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  1. Found this topic in a google search. I was actually the guy that posted this on dharmawheel lol. I still have this thing in between my eyebrows. The reason I think it's a problem is because it seems to be related to confusion, delusion, doubt, and a whole bunch of unpleasant emotions. I use to describe my head area as a nuclear war zone because mostly every unpleasant emotion i have is inside of it and my throat. I've actually considered that this big pressure is just a giant emotion itself. When I seem to be deluded or confused or can't think properly I will search where it is and my mind will end up right here inside of this sensation or pressure in my head. It's like heavy air trapped inside of a jar or something. It moves through my eyebrow and down my ear and right jaw, down my neck and the right side of my body when I observe it. And a few years ago I noticed that the breath doesn't go as much into the right side of my body when I breathe in, most of it goes into the left side. I've been noticing recently the right side of my body feels kind of dead and sluggish like it's falling over. And I've also always had problems with my right thumb, and problems with my right knee. I'm connecting this thing in my head with a bunch of other things going on in my body. So I guess it isn't so bad since it's been a learning experience. But if anyone can help me fix this thing that would be great.
  2. Found this topic in a google search. I was actually the guy that posted this on dharmawheel lol. I still have this thing in between my eyebrows. The reason I think it's a problem is because it seems to be related to confusion, delusion, doubt, and a whole bunch of unpleasant emotions. I use to describe my head area as a nuclear war zone because mostly every unpleasant emotion i have is inside of it and my throat. I've actually considered that this big pressure is just a giant emotion itself. When I seem to be deluded or confused or can't think properly I will search where it is and my mind will end up right here inside of this sensation or pressure in my head. It's like heavy air trapped inside of a jar or something. It moves through my eyebrow and down my ear and right jaw, down my neck and the right side of my body when I observe it. And a few years ago I noticed that the breath doesn't go as much into the right side of my body when I breathe in, most of it goes into the left side. I've been noticing recently the right side of my body feels kind of dead and sluggish like it's falling over. And I've also always had problems with my right thumb, and problems with my right knee. I'm connecting this thing in my head with a bunch of other things going on in my body. So I guess it isn't so bad since it's been a learning experience. But if anyone can help me fix this thing that would be great.
  3. I've retained for around 270 days now and lately I've become interested in a girlfriend. Curious about any reading material or practices you guys would recommend for sex without spilling the seed. Mantak chia is my first choice because his stuff just seems easy and there's so many things available from him. Also, any recommendations on what I can do with this conserved energy? I'm pretty good at taming my lust at this point and sometimes I feel like I have enough power to knock down a stone wall. I feel like there's some cool stuff I can do with this energy if only I knew how to use it.
  4. what do yoga poses do?

    I'm looking for a site that gives detailed information on specific yoga poses and what they do to chakras,ojas, prana, etc. Does anyone have any links?
  5. This is a quote from an 800 page advanced meditation book called the visuddhimagga available for free online. I thought it might help some people serious about retention. Good luck This is the bodys nature: it is a collection of over three hundred bones, jointed by one hundred and eighty joints, bound together by nine hundred sinews, plastered over with nine hundred pieces of flesh, enveloped in the moist inner skin, enclosed in the outer cuticle, with orifices here and there, constantly dribbling and trickling like a grease pot, inhabited by a community of worms, the home of disease, the basis of painful states, perpetually oozing from the nine orifices like a chronic open carbuncle, from both of whose eyes eye-filth trickles, from whose ears comes ear-filth, from whose nostrils snot, from whose mouth food and bile and phlegm and blood, from whose lower outlets excrement and urine, and from whose ninety-nine thousand pores the broth of stale sweat seeps, with bluebottles and their like buzzing round it, which when untended with tooth sticks and mouth-washing and head-anointing and bathing and underclothing and dressing would, judged by the universal repulsiveness of the body, make even a king, if he wandered from village to village with his hair in its natural wild disorder, no different from a flower-scavenger or an outcaste or what you will. So there is no distinction between a kings body and an outcastes in so far as its impure stinking nauseating repulsiveness is concerned. But by rubbing out the stains on its teeth with tooth sticks and mouthwashing and all that, by concealing its private parts under several cloths, by daubing it with various scents and salves, by pranking it with nosegays and such things, it is worked up into a state that permits of its being taken as I and mine. So men delight in women and women in men without perceiving the true nature of its characteristic foulness, now masked by this adventitious adornment. But in the ultimate sense there is no place here even the size of an atom fit to lust after. And then, when any such bits of it as head hairs, body hairs, nails, teeth, spittle, snot, excrement or urine have dropped off the body, beings will not touch them; they are ashamed, humiliated and disgusted. But as long as anyone of these things remains in it, though it is just as repulsive, they take it as agreeable, desirable, permanent, pleasant, self, because they are wrapped in the murk of ignorance and dyed with affection and greed for self. Taking it as they do, they resemble the old jackal who saw a flower not yet fallen from a kiĆ­suka tree in a forest and yearned after it, thinking, This is a piece of meat, it is a piece of meat. There was a jackal chanced to see A flowering kiĆ­suka in a wood; In haste he went to where it stood: I have found a meat-bearing tree! He chewed the blooms that fell, but could, Of course, find nothing fit to eat; He took it thus: Unlike the meat There on the tree, this is no good. A wise man will not think to treat As foul only the part that fell, But treats as foul the part as well That in the body has its seat. Fools cannot in their folly tell; They take the body to be fair, And soon get caught in Evils snare Nor can escape its painful spell. But since the wise have thus laid bare This filthy bodys nature, so, Be it alive or dead, they know There is no beauty lurking there. For this is said: This filthy body stinks outright Like ordure, like a privys site; This body men that have insight Condemn, as object of a fools delight. A tumour where nine holes abide Wrapped in a coat of clammy hide And trickling filth on every side, Polluting the air with stenches far and wide. If it perchance should come about That what is inside it came out, Surely a man would need a knout With which to put the crows and dogs to rout.
  6. A thread for everyone interested in retention/celibacy

