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  1. Hey again everyone. I have been looking into other things regarding my problem, and there is this healing practice that I have known about for a while but I abandoned it due to other ideas I have come across that might be the answer. However, I feel like it will be close to hitting the nail on the head so to speak. I am talking about "soul retrieval". Basically, a soul retrieval is when a Shamanic Healer finds and returns your missing soul piece(s). Soul loss can occur when you go through traumatic events such as abuse. And a piece of your soul actually detaches itself in order to avoid the constant pain. Ok. At first I didn't want to put this in the forum... but I did go through something traumatic. I was verbally and emotionally abused by someone who I thought was my friend. He did it to me for years. He would constantly cyber harass me and manipulate me for no reason. I won't go into detail of the amount of hurtful things he has said to me. But I tried confronting him about it, and he screamed and cursed at me saying "Why are you bringing up old wounds!? If your going to fucking hold grudges than don't fucking talk to me" (he screamed at the top of his lungs like an animal while saying that btw) This made me have a major anxiety attack. And I have been tremendously emotionally hurt by that piece of filth. I always had flash backs of the amount of things that he has said to me. Of how "My parents don't even love me" and how "my sister is a whore" and he did it to me for no reason. I think the Binaural Beat coincided with when my soul left me due to the amount of stress that I was in. http://www.katharinelee.co.za/soul-retrieval.php "Loss of soul appears in the form of a sudden onset of apathy and listlessness; the joy has gone out of life, initiative is crippled, one feels empty, everything seems pointless”. I also found this other article that when people with mental disorders take certain drugs medication. There soul actually disconnects from there body as well. http://www.alchemyre...m/psychosis.htm "The drugs used to treat psychosis affect the brain in such a way that the astral body and chitta are disconnected. This disconnects the patient from many of their Samskaras and also reduces the vibration of their etheric and physical bodies which slows down mental activity. A disconnection from the lower chakras also occurs, leading to a loss of sex drive and loss of feeling in the genitals. So in effect the drugs reduce all sensations coming from the subtle bodies of the patient."
  2. Wait. Do you think that the Binaural Beat could have caused damage to my brain?... I hope that's not the case. That's the last thing I want on my mind.
  3. Just wanted to say Happy Easter to everyone. Hope your all doing well. Your all good people and I appreciate you guys taking your time to help me. So I hope you all have an amazing Easter Sunday.
  4. Hello bax44. Thanks for the information. I actually have been taking B Vitamin. My parents usually buy the liquid type but they sometimes buy the tablets. I have been taking it for about 4 months now and it has not helped me at all. All it does is make me feel relaxed but that's about it. I also take Fish Oil Tablets and other multivitamins. And have been taking them for a while and I have not seen any improvement. I still have erection problems and almost non-existant sex drive and emotional flatness. They do nothing for me. I am probably going to ask my parents to book an appointment with an endocrinologist. Your right, it wouldn't hurt to get my levels checked... And if he says that my levels are normal than I'm probably going to go get a spiritual healer... I don't know why but I have a strong feeling that this has something to do with chakra imbalance probably from my research. I have been reading things about the "sacral chakra" and apparently it is the seat of a persons emotions. And when it is closed off or weak you can't feel your emotions and you have a weak sex drive. And it also governs sexual pleasure. I have a feeling that the Binaural Beat i listened to closed off that chakra. I can't say for sure though. http://www.chakrashack.com/articles/anarah_sacral.html "If the Sacral Chakra is closed, you are likely to be at the opposite end in terms of emotionality. In this state, you are likely to feel flat and lifeless, or cold and distant i.e. you are out of touch with your emotions, and perhaps even your sexuality." But honestly. If I go to the endo and if he finds that there's nothing wrong... And if that spiritual healer doesn't work. I am probably going to lose my mind and have a mental break down.
