witch

Dang, I try to do the opposite! So many people I hear all the time so I hardly know who I am sometimes. It's restful to focus on just one and enjoy the peacefulness, especially if you know that person is on your path.

You say masturbation like it's a bad thing! I thought it was kind of self-evident why having lots of orgasms every day was fun, but maybe not. At this point I'm used to people thinking I'm crazy, so here goes. I'm not interested in enlightenment, I'm interested in sexual pleasure. From going through this involuntary tantric puberty of mine, I think that women are made to ejaculate sexual energy from the heart chakra and men from the sixth. Men are made to receive sexual energy at the heart and women are made to receive sexual energy at the third eye. And of course the second chakra energy exchange ain't so bad either! But if the second chakra energy exchange isn't an option, then it helps to practice alone on the higher chakras (although I am convinced a woman can act as a handy shortcut for a man who wants to quickly get his second chakra energy up to his sixth chakra, kind of like the game of Chutes and Ladders). I've said this before and I'll say it again--I think men who go to extremes of semen withholding from their partners are selfish. Once a week is more than enough for men under fifty, and once every two weeks is long enough for men over fifty. And I think men who go to all the work to get their sexual energy up to their heads and let it ooze out of their crown chakra instead of ejaculating it into a woman are Once or twice to feel what it feels like I can understand, but a man with a sexual partner should give that to her, just like she should give him her heart energy.

My my.

Everything in me is gone, like the Grinch stealing Christmas. It's all gone.

Freeform, just to be clear, I do understand that giving out does have an effect on the donor, that person does receive something. But that something isn't necessarily simultaneous energy outpouring from the one who receives. The donor might instead receive an emptiness, a yearning for that reciprocal energy, which in itself is a gift. But anyhow, sorry about all the veering. I will try the practice when my book comes.

No. Of course I self-generate. I generally have at least one heart chakra orgasm a day, whether I'm having sex or not. Men's energy is tasty because it is a different flavor from mine, but I am certainly fine on my own! I give out much more than I take in when I do have sex. But I don't want to self-fulfill. I like pouring out in heart chakra orgasms, and I don't want to push my own energy up to my skull. I don't think that not wanting a partner is simplifying, I think it's like preferring masturbation over sex--works for some people, but not my thing.

Sure you can receive without giving and give without receiving! And if you do give and receive it doesn't happen all at once. I'm confused. I'd say most women receive without giving. I think a woman needs to develop this ability, which is a little bit tricky and takes some work and time, but certainly isn't as difficult as all this male cultivation practice! Typically when I have sex with a man, even if he is wearing a condom, I can fully eat the energy he sends out when he comes. One time I had sex with a martial artist who, although while not able to get his energy above his heart chakra was astonishingly good at sending the energy out during ejaculation. We had sex three times that night and each time it literally felt like a grenade was going off inside me when he came. For me, it generally takes about three to five minutes for the energy to rise. We lie there together post-coitally, and then the energy, it's like a teakettle boiling, it rises up to my heart, and then I embrace my partner, rubbing my chest against his (I don't tell the men what I am doing, they assume it's just post-sex affection, and I suppose it is, in a way). I then ejaculate my energy into his chest, and try to hide the telltale signs like back-arching, and so far I haven't fainted with a partner, the way I sometimes do on my own when I do that. I'm sneaky. Then the men revive and look at me differently, with a soft tenderness, and generally start talking very eagerly about things they care deeply about, they become animated and smiling and very cheerful after I give them my energy. And sometimes it revives them to want sex again. But that's why I've been celibate, because sex without a heart chakra ejaculation doesn't feel "finished" to me, but when I did this secretly the men then started having feelings for me, and I didn't like hurting them. So I made up my mind to wait until I found a man whom I could have feelings for in return, which I have.

Enlightenment isn't important, it is a state and passes. More important is sex. Enlightenment is simply part of the process for men to improve their sexual prowess, by bringing the sexual energy up to their foreheads so they can give women energy from two places on their bodies. Energy is there to be passed back and forth between a man and a woman, bringing great pleasure to both--every day. In this way our bodies are wiser than our rational minds. In true sexual union at all points--genitals, heart and mind, men and women partake of the divine union and feel the love that courses through all things. The woman reaches union with the male essence, with the cosmic Yang, and likewise the man flows into Yin. See, I am all upside-down and backwards!

