in the coalmine for diet out of whack.

Yes, I think fluffy bunny books are good for your fluffy bunny. Silver Ravenwolf is very fluffy, has a strong tween appeal. I think a charming intro would be Raven Grimassi's Beltane book--it has very basic spells, rituals, lots of fairy lore including fairy tales. For Egyptian wicca there's a lot of weird stuff out there. If you want her exposed, probably the best thing you can do is get her a children's book on the Egyptian gods and goddesses, just to give her familiarity.

I've gone through two bedroom lamps, the bathroom ceiling lamp keeps shorting out lightbulbs, along with the kitchen and pantry ceiling lamps and the living room lamps don't work very well either. I thought it was crappy wiring in this apartment, but my old car died with some kind of electrical problem, I bought a brand new hybrid (because I'm a greenie) and that one has some kind of freak electrical problem, although thank goodness not a safety hazard. Finally, my computer at work died and the IT guy hadn't bothered with a backup because the computer had a mirrored hard drive, well both of the drives have started failing at the same time, which he said shouldn't be happening. I'm knocking wood that my own computer has a long life, but whatever it is that I'm doing to machinery, is there a way to shield it or something? Or am I just being paranoid?

tsk, tsk, only one female author! A young girl should get into witchcraft from a craft point of view. Too young for eighth house things, she should focus on second house things--flowers, candles, incense, cord magic, Lammas corn dollies, crystals, wands, pendulums--particularly crafts and celebrations that celebrate the Sabbats and Esbats. I've got a whole shelf of spellbooks at home, I will look some up tonight. A simple thing is to have her make new moon wishes. In a fancy blank book, within eight hours of the exact new moon (once it has passed, the sooner the better) she can write down three wishes. That's a good girlie thing to start. I'm not allowed to teach my daughters witchcraft, part of the divorce agreement (informally). But I've certainly thought about it.

I guess I did it in a different order. I was hospitalized for suicidal depression, yadda yadda, had problems since childhood, during my marriage had depression, was on antidepressants, did research on nutritional and other natural ways to heal depression so I could get off antidepressants and have a baby. I was really concentrating on the physical. I mean, I'm fat and out of shape, but mentally I'm very physically healthy, if that makes sense. So I haven't had any dark nights or psychological agony with my energy rising, only pleasure. Although on the other hand it's entirely likely I'm just a beginner and you are very advanced and I will be going through dark soul nights in the future, I don't know. Not to say I didn't have difficult times--with the breakup of my marriage it was very difficult and I was very sad a lot of the time--but not depressed or similar to the pain you describe (which were common states in my earlier life, set off just by being alive rather than traumatic events). I can't help but think though, if I had been able to help you at that time just with the physical part, it would have helped alleviate your anguish.

Well I wear a heavy copper bracelet now--I follow Hathor (also a heavy gold ring with a large lapis lazuli, same reason). It would be dangerous for me to wear a zinc bracelet, I am already taking very high amounts of zinc--part of the Orgasmic Diet. Thank you Taomeow. Once again I am in your debt!

I think that might have been more painful than it needed to be. May I ask what you were eating, how you were sleeping during that time? Were you outside in the sunshine?

I was involved in one of the initial epidemiological studies done for Motorola. Being on the inside, as it were, I know the parameters. What the telco companies say is true--there is no proof of brain cancer in humans. On the other hand, cell phones at the time (in the '90s) hadn't really been around long enough for proof. The telcos may have retroactive immunity, but that's not going to help them when the time is up. The people who would be hit most hard are people who were early adopters, with heavy cellphone usage. Those people are the most powerful people in our society. If Ted Kennedy's situation becomes an epidemic among the elite in the next twenty years, you can be damn sure heads will roll.

Douglas Adams wrote a book that started off with that, I think it was the Long Dark Teatime of the Soul. It turned out it was the Norse gods messing with his protagonist! You laugh. I'll tell you what made me decide to be a witch. I had had some other things give me pause, like waking up in a cold sweat yelling on 9/11, but the thing that clinched it was one day I was very angry at my soon-to-be ex-husband, and I cursed him. Standing in my kitchen while he was at work, I formally said out loud, "I curse you, name, et cetera...." and within a couple hours a tree fell on his car. After that I said to myself it might all be hogwash, but just to be on the safe side I had better learn more about it, like if you're stuck packing a gun best to spend some time on a shooting range. I carry an onyx in my left hand to absorb the energy, also of course pour out mostly daily through the heart chakra, and I ground my energy (although clearly not enough! ) That's why I don't try to store energy in my third chakra (dan tien?) Last thing I want to do is make it stronger!

