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" this is *your* primal energy. not some foreign thing you can fight off. when she wakes up she can and will do whatever she wants/needs to do to make you listen. or she will burn the thing that calls itself "you" away to create a less rigid personality structure." This is how I see "her" as well. Thanks for that.

I'll shoot for laziness for two points. Plus the water "purification" cycle that probably has some places drinking and flushing the same stuff several times over. Plus the mozzies and the weed growth.

That's unfortunate.

How about you post relevant extracts in the main forum threads that talk about each topic? There's a good one happening right now on consciousness. I would be interested in how you combine "spiritual" and "science". Currently claimed to be at odds with each other but hmm, not everyone is buying it:-)

I heard a radio prog about doctors successfully using Ibogaine to 'reset' drug addicts. I feel for you Mike because you're having a rough time of it. Let me add that K doesn't necessarily remove 'ordinary' desires but it does kick harder if you indulge in them without consciousness (at least has been my experience). So it's not the money and women at issue, it's the unconsciousness. IMO. Otherwise nothing wrong with either:-) The only way "out" as far as I get it is "through". TaoMeow did stop hers but I don't recall how. Yeah funny (not) that you got it without intending to. I reckon that's also (perhaps) part of why it can be so tough. I doubt that I would be able to deal with it without help and resources such as TTB but there's also that notion of context and understanding. The guys at KAP are helpful IME but lots of other folks on here are too.

Maybe if you posted excerpts of your book for folks to discuss and feed back to you. That could be a very cool book - And then obviously the contributors would promote it (because promoting themselves). Please don't do one of those "crowdsourced" things however. Those suck IMO.

From experience. Many of my thoughts are in no way things to change my state for the better. I was just reading about mantras being an "access code" to other aspects of oneself. I "get it" but I'm also skeptical. Tending towards the "whatever" as met at each point of attention.

Righto. So no visitations by goddesses of any sort, nor spontaneous lights nor what I call 'wtf' from here to there in one's imagination? I should add that I saw a snake before supper and birds are currently my everyday. I keep seeing new ones. To them, I'm sure it's all old hat. But I reckon I scare them off with my jaw dropping open at their colours and songs and closeness. And sometimes the funny things they do:-)

That was awesome. I understood roughly zero of it but I do remember the optical fibre thing from an experience I had/imagined. What about RNA? I don't know anything about it either but I read that RNA has the 'remote' on the activities of DNA. Also, the puddle thing reminds me of consciousness seeping back into places that it had locked itself out from. Relationship to somatic memory? Thanks!

There hasn't been any Kunlun drama for a while Mr Slopps. I saw Max had a new pic up and a somewhat tempered bio. Or so I read it. The 'Kunlun' people on TTB seem to be thriving. And especially advanced IMO...

What Taomeow said ought to be pinned.

"Kundalini has been sensationalized over the years - and has gone mainstream and mass marketed. It is NOT 'instant enlightenment'. It is a tool that teaches you - because it breaks you down and pushes you into a corner and forces you to 'be one with yourself'" Agree! At the same time I think it's time for a whole lot of it (Kundalini) because it may help us people turn things around. It's dangerous IMO/IME but so is waiting in line at Walmart for god to save you.

It was a spontaneous utterance based on what I reckon your most prominent 5E 'element' is based on how I read what you write to me. If you want to check it out and have fun telling me I'm wrong (or just for fun;-)) you can go find a Bazi 4 pillar calculator online (Google it grandmother:-))

It's a tough topic for me to comment on (per my female bias) I'm hardly going to argue for women being hit but neither should men be hit IMO. Nor should either indulge in emotional violence. I say the same for mothers towards their sons and daughters and fathers towards their sons and daughters. Sounds idealistic, sorry. Here's where equality for women has its advantage for all. If a woman is financially independent then she is in a position to leave AND be left in the relationship if it becomes unhealthy. From discussions with older people, this was not an option in the past. Hence taking mistresses (or the "pool boy") and continuing to present a neat "happily married family life" to society. But it also seems that despite financial independence, both men and women often lack emotional independence (arguably due to lack of mothering and fathering in childhood) and so seek out partners with whom to play out and finally resolve the issues, not realizing that it can't be done with the wrong person (the 'right' person being the one to 'mother' or 'father' at the right time.) I also speak as a daughter who had her role as daughter corrupted to 'mother' her mother. It didn't work for anyone. ---opinion alert---

Right! But the Slopps can pull wimmin with his (per his post above) so isn't that better? The 'better' thing, it is pretty weird huh? --/-note to social darwinist zealots---the basis for the majority of your arguments were never hypothesized by Darwin---

Because ye'r an 'Earth -thing' per the 5E. :-)

I found it an enthralling read. I didn't read it as a psychology book - it's pretty critical of psychology and psychologists. I saw it as this guy (albeit with education and practice in a variety of psychotherapies) sort of stumbling across this approach 'by accident' and then repeating it enough to lay out a consistent method and formulate a theory. The stuff he's doing is very similar to stuff in qi-gong practices. Well, I saw a lot of parallels (sp?) to things I've experienced and pondered. But I guess I brought a lot of myself to the book;-) A lot of 'psychology' is bunk IMO. It's the rearranging of the overlay, the re-conditioning of behaviour (never mind where the latter comes from) and the reiteration of 'functionality' inside specific social constraints. ---opinion :-)---

Argh, couldn't watch it. Because of Youtube. Does this feat mean the guy could voluntarily keep his penis in a state conducive to, er, truck pulling? How did he do it? I guess I could ask why as well but why he did it is, huh, why?

I struggle a lot with what I think of my own behaviour.

". But I wouldn't hand over your mind entirely" What he said.

Tao Sempko of KAP springs to mind (so does Santi, but he came to mind after). I don't reckon kundalini can get used as such (at least the warnings against doing so, or attempting it abound) but then I've chosen a relatively passive approach to it and although I had what I consider a hell of a time with it, it wasn't (and isn't, thanks to all kinds of help) anywhere near what you (and other people) have experienced. Tai chi has been highly recommended, often.

I think this one is for me. "Saying "I haven't grown up" Actually, my point was that you have and you are "grown-up" so you have a bigger range of options open to you in response to your mother. I should add that I'm not specially fond of my mother. I reckon she falls somewhere into a textbook category of some kind. But this is no longer my problem. I left home at 17 BTW so I'm also biased in that suggestion:-)

Sorry to hear the ride through is rough Manitou. I wish I knew enough about ego to reply properly about it. From what I understand so far, emotions that are misplaced or misinterpreted or disproportional to the situation are all in the realm of this ego stuff. I recall my small experience with Paxil put a mushy veil between whatever I felt and myself. I recall still feeling like crap but it was distanced from me to some extent. I didn't trust that situation for some reason. I wanted my feelings back. I don't know about Prozac, does it do stuff to liver chi? TCM people?

Sinasencer, how about restricting the issues to the specific woman that is contributing to the problem rather than attributing stuff to ALL women? (Personally, I'd prefer it if you did, but I'm biased as a woman). How about you realise just how much control your mother had (and looks like still does have) over your feelings/emotions? Especially when you were very small. Now you are big, you have more options open to you, including becoming independent and moving out (what you couldn't do as a child). I'd avoid the route of assaulting anyone as that could restrict your choices. Oh, the whole "Men are big so they can beat folks up" shit is IMO BS. A small boy in a big man body beats people up. A man (adult) does not have to. ---opinion etc---

Move out.