    I practice retention because when I practice retention, I feel good, when I don't practice retention, I feel bad. It's simple. Retention doesn't sell well. People aren't lining up to practice celibacy or sex without orgasm. People are lining up to do the opposite. And you're welcome for the peer into my soul, but doesn't your non duality views mean we are one and the same? In which case a peer into my soul is a peer into your soul, correct? And I don't understand your 99% statement. First, how did you come to this percentage? Second, so maybe a lot of people that practice retention fail, so maybe a lot of them don't have a girlfriend. If someone that is addicted to ice cream isn't around ice cream, then he won't eat ice cream, but when ice cream comes around and he hasn't conquered his addiction then maybe he eats ice cream again. What are you trying to say? Certainly the parts of the body must disgust you if me mentioning them requires you to comment on my soul.
  7. A thread for everyone interested in retention/celibacy

    Thanks for the suggestion. I said it was from the visuddhimagga also called the path of purification. Can you be more specific on what you think is b.s.? It would be lots of fun to read your opinions on the body. Perhaps you can convince your previous partners to send you a cup of their poop, then you can post it here and explain to me about its beauty and why it's desirable. Maybe you don't like poop and you prefer more attractive qualities of the body, like the skin. Well then why let it go to waste? When it falls off people you should eat it, shouldn't be too hard to eat something so attractive right? Next time your girlfriend cuts her toe nails sprinkle them on your pizza and tell me how they taste. Looking forward to your reply
  8. A thread for everyone interested in retention/celibacy

    It's a copy paste. And I just reread it. There's a space in between sentences.
  9. What's the easiest way to live in the present?

    When you walk, feel the feelings in the feet. When you sit, feel the stomach or chest rising and falling. Come back to the feet or stomach when you get distracted. Repeat all day.
  10. 1000 Dollars for Transcendental Meditation?

    Ted Bundy was a serial killer. And there's no such thing as fulfilling your desires. You can have sex one thousand times and your desire for sex will never be satisfied. Eating a good meal, getting a hot wife, riding a roller coaster, the happiness these things give you is impermenent and it will disappear. And when it disappears you just want to go get it again, and you get it again and then it disappears again, and you end up what the Chinese use to call a wolf of the material world. Constantly on the hunt for things that don't actually make you happy, and then you die. And then you're reborn and you do it again.
  11. 1000 Dollars for Transcendental Meditation?

    Even if you fulfill all of your desires you still won't be happy. And didn't Ted Bundy surrender to the natural flow of his desire? XD
  12. 1000 Dollars for Transcendental Meditation?

    So the buddha and Lao Tzu were wrong and you're right?
  13. I bought a book from a great teacher named arthur rosenfeld. He teaches a meditation technique fir sitting and standing. In the sitting technique you imagine a tea pot pouring blue tea out of your dantien up your spine around your body in the orbit back to the dantien. In the standing exercise you imagine the blue qi coming up your feet and circulating through the orbit, but still only to the dantien. Does anyone know why this technique doesn't do a full circulation through the perineum? Are there many techniques like this? Thanks
  14. I'm reading a commentary on chen xiaowangs five levels of Taijiquan. Chen says after one year those devoted enough can learn the form. The commentator says to keep in mind that chen is deeply immersed in tradition and is attached to the classical. A time that assumes a teacher/student relationship in which both live together and train together everyday. This seems like a good idea. But how does one go about finding a teacher to live with? I would like to practice intensively every day but I am discouraged because incorrect practice for 13 hours a day seems counter intuitive. I have been practicing for many hours a day for around a year and I still have no idea what I'm doing. My teacher told me doing something correctly is more important than doing it incorrectly one thousand times. But what should I do until I can practice it correctly? There is nothing else I am interested in besides taijiquan. Does anyone have any tips or advice for me?
  15. Hey guys. Can someone familiar with this method tell me about its technique for thoughts and emotions, if there is one. Thanks.
  16. the water method meditation question

