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Example #1 - Me My suggestions: 1. Make more than sure that you have 360 degree security 24/7. 2. If you feel something "positive" and you don't have that 360 degree security 24/7 then it is a lie. 3. If you don't feel something then it doesn't exist for you. "Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense. " -Buddha

Wait a minute. I just noticed something. Kind of a cross-reference. http://www.qigongtherapy.com/taooflife.html "What truth have your realized." Asked the Abbot. " A single millet contains the universe, The mountains and rivers are cooking in the cauldron." Answered Lu If every person is their own universe, then I'm my own universe. I want to stop all of the "creation" in it. "Lucid Police", rapes, beating up and murdering people?!!? That's stupid and unambitious.

Sorry for the cursing. Getting that off my chest felt liberating though.

Nothing, philosophy-wise, has worked so I've discarded everything. I was hoping that all the sutras, offerings, and stuff on Bodhicitta would somehow permeate into my being. It didn't. No more "feel good" shit, that ain't me and it don't fit me. The "feel good" shit didn't work on me when all the 9/11 crap was going on. It's fucking social engineering and I fucking hate that shit.

This is what I have to look forward to: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizophrenia "The disorder is thought to mainly affect cognition, but it also usually contributes to chronic problems with behavior and emotion. People with schizophrenia are likely to have additional (comorbid) conditions, including major depression and anxiety disorders;[7] the lifetime occurrence of substance abuse is around 40%. Social problems, such as long-term unemployment, poverty and homelessness, are common. Furthermore, the average life expectancy of people with the disorder is 10 to 12 years less than those without, due to increased physical health problems and a higher suicide rate." I know one guy, he has been able to live a normal life. Thing is that he still has a lot of troubles. I have yet to come across somebody that has completely defeated this shit. I want no part of this shit, better to have been transported to hell before birth, at least that is upfront. Fuck this shit.

I died two years ago. I went from Earth to Hell. I rather that it be upfront.

Santi...bro, Thank you but my timeline is over. I lost EVERYTHING. I got deflated a whole bunch of times and needed a whole bunch of phowas. I got deflated once, where I could feel it...that's enough for me. I'm not going to go through this cycle no matter what any higher power says or thinks. I'm not chasing the divine and I'm not chasing ghosts. I had the divine when I had silence and solitude. To me, Silence and Solitude is the only divinity there is. I have one more issue to resolve (an HMO trying to stall me), then I have to move on.

All of my fight is gone. Timeline is over. I've released a guide who I couldn't even contact in the first place. Too much delusion. I've lost the last two years out of my life without anything to show for it. I was much better off before, at least I shared mindspace with nothing and no one. I know that if this type of shit happens to children, then I have even less hope. Saying that this happened to little kids because of past-life "karma" is a fucking cop out, I won't even tolerate it. BTW...psyche wards are the most fucking infested places. My problems became a lot worse because I went to one in the first place.

Oh lord, they better watch out that they don't end up like Abner Louima or Michael Mineo. I see how this can go really bad.

No way to really counter it other than changing software or moving to a more expensive account.

Those drugs cause issues and do not do a SINGLE DAMN THING to fix anything. I'm fucked up already, I refuse to take garbage that is going to cause more problems. Even by the remote chance that they do fix a problem, I'm not going to concede to taking the drugs because they cause more problems than they solve. Better to get hit by a truck and die during a hallucination, at least it stops there.

I got the orgonite from Santiago. He cured it and blessed it with Mantras.

No It's an illusion/deception that's meant to scare and to obscure a negs (negative entities) position. Even without the third eye, a human has the ability to home in where there is a "space" in the air, even if the perp is standing still.

Okay, shit just got worse and I really don't appreciate it I'm seeing shit without that looks like chameleon-type stuff from the first Predator movie. I HATE NEGS!!!

Ok, how do I do that? Every time I go to the park, I hate life. I can't seem to connect to anything, not Earth and not Dan Tien. Even if I do connect to Dan tien, I'm still have to judge it as false. As long as anything has any energetic control or even connected, I'm going to judge it as a deception. The couple of hours that I spent crown breathing a few weeks ago was completely sucked out in less than five seconds thru my feet. If I was stronger, I would have blackholed that POS. I didn't see him or her but I knew exactly where that POS was. It took the five seconds to figure out what the fuck was going on. Truth is that if I ever have 360 degree vision and I can astral out of my body on command, I would ask for the sword and rack up a lot of bad karma Use my own interpretation of "Southern Hospitality"..."Tresspassers will be shot on sight!" It took me 50+ days of retention, and countless healings and empowerments, to even be able to put out roots, two years ago. I've lost a lot of conditioning, and through vitality being sucked out of me constantly I've had a vastly accelerated loss of muscle mass and strength. I still have "William"-like voices. I don't know what General Quan's function is but I don't want him here. One more thing, it seems that who ever is in here is in the habit of disrupting my yin/yang cycle and turning my cycle to yin from yang. I know because of the hard sucking noise at the bridge of my nose.

I can't, I don't even know what I'm looking for anymore.

The orgonite is actually pretty good. I slept with a smaller piece on my face from the same source and it actually significantly reduced my candida. I've actually rested with it on my stomach and it made my stomach warm. No bliss type feeling though. I don't want to connect to yin beings, I don't want to connect to yang beings. I want to connect to the MEAT WORLD and only the MEAT WORLD, with the only forms of advanced communication being the internet and with the choice method of "SEEING" being GOOGLE EARTH. I want to connect to NOTHING and have NO PHENOMENA WHATSOEVER. I've changed my view, I value internal silence and a secure home and personal perimeter as infinitely more precious than any kind of divine guidance. I don't want to see sprites, streaks, or orbs. No matter what color, an overwhelming majority seem to be hostile. My chances of running into fakes is almost close to 100%, not quite 100% but over 99%. I've even seen chakra looking/lotus type stuff floating around.

DANG!! You beat me to it

I'm surprised that a discount for one of those prostate massage devices wasn't thrown in.

I end up drinking a lot of caffeine and eating a lot of starchy foods. Both are bad. Starchy food is bad in that it impairs immune system. The immune system is governed by the thymus gland, in turn, the thymus gland is closest to the throat chakra, which is the chakra of purification.

Exercising didn't work before. I have an orgonite pyramid, not getting rid of it though. I'm going to be getting a salt lamp and a negative ionic generator. I've been thinking of getting a q-link. If I could, I would put bare sheet metal on my floors and connect it to the ground in a wall electrical outlet. I've been scouring astraldynamics.com forums for tips on countermeasures.

It's...or they are not mine. They feed on a lot more than just sexual energy. They also feed on emotions. Thing is that it goes to a paradox, emotions are bad to suppress because even bigger problems are going to be created down the line.

One more thing, it feels like they erased every good thing that has happened in my life permanently.

Problem is that how can I even help one if I can't even get out of my own mess. Also, I don't think that the Universe would appreciate the image of throwing a demon or neg into the deepest, most bottom parts of Hell. BTW...thank you for mentioning the word "heart", that also brings up the point of being attacked in the heart and liver area, it ceased for a while but it's started again just recently.

Santi, Thank you but the fact of the matter is that I've become so deficient from being compromised so much that there just isn't any heart left.