Nungali

Well, they sawed off the neck of my femur and drilled out my hip socket with big circular file drill and replaced it wit a metal hip joint. Thing is I am allergic to pain killers, so it is 3 sets of 6 exercises a day 10 times each and walking every hour with (now ) one walking stick ..... using Panadol . Now this is an interesting meditation on pain subduing and body mechanics !

MA training this morning. I was told they would pick me up, drive me there and I could sit on a chair and watch. No one showed at 7:45 so I thought i would walk to the corner and wait there. I did and no one showed. So I walked to the next corner and waited. Nope. Down the road and around the big bend and waited. Nope. Now I can see the river down there and the park alongside where we train, no one. Well, its all down hill from here, so walked that, all up about 600 meters so far.i took another rest by the gate, so I was there when they turned up in cars 5 mins late -- they all gawped at me as they passed, while I tapped an imaginary watch and threatened their nice new cars with a wack from my walking stick. I even got up a few times; " what are you doing ? ... why do it that way .... dont grab ! ..... etc . " The went for coffee and also I went to supermarket, bakery, got a lift home, made a nice lunch. <whispers> house mate just got up ( 12:32 pm ) ; " moan groan grumble " < gets water, puts kettle on > " Moan .... good afternoon ... groan " < looks out window at beautiful day , sub-tropical greenery, twittering birds > " Groooaaan moan " < makes tea, goes back to room,> " Moan groan ... " Holy efen Toledo ! After this little enforced rest, I am off to explore a little of this river bat island (but only as far as the flat path goes ) .

Gone now ?

As far as BKA's comments quoted above; if one sees such things , or does practices that enable one to see such things, again that depends on the approach of the practice. The practice itself must be framed in the right mindset ; " ... It is immaterial whether these exist or not. By doing certain things certain results will follow; students are most earnestly warned against attributing objective reality or philosophic validity to any of them. 3. The advantages to be gained from them are chiefly these: ("a") A widening of the horizon of the mind. ("b") An improvement of the control of the mind. 4. The student, if he attains any success in the following practices, will find himself confronted by things (ideas or beings) too glorious or too dreadful to be described. It is essential that he remain the master of all that he beholds, hears or conceives; otherwise he will be the slave of illusion, and the prey of madness. ...." - Liber O . Without such considerations and purpose we are left within the 'wonderful ' world of modern 'magick' ;

All these 'external ' forces of 'dark energies' ( not sure why dark arts were cited ? ) are due to 'state of mind' and, of course such drugs can put you in a bad state of mind, other things can too ; practices, bad associations, chemical imbalance, trauma to brain, etc . So, all you really need to do is work on 'state of mind' and health / balance . Do good things to cultivate good mind, simple. Doing meth is not good for good state of mind. But people in decaying / declining social systems / cultures tend to 'keep the ball rolling' ... and growing . One needs to find what cultivates good mind and practice that, and avoid what creates bad mind. Even if invaded by outside forces, one who possesses Vohu Manah will be better able to repel their assault .

at 1.02 .... WOW ! What is it use, application, dynamics .... I'll hear anything . I can see some interesting stuff in there, just that one move ... but my perspective, is from an Okinawan from ( a combo Chinese Japanese, but usinf a Japanese style sword. What do you reckon folks ? @ 1.02

sounds like Shorin ryu sometimes with sword practice I will do one handed and some (sorta) moves like he does. Our 'teacher' doesnt do or teach that. When I try it on, they get totally efed up .... touche ! I am going to watch this vid about 100 times . When I get back to doing sword play with the guys .......

Well, I see ; A rear attack comes in; he leads with a rear thrust that sort of skewers and twists as it extends, possibly defecting and spiraling through the attackers strike ( which was maybe a thrust ) entering and piercing. The body movement is him following the sword, turning and twisting the wrist to match the new arm movement, and turn ( like the sword has done the movement and is pulling him after it ), now he is in a good position to finish the thrust with his full moment stance and grip and see the opponent. This could then open him to a rear attack from the other side, so his thrust immediately flows to that direction with a defensive guard, and ready to chop down, then turns back and finishes the 'poked' guy with another thrust ( or another attacker ) . ?. I am imagining this form doesnt knock; block, and then chop back, it appears to deflect and parry AS an attack ( defend and attack in one movement ) .. which is sound practice for any type of fight or weapon . A stab with that broad point would be bad enough ... but while it is rotating in like that ...urk !