    Thanks for the replies everyone. I am listening to the tao of letting go and I have read his first book. He said to look for the energy behind thoughts. I didn't understand thoughts as being felt in the body so I didn't know how to include them in the scanning. But thinking about it I do feel the energy behind them. He specifically says to stop scanning at the stomach though. Does anyone know why he doesn't go further?
  17. the water method meditation question

    Thanks for the reply. But how do you let them dissolve. Do they just naturally dissolve while doing the technique?
  18. Can someone please explain this to me?
  19. Im posting this in the Taoist discussion because the technique I wil be introducing works with the energy system using a chinese acupressure technique and the person that taught it to me was a Taoist. If it belongs in another section, I'm sorry. So, to give more significance to this technique I want to tell the story of how I came across it and how I completely 360'd out of mental illness into a life of happiness and spirituality with it. It is called the emotional freedom technique. And it will probably seem a little goofy to you until you experience the benefits for yourself. Or accept the benefits instead of refusing to leave your paradigm, which I will explain later. The emotional freedom technique uses tapping on your acupressure points, repeating a phrase, all while experiencing and concentrating on the emotion you don't want, to remove the emotion you don't want, leading to insight, and of course the removal of your fear or anger, depending on what you're experiencing. So, a long time ago, when I was around 11, I came down with a fear of being around other people. I played the victim and was able to get out of school at around 12, locked myself in my room, played world of warcraft until 5 in the morning, slept all day, masturbated 2-4 times after waking up to pornography, thought extensively to the point of exhaustion, grew a hardcore hatred for people and the world, had large bags under my eyes by the time i was 13, slept 15 hours a day and was still tired when waking up, by the time I was 16 I was in jail for drugs, turned 18 in jail, got out, was still a miserable jerk. Then only when I was backed into a corner and had no way out, did I finally try this technique. I was in therapy seeing the same therapist since I was 13. He taught me the emotional freedom technique multiple times. I would go in, we would do a routine with the technique, and literally right before my eyes, after doing the technique, a gigant series of emotional traumatic nonsense would disappear completely out of reality, losing every single ounce of effect it had on me. Maybe a dislike for women, or an anger toward my dad, whatever it was, in those sessions I would get rid of something. I would unblock the energy. Then why didn't I get better you might ask? I didn't get better because I refused to accept that it had happened. It was incredibly bizarre. Fear I had toward confronting my dad would disappear, but I would play it off as a placebo or just completely ignore it all together and forget it had happened. Meanwhile, I still had a whole gigant load of terrible stuff I was holding onto that I could have gotten rid of with the technique, but didn't, because the idea that I could get rid of it by tapping on myself was too stupid to believe. It didn't fit into my belief system, and because of that, I didn't use the technique. Even though I had seen it work, I didn't believe it worked. But at some point after getting out of jail and moving back in with my family, it was either do something or this is the end. So, I did something. I used all of my anger and turned it into energy for meditation. For 4 days I did a routine of sitting and walking meditation for 30 minutes each. I made the intention to do it for 10, but it didn't last. However, during the first 4 hours, I got up to walk, and I realized that all of my rapidly changing moods were impermenent and not really a big deal. I also realized the nature of the body to surcome to injury and illness and broke attachment to it for a little while. However, I wasn't getting better fast enough, and something else happened. So I used my meditation motivation and started using the emotional freedom technique. At the time I was living in the ghetto. I was still an agrophobic, afraid to leave my house, especially in the neighborhood I was in. But to use the emotional freedom technique, I needed to bring up the emotions before I could get rid of them. So I went outside and sat on a chair on my porch. I started by waving at cars that drove by. At the time, that brought up incredibly embarassing feelings and I felt like an idiot. But I just tapped and they went away. Eventually I developed a routine of doing walking meditation in my front yard while tapping on myself while cars went by. This led to my dad making fun of me and embarassing my family, but I continued. And this started a whole stream of me purposely doing things that I was afraid of or felt stupid doing so I could get rid of these things. As I tapped and got rid of all of this trash inside of my body and mind, hate, fear, insecurity, I physically felt the organs and liver and the inside of my stomach moving and readjusting itself, as if recovering from a terrible accident. My body was healing before my eyes, my mind was changing as if I was transforming into a completely different being. All of the nonsense I believed was disappearing and being replaced by love. I started to walk around day and night with a backpack and county map searching for my fears so I could face