Hmm...I am certainly carnivorous so I don't think I would qualify as awakened or enlightened or a high-level pathworker, but I will say over the past nine years I have been on my diet I have gone through some, err, unusual experiences. I think it is a mistake to go live in a cave or drop out of the world to let these experiences take over, except in two situations--first, if one is under the direct tutelage of a trusted teacher, or if a person is over sixty and has grown wise in the ways of his or her chosen path. I think interacting with the world and the daily grind are the best instructors one can have while pursuing these sorts of experiences. They keep a person grounded and suffering. With grounding comes balance and with suffering comes depth, the capacity to take more in. That's not to say that a person going through these sorts of experiences can just be social all the time. Some solitude is necessary. But throughout history, most monastic communities, even the most cloistered, had monks doing mundane daily labor, hard work. And it certainly can be disruptive to friendships and family connections! All of my old friends have fallen away, thinking me nuts. My marriage ended. So those sorts of things might change.

One thing I am very rarely called is a tease! One hint, to serve dual purpose (because three weeks is way too long without ejaculating for a seventeen-year-old on my diet)

Thank you for that. People don't generally believe me, at least until they try it. And thank you, Yoda, for the amazon thing! But I don't want to veer the thread! I was just mentioning it as an aside.

I'm attracted, all right, but neither ghost nor demon! There's a balance in life! Even Buddha liked to eat! Maybe dreaming of a woman who truly values a man's jing, dreaming of giving something valuable and valued rather than ejecting something from the body that is treated like toxic waste is good for opening the heart chakra in a man, allowing him to receive energy that can oh, never mind. Men!

go on my diet and pop his cherry

Well in the Looney Tunes Roadrunner/Coyote it is the Roadrunner who is the trickster. I am also aware of the man's sexual energy. That's not something I would overlook! My diet does something a little different to men, quite frankly something he needs. I dare him to go on it. I double dare him. It changes a man's heart. Mantis, I'm keeping the secret hidden because very few people would believe it, and while I don't mind looking like a priceless ass, I don't go out of my way to look like one!

That explains why he wasn't curious about the diet--because he already knew everything about it. Except the secret thing, which he still doesn't know. Your master combines the worst traits of Columbo, Gandalf and the Roadrunner! Relentlessly inquisitive.

Well now, that fixed my little red wagon! By the way, I bought his book too. Hasn't come yet, but when it does, I do have an open mind.

And if you are saying that I am displaying the characteristics of a Taurus type, I couldn't be more pleased! I strive as much as possible to follow Venus, Hathor, because the second house contains my North Node and Taurus is on the cusp (although it's actually in Gemini). In my mind this energy is to be shared, back and forth, emptying not for the sake of emptiness, but to pour into someone else who will then pass the energy back to you transformed. Like playing ball. I neither want to hold onto the ball nor do I want to get rid of the ball--I want to play with the ball!

Oh honey, I'm not afraid of emptiness! And I am very fat, yes. And also wicked.

I'd say stillness is the opposite of emptiness. The surface of the moon isn't still, it's empty. A forest can be still, an animal can be still, but something emptied out can't be still.

Oh screw that--I'm not a cup, I'm a funnel.

So the point of this practice is true emptiness? Hmmm....no thank you!

Actually I think originally long ago it was a gravestone inscription--to remind us where we all end up! I know it's a big deal with ceremonial magicians and alchemists, but for the regular witch it simply refers to astrology, particularly the movements of the Moon.

I'm definitely doing it then. Any pointers on finding a good teacher? I'm in Boston. A friend of mine on the West Coast into it said just to do a google search on raks sharki. Mal--don't worry about your sexual energy's potentially damaging effects. Lama Dorje is VERY strong and I believe sending it out through his forehead. That's a different thing. If anything, the sad thing is that women generally can't feel any of their partner's poured out sexual energy. Have your girlfriend read my book; my diet helps women open up and feel the potency of their partners' ejaculations.

I've done karate and I did tai chi, both with very good teachers. In my tai chi class it was really a step up class to their regular martial arts and they did lots of qigong pratice. I finally had to stop because I was breastfeeding at the time and it made too much milk, it was embarrassing, even with pads during class. And then another baby came along and then a divorce and then my book and my life got frantic. Now I have time to do something. And I don't think that's it. I've seen real bellydancers in Morocco--it's a spiritual training, it was obvious to me the dancers I was watching were in an altered mental state from it. I'm going to try it out. I still occasionally do qigong when I'm cold and don't have a coat. The qigong practice I did sent all the energy to the third chakra, and that's not something I want to do either.

hmmm....I think most of the women here are adepts at the microcosmic orbit and are handy with martial arts. I am neither. I've been looking for some kind of movement cultivation, but my instincts are telling me this is the wrong path, because I don't want to get my energy higher than it's already going. My instincts are telling me some kind of belly-dancing, raqs sharqi, because my energy has a much tighter orbit--base chakra to heart.