Always the material world, makes sense. My chart is weak there. Grounding it is, thank you everyone for the advice!

"chasing" pleasure? I have orgasms easy as breathing--pleasure chases me! I don't think that pleasure and pain make a duality. Pain is in the realm of Chiron--Chiron is not part of a duality. Pleasure is in the realm of Venus--Venus has a duality with Mars and Pluto. So the opposites of pleasure would be other people's pleasure, particularly giving other people pleasure, and also material action--competitive sports, violence, conquest--male action. Sexually speaking the astrological pairs are Mars/Venus Mercury/Neptune Sun/Moon Eris/Pluto (Charon) Jupiter/Ceres Uranus/Saturn Pain, Chiron, is on its own, it is the wanderer of the gods, the messenger of the gods. Chiron is the wounded healer. The opposite of pain isn't pleasure, the opposite of pain is healing, and this is the one realm where a person is not self-contained. Everyone has a Venus and Mars in their chart, but Chiron cannot heal itself, Chiron can only heal others. I have Chiron rising so pain and healing have a greater prominence in my life than most. Satisfied...well, one eats every day and breathes every moment. Does that make those bad things? I would be satisfied with sex in the morning and sex at night in a relationship. After having a sixth chakra orgasm or a crown chakra orgasm I don't desire sex for several days afterwards. Also if my body is sick or I have just ovulated my libido drops. I don't see the problem there. I'm not in a relationship currently, so I have lots of orgasms on my own. It's good! I haven't been scared of most things since I had a crown chakra orgasm. It's not as bad as it was--a little fear is good for the adrenaline. I knew something was off after I nearly got in a car accident and I was perfectly calm. That's not natural for a human being. Finally my responses are back to normal--my heart rate goes up in scary situations. But rationally speaking, I'm not afraid of death. I should qualify that--I am worried about death, I don't want to die until my girls are adults, for their sake. I also worry about losing my independence from poverty or ill health. All times are now, and I have achieved what I set out to do and have great comfort in shining moments that have happened. I am satisfied. There is one small thing I would still like to do, but that I don't want to hex, wouldn't be sportsmanlike. If it happens, it happens. If not, I will live and be happy. I strive every day for balance. I think that might make me some kind of taoist, I'm not sure. With my chart, balance comes from incarnating Venus and Mercury. I am too spiritual and concerned with the hidden nature of things. It is better for me to concentrate on the material and the sensual and to be cheerful about it. That is the way to reach my goals, by doing the opposite of what one would think. The one thing I'm genuinely scared of is a thawing of the permafrost leading to a sudden cataclysmic methane offgassing, causing the cessation of life on earth. This scares me very much. I suppose in the worst case we could seed the atmosphere with sulfur, like after a volcanic eruption. But we can only do that if we are paying attention. At least people are paying attention now.

Personal attachment is what caused my energy to rise, without special practice or a guru or master. The sort of witchcraft I practice contains only personal attachment and sensuality--everything else is dead to me. I am a quite cheerful animal, and have no interest in following Buddha. Christ still pulls me now and again with a twang, but I resist him!

Not much to add to this thread, sheng zhen! As always, Taomeow said what I think first and better. I think there are two sorts of love--the instinctive love returned to someone who shows us love, and the love that is based on true seeing. While love is blind, I think it's the business of love to find out the truth of the beloved, otherwise the love is for an idea of a person rather than a person. As for some sort of vague generic tapioca pudding concept of Love for humanity with a capital L, I think that's a misnomer. Having compassion on the less fortunate is really less about one's feelings, and more about one's actions. Compassionate feeling is no excuse for letting injustice or poverty or hunger stay in the world without fighting them, and the man who hates humanity but works hard for laws to protect the poor is doing a better deed than the man who is filled with love for mankind while he sits on his behind in the lotus position and does nothing. That is, if you are concerned with virtue. I am a wicked witch, so virtue is not so important to me!

I find the thought of impersonal love so repellent I had put it out of my mind.

Hmm...my dick is in my heart. Doesn't it go like an 8? Men second chakra testicles send energy into women, women's fourth chakra heart returns energy to man, man's sixth chakra forehead returns energy to woman, woman's fourth chakra heart returns energy to man, and back to the ol bump and grind.

Um, not to stir up trouble here, but if he has left his body why would someone have to show up for a class to receive his energy? Couldn't he just easily visit people at will? I'll be quiet now!