Well of course .... marijuana . Nice Chinese Doc at hospital ; "Yes, I agree, you are better off without the opiate type painkillers, especially for someone like you that has no 'drug history'. Ummmm .... I have a drug history . Doc ; Me : " I smoke marijuana " Doc; " Why do you do that ?" Me; " Well, one reason ; and considering I have been on a one year surgical waiting list and in pain every single day, even before that, if I go to bed without being well stoned, I could expect to wake up, 2 - 4 times during the night from pain or discomfort and then toss and turn trying to get to sleep . If I go to bed stoned I wake up around dawn, feeling pretty good and relaxed with no pain. ... and no side effects . " Doc; ' No side effects ? ' "Well, insignificant ones, compared to other pain relievers . Also, I haven't had any since I been here , I dont notice any need or longing to have it, other than for pain relief. When I travel or stay at my relatives, I dont take it with me .... I can go 'cold turkey' overnight, and not smoke for a week or so .... it doesnt bug me , I dont go hunting it elsewhere . " Doc: "What are the withdrawl effects ? " " Hmmmm ....< thinks > I just feel 'not stoned' ... doesnt worry me . Unless I have pain . " Doc: " How long have you been smoking, Maybe you just havent built up tolerances and long term effects ? " " Ummmm ..... 40 years . ... also, both pre operative checks by the anesthetists they listened to my lungs and checked them as I said I was a smoker, first said good, and the one just before I went into operating theater said 'perfect' . I said 'Perfect ! ? ' and she said " Well, I cant hear or detect anything wrong with your lungs at all. " When I came out of it, I just woke up feeling good (and suitably numbed ) ; clear head, no cough, easy breathing. just like I do at home after a good nights sleep. .... actually , Nurse said pre op " Just giving you some oxygen " ... okay, that made sense , oxygenate the body first .... next thing I knew, I woke up feeling good in recovery .. she tricked me ! Speaking of nurse; community nurse comes around today .. she said she can help me in shower ! No way ! She can help me INTO the shower and then leave .. then I will undress and shower.

" Terribly sorry Mr Nungers ... it appears the hip joint has rejected you "

Oh I just found this ( I wasnt game to peek beforehand ) : but , according to a hip replacement website ....... I can soon expect : Wooo - HOOOOO ! ( wonder who she is and when she will turn up here ? )

previous to operation; , all these people were ; " P..... ( a MA club 'owner' {ie. a business} and instructor ) got his hip done 2 months ago ad he is kickin the bag already ! You will be right ! " Me; ' Yeah , but P.... is an idiot ! " (Instinctively , I want nothing to do with the guy ) head of MA club came around yesterday ; " P .... went surfing and something went twang nnnggggg POP in his hip and now he cant walk properly . Surfing ... of all things .... surfing ? ? ? ! I have heard of some people doing crazy stuff after hip op , why ? someone told me " Some people go off on their pain meds and do crazy shit as they out of it " But I have a pain safety valve .... ziiing ! ... okay dont do that ... so I have a great advantage really . anyways, I go to training and weapons class on sat morning , they pick me up and sit me in a chair ,,, and I can still do my usual ; " Why did you do that, that way ? < thinks > , try ........ etc . " 'Instructor' says " Yeah , great, we can still use your insight with you just sitting there observing " Me; " And if they dont do it right, when they come near me ... I can wack em with my stick ! " Its all good, feeling better each day, getting stronger each day, getting good food, and, finally real 'non hospital' coffee anyway, better go - I have misplaced my recharge lap top lead . Dang ! Cheers fellow bums !

Its happening . I am at friends house with modern cons (it will be some time before I am living feral again in my cabin up the valley by the river, but here is on the river too, downstream in town . ...... near ' Bat Island ' I can hear hundreds of the buggers squabbling in the trees in the distance. the house is the old caretakers house and office for a caravan park that got closed down, all the vans gone, so I am surrounded by park and vegetation, each day my walking routine goes round the house and will get bigger, there is a reserve down the street on the river , so I can go fishing soon. French Cambodian lady new in our MA club has been getting some private tuition off me and has leaped ahead of her learning and body block ( meaning , she could not get a lot of stuff, as she wasnt being taught right ; according to her learning style, ) now she gets a lot more and is ready for next level ... she was happy about that and ; " Thank you so much , now I can do ! I will cook for you and bring meals around for you ... you like French Cambodian food ... but sorry, it will be vegetarian .... okay ? " Me ;

Wow ! Thanks .... I thnk that long applicator could be forced into the unhealed hole and tunnel where they pulled the drain tube out of the op site , I will stick that in, force it into the joint and spray inside . Thaks mate ... more Daoist healing advice from a rusted friend

EDIT : I misread that ! ..... Mhe .... I have had worse . and yes, the comment it could be worse .... part of my life's philosophy that keeps me happy and wonderful I mean , fuck guys ..... I used to work in refugee relocation and help ex torture victims ! ... thats heavy

Ha! When I posted the above, I totally forgot about this wonderful aspect of DBs ! I will take your advice and check it out and then go to alternative healing center in town and see what they got in stock Cheers !