them. Once a cynical basement dwelling terribly afraid child, I had become a wandering ascetic in search of transformation. Every feeling I got rid of was replaced by clear sight and peace. The things I once hid from I began to welcome. The people that were suppose to be helping me, I became their teacher. The more I told this to my therapist, the more we connected. It turns out he was a Taoist, and the techniques he teaches,not just the emotional freedom technique, had to do with moving with the way, unblocking energy, healing with shaministic theory. And I witnessed groups with him doing different techniques on people. Seeing other people go through this process is quite strange. As one problem fades, another comes up behind it. Sometimes they don't even know. Sometimes, even though they can get rid of suffering, they would sometimes rather just complain about it, because they have justified their own suffering to cope with it, so it is ok for them to suffer and they don't want to get rid of it. It is almost like witnessing the paranormal seeing a part of someone that they believe to be themself, that they have had for the last 20 or 30 years ruining their life, just disappear in the blink of an eye, then watch that person deny that it had happened, while at the same time admitting that their problem is gone. For example, there was a person that was terrified of ladders. He wouldn't go within a hundred yards of a ladder and if he did he would freak out. The therapist had him use eft, and he just went and climed up and down a ladder. So when they asked him how great it was that eft did that, like the freakin twilight zone, he denied that the technique did that and said he never had a problem to begin with. I was told this was because people live in a certain paradigm that they sometimes can't step out of. There was a story once of an advanced meditator that was having a heart attack. He called his son away from the dinner table calmly, walked him outside, and told him he was having a heart attack and to drive him to the hospital after dinner. So the son drove him to the hospital, and he told the doctors. They said it was bs, couldn't be happening, and they wouldn't treat him. So he ended up dying of a heart attack right in the hospital. And since it wasn't within a doctors paradigm to believe that someone could be having a heart attack while being that calm, they just ignored it. It's like the skeptic that argues with someone that healed themselves of cancer with qi gong. Even though this person had cancer, and as soon as she started qi gong it went away, it's outside of his paradigm to understand this. So it must be some kind of placebo he says. Dr david r hawkins described this as being on different energy levels. Or different planes of consciousness. Anyways, I've kind of lost interest in typing this. The whole point I think was to tell you how well eft works. If you have major emotional issues meditation can take a while to get rid of them. The eft technique can just blow them into the wind with a few rounds. So check it out and good luck.
  20. There a lot of videos on youtube that explain it perfectly. No need to hear it from the source in this case. Good luck.
  21. Hah. You guys are great. I was able to quit smoking with Eft as well. Worked wonders. Good luck Dazed.
  22. A lot of people have put so much energy into thoughts of nothing else existing besides the unhappy paradigm they are in that if a giant portal appeared in the middle of new york city and giant hamsters started flying out of it I'm pretty convinced it would just be ignored. Probably just a placebo lol. The Taoist I mentioned in my original post told me a story about going to see a shaman. He met a man in there with a giant bole on his neck, the size of a head, that went in for a healing with the shaman, and when he came out, it was gone. A month later his wife says to him, wasn't that weird how that shaman healed the guys bole? And he says, what bole? Hahaha. Consciousness is a weird thing. But I believe I heard your story before. I understand her and her being deceived by her husband. It is very easy to get swayed from your path in the beginning by people that simply aren't there with you. That's why you sometimes have to be a hard head when you begin the spiritual path. You and the people you know work like gears, and when you start working in a different way, the other people start malfunctionining and saying hey, come back down here with us, it's way better down here in victimhood and misery. Sometimes they are open minded though. Depends on who you knew.
  23. I have had a pressure in my third eye when I meditate for as long as I can remember. Last night, I was watching my chakras. When I got to my crown chakra I became aware of an incredibly powerful energy flowing from this chakra to my third eye. It was like a slide. The energy was so strong that it was frightening. I thought my brain was going to explode. Does anyone know anything about this?
  24. The Tao of posting a new topic.

    Hello. I am a hermit that spends most of his time meditating. I have big dreams that include, living in a cave, having no money, and hopefully not having any big dreams. I have recently become interested in Taoist sexual practice, and the microcosmic orbit meditation. Having heard of the dangers of the microcosmic orbit, I seek a skilled practitioner of this meditation that would be readily available for contact in case I go insane. If there are no microcosmic orbit masters here, then surely me going insane is with the Tao, and I will prepare for my journey to the mental hospital. Haha. Jokes. But anyways. The end.