  5. Hey Rara. I have tried the method of just simply ignoring this and just live life. However, There are a lot of things that are physically wrong with me that I can't just simply ignore. Like, I'm not trying to get personal or sound gross; but I rarely get erections anymore. I have read on the internet that if a male does not get an erection for a while the cartilage will break down and the penis will get small and the nerve endings will also break down. I can still get erections, but I have to consiosuly make it go up. The whole purpose of the a male getting random erections throuought the day is for the reason that it won't get small. And not to mention that there is no more sexual pleasure anymore. That is seriously upsetting. And yes I did rule out physical symtoms becuase I went to 4 doctors and I got blood tests and they don't know what the hell is going on. And I actually have been going a little nuts. You know, when you read articles online about how the "third eye is the mark of the beast" and how "Kundalini is the serpant that tempted adam and eve in the garden" you know, it does make you lose your damn mind. So maybe your right in that aspect. I'll stop making myself go nuts and just presume that this stuff isin't any demonic crap. I'm probably going to go to a spiritual healer because I'm pretty sure that this has something to do with Chakra imbalance. But the problem is my parents are Christians and don't believe in this stuff. So, idk. I guess ill have to wait until I move out. And if the spiritual healer dosen't work than I'm probably going to kill myself... nah, I'll probably pussy out and not do it. But still, this is no way to live. But you are all good people for responding and trying to help me out. I deeply appricate it.
  6. Hey OldChi. Really? How exactly can I do this?
  7. Hey guys. Well. It's almost 2 years later. I am still having this problem... I still feel emotionally numb. And I also have 0 sex drive and there's no pleasure from sex. I have been searching around on the Internet. And I found out that the "Sacral Chakra" is responsible for your emotions and sexuality. And when it is closed off you feel lifeless and your sexuality is cut off. Perhaps my meditation closed/damaged that chakra? Now. I was also researching that if you listen to a Binaural Beat that is calibrated at 9.0 Hz that it actually stimulates the Sacral Charka and opens it. As you guys may know. I have a intense phobia agasnt Binaural Beats now. But I really can't live like this anymore. So, I am willing to try it. However. I am also afraid that if I mess with my charkas that it will awaken full blown Kundalini. I am also hesitant becuase I heard you need to start from the root charka first. Than move up. So I don't know. What do you guys think? Should I just listen to it and open my sacral Chakra?
  8. Hello again everyone. I have not posted here in a while. Well, I am still having this emotionless problem since my meditation thing. Someone on this forum mentioned something about "soul retrieval" Does anyone know were to find one or if I am able to do it on myself?
  9. Thanks for the info songtsan. But exactly how long does this last? Please tell me it isn't permanent. This is no way to live.
  10. Ok. I'm seriously losing my mind now... Whatever.
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  12. Nope. I could literally do the most craziest things and it wouldn't affect me emotionally at all. I don't even fear death anymore.
  13. Just an emotional aspect. I can still feel pain. Let's say if there's an emotional scene in a movie that people say "if you don't cry from this you have no soul" Well, I don't cry. I actually used to be a very emotional person. I would cry easily if I saw an emotional movie scene. Now, It's the total opposite. A day before this happened I actually watched a movie called "The Lovely Bones" I remember it being impossible for me to hold back tears while watching. Last week I tried to watch the movie to see if it had the same emotional affect on me. And it didn't. It's just so scary; I didn't want to mention this because I didn't want to seem like a shallow person. But my entire family could literally die and I wouldn't feel anything about it. Like, I still care. But there's just no emotion attached to it. But it's not my fault! My body just isn't reacting to it.
  14. I just wanted to Thank everyone who replied and have given me advice and showed concern. Well, there's really nothing more I can say. This blank/numb feeling persists everyday. I seriously don't know what to do anymore. I really don't see the point in living if I can't even enjoy anything. Suicide seems like a good option. I just find it sad because I feel like nobody understands me when I tell them "I have no emotions". It must be uncommon because I've been to about 4 therapists so far and they had no idea what I was talking about. They keep saying "Well, you have to be feeling emotions if you want them back" I guess I can understand what there saying. Like, I still care; but at the same time apathetic... It's hard to explain... I just don't know anymore...
  15. Ok... Well if it is an energy block or Kundalini. Is there anyway to get back to my old state? I have been like this for 2 years and I would very much like to experience my emotions again.