Sexually attractive , objectively ; people stop and gawp in the street, I think the word is 'stunning' . Thats my ex ...... female ' Kavorka' ( its true, I witnessed it for years on end ) https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=1006010203512

I live on a community and we have room for more people - visitors or longer

I select false cool . At a party ; 2 women standing in corner drinking, looking very sophisticated, made up , well dressed, expensive jewelry , etc . They seem to be wondering how they ended up in such a place - ugh! Lets say ; my opposites . I say to friends " Watch me pick up these two women ." Them ; "What ? You ? ? ! " I go over, chat , then the inevitable snooty question; "And what do you do ? " " Me ? Oh ... modelling ." 'What type of ' modelling ' ? " "I am a male model . " "You ! A male model ... really ? What and where was your last 'modelling' job ? " " You know those inflatable woman sex dolls ? Well they wanted to make a male version, and they used me for the original shape . " - they both put their drinks down and walk off without saying anything Friends; " That didnt seem to go too well ! " Me : " No ..... you know, I actually think they thought I was trying to be serious ! " I suggest we come up with another 4th choice . Freaky . It does offer scope to express oneself, regardless of any social norms of cool, dorky, falseness, conformity ;

yeah magic ! Whattup ? Unbeliever ? Check this out ...... the bird appears outta 'thin air ' !

Wow ! That was a bit poisonous ! All 'churches' are not the same you know . I suppose you are assuming 'Christian Church' and to further narrow it ; Christian church of a specific kind. Our 'church' never wanted any sheep. We wanted people's individual inherent genius to grow develop and flourish. And develop their power. Then again, I should not expect you to know of such things , it is in the minority. I am not sure what you mean about 'go and attempt miracles ' ? Often we were asked to 'water things down', as so much was contained in the liturgy. If people wanted that they were able to join an 'Order' associated with the Church ( similar to Monks ) where everything was set out in a step by step learning process. Then again this was a Gnostic Church , people were expected to form their own links and gain their own knowledge, not approach the 'spiritual' or the 'divine' via the clergy but through themselves, not emulate the knowledge of clergy, but develop it for themselves. To open the sheep pen, to use your metaphor .... to break down the fences. A group ritual is supportive, and most of the people were not really that interested in the liturgical ceremony ..... until something significant happened to them that made them feel they needed some action or support (in the usual things ; birth and death were the main ones, the 'sacraments' , the important 'nodes' of life, seem more significant). One in particular; a requiem service for a member whose son died .... intense .... but he wanted the ceremony and later told me how much it helped him. I also put together a funeral service once; I researched it, I knew the woman personally and about her life. The central part was taken from Normandy Ellis transliteration of the Egyptian Book of the dead , a chapter Entering the plethora of stars. Afterwards I got feedback on it, very good feedback, people told me that is what a funeral should be like. It was actually very beautiful, her children thanked me. The we buried her within the roots of her favorite giant tree in the rainforest behind her house on our land . Another friend died. They had some ceremony with a paid celebrant. At the beginning, as she was saying her stuff about my friend, she didnt even know her name and had to stop and keep looking down and reading out the name each time it came up in her rote little speech. It was pretty horrible, The people tried to eat some food .... one or two had drinks ... what a mess ! - in this aspect, the sharing and supporting, in some ways DBs is like this. people need someone to talk to about certain matters at times. That is all in my past, years back. But still I am called upon in my 'priestly role' ; distraught friend whose dog died .... yeah, its 'only ' a dog, but the person was distressed. My boss , who was paying to keep his father alive and realized he should 'turn off the machine' yet had a flotilla of wailing ethnic aunties asking him how he could kill his own father . We talked everyday on the phone for ages . He knew my background, my experiences, my studies, my qualifications ... and would amuse himself about that .... but when the shit hit the fan , psychologically ( or spiritually, if you like ) , he realized I was the only person he could talk to ... his only other options where religion; Islam (some relatives ) , Christianity ( his environment ) or Zoroastrianism (his ethnic proclivity ) , but he isn't religious . I have seen this issue a fair bit, people still want ceremonies and understandings relating to their rites of passage and significance. Some are offering alternative ones . I have not been very impressed with whats on offer. Maybe marriage , I have seen some good alternative marriage ceremonies. However, in a lot of my 'spiritual council ' I find people can be pretty messed up due to conditions implanted by other religions and churches . So I guess that is what all the spitted venom in the above quote was about .

... another 3 /4 and while I was looking at that and realizing ; there is a festival across the road going on with a sound stage and a band .... 3 /4

Fascinating! What happens when under pressure ? Some type of piezoelectric charge ? Oh look ! Its a Tree of Life in Four Worlds, within the 'Cube of Space' ! http://www.bio360.net/attachments/2013/01/13573780937daf6f78187acca1.jpg

I had some very nice mescaline crystals , back in the 80s , probably one of the nicest trips I have had . Very 'visual' . Very funny, in retrospect