Hello everyone. I am a 26 year old.
I have being masturbating and watching porn excessively since the ages of 12 through 23. When I turned 24 I started bodybuilding. Then I noticed something strange. When I would masturbate and watch porn I would have bad workouts in the gym I would feel tired and out of focus. So I cut it down to 3 to 5 times a month. Then to only 2 times a month or once every 2 weeks because the urges to do it were really strong. Now I am more disciplined and could control it. Well not really. I sometimes fall into watching porn again and end up masturbating up to 5 times in a row.
Previously. After a month of not masturbating I did it again 4 days ago 3 times in a row. I felt like i was dead. Slept 15 hours and felt super weak.
I' took double dosages of zinc, vitamin D, magnesium and vitamin b complex to recover quicker from lost fluids and sperm lost. So I haven't Masturbated in 4 days but the urges are there and I also feel this huge weird feeling in my stomach that feels like energy and i feel that its out of control. But when I feel this way i have really awesome work outs. I feel full of life. I do more things productively. I am in a better mood.
So at least I think that's a good sign that I haven't depleted my sexual energy from excessive masturbation and watching porn.
I am planning to cut off porn completely from my life and no more Masturbating. But I just hope I didn't deplete or have exhausted my sexual energy levels completely because it doesn't feel that way. As days go by though and I don't masturbate this feeling intensifies and I feel out of control I get super horny and end up watching porn and masturbating. I've being doing reading on life energy and sexual energy and it scared the crap out of me, and I feel pretty bad now that I've being doing so much damage to my self, and I had no idea. Makes me feel depress at times. Lol
Watt I do notice a lot too when I feel this energy, woman smile at me or check me out a lot. When I feel drained from masturbation and feeling like there is no life in me woman don't even notice me and i somehow become socially awkward. Lol I don't know if that makes any sense. Maybe they could sense this energy?
I am just trying to learn here how to harness this energy and build both life energy and sexual energy and use it into doing more important things. One of them is bodybuilding. And other important things in life.
Any tips would be greatly appreciated.
