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Sounds like that to me two. I like the tone of your posts MNM. I think you are heading in a good direction. What goals are you refering to specifically Trunk? You have your diet down realy well and thats great. You have an awesome energetic base in terms of saving jing and ability to circulate it and you have reached quite high because of your feeling of connection etc. If you advance to the next level you will likely have very quick results because of this. There are a lot of ways to go further. One is as suggested by little1 to do fusion and then progress to the kan and li stuff and bascily follow some version of mantaks system. That will bring you the results. I personaly am going to try fusion for a while when I feel ready as my one attempt at doing it felt like this was a perfect way for me to harmonize myself. An unusualy high percentage of people in mantaks system has had problems. This is largely because of problems with the sexual practices you have mastered perfectly already, because of the phowa stuff and kan and li stuff that was mixed into fusion and, because of iron shirt and because of a lack of a good progression of basics, an overreliance on visualisation and lack of stillness meditation. Because of your basis you will have a lot less likelyhood of trouble and there are people who have sorted out how to do things right. Michael winn and andrew fretwell teaches fusion without the mistakes, Winn teaches iron shirt more gently and you can read about that on Trunks site. You can add some stilness meditation and gentle breathing yourself and make sure you work enough on your body and not just meditation. Michael Winns qigong fundamentals + some other stuff later on should be enough. Also if you realy work well on the inner smile early on your body will be much better prepared and you will more quickly sense where your limits are and not overdo. With these things in mind this can be a wonderfull system and it will give you results. Read up on Trunks site for advice on this system. Another option is KAP (kundalini awakening process). It is a system developed by Dr. Glenn morris, partly in cooperation with Santiago Dobles and Tao semko. It raises your kundalini unusualy fast and in a very safe and balanced way. Numerous people on this board now practice KAP and they are all very, very happy with the system and what it has done for them. With KAP your Kundalini should be up an running to a large degree within a year or two and possibly a lot sooner depending on individual factors. Santi and Tao also have a great reputation as teachers and give a lot of their time and energy for free. THeir website however looks like cheesy comercialism so don`t let that scare you cause it does not reflect them or their teachings. Once I have done fusion and stillness meditation (vipassana) for a good amount of time KAP is what I want to do in combination with Vipassana. KAP is made to be done in combination with some sort of insight meditation like Zen, Dsogchen or Vipassana. You can also read about the beginings of KAP in Dr . Glenn Morris Path notes of an american Ninja master. It only scethes very loosely what KAP teaches though. KAP has a lot of advanced sexual practices that might interest you a lot. Another option is to just do Vipassana. Vipassana has a very high likelyhood of leading you to stream entry (first level of enlightenment) in a few years time if you practice quite a lot, do some retreats and follow good instructions. Vipassana also has some very good maps over the territory of meditation that tells you were you are and what to do. Daniel Ingram has written a book about Vipassana that is a real masterpiece and usually leads to peoples progress increasing a lot. The book is free on his website. He also has a forum where you can get excellent guidance in vipassana. Michael Lomax (JA MU on this board) has a system called Stilness Movement. This system has also gotten great feedback by people here who practice it. It is a genuine taoist system. Unlike Mantaks stuff which is very much based on active visualization and manipulation of energy this system is much more based on sitting in stilness and spontainious movement. It is likely a very good system for overall health in addition to being a good alchemical path. You can read about his system in his book. Just find a post by him and there is a link to his book and his website in the bottom of his posts. To learn his system you will have to attend a workshop as it can not be learnt from books. His system is also based a lot around him raising your energy vibration during the workshop with transmissions. In his book he describes a technique for dual cultivation that I think is quite unique. I have received healings from him and they work very well. His posts are very sensible and he seems like a very nice guy.

Superb. Best of luck:)

I read an article once where the journalist had gone to several astrologists and several psychics and then compared the answers. The answers were completely contradictory.

So I can tune in now or only at 11 my time?

at 11 your time?

Did you read Shade after I mentioned him in your thread on jealousy? If you did and it resonates that makes me very happy? I think Shade is very good but there is a certain risk of going over board with what he says. There are other dynamics between couples that can work very well but in general and for most women I think what he says is very important. Maybe David Deida could work well for you also. There are a lot of similarities between Shade and Deida. Juggler method is also very good (charismaarts.com).

BBC had a documentary where a female professor tested a lot of cosmetic products to see what worked. One of the things she found that gave realy great results was a product against loss of hair. It more or less stopped further loss but did not do so much to scale back previous loss. If you dig arround you should be able to find out the product name.

Not sure it would help as the cause of your problem seems to be something entirely different but there is a good memory exercise: Slap your palm on the foot so that the main minichakra on your palm more or less hits above kidney one. You can do this up to 800 times a day per foot. It boosts the kidneys a lot. You should also place your other hand on the foot being slapped so that your palms minichakra is above spleen 6. However, it does sound like your memory problem does not at all have to do with weak kidneys but rather some sort of mental disconect. THe spleen is connected to thinking to much and I believe, correct me if I am wrong, daydreaming and all sorts of fluffy states of mind. Anything that works the spleen should therefore help. The spleen sound from six healing sounds is an obvious alternative. The spleen is also the organ of the earth element which brings me to my second point, grounding. If you are really grounded done through the soles of your feet and if your root chakra is strong, you will not think too much, especially not fluffy and dreamy thoughts. It should make you clear and present. Embracing the tree with visualizing roots deep into the earth is a good one for grounding. You could also be experiencing a huge amount of "damp" going to your head that makes it difficult to think. Correcting the spleen and grounding helps a lot with this but balancing the solar plexus chakra also helps a lot. For me it feels like if I spin my solar plexus chakra clockwise then damp goes down. A couple of the gallbladder points down on the outside of the calf helps a lot with removing damp. For me these points have a quick effect on clearing up my head. All of these symptoms I have myself and I am working on all of these myself. If you check my threads you will find a couple about memory problems and burnout/fatigue.

Before an actual Kundalini awakening does there come some sort of smal Kundalini "teasers"? THe rason why I ask is that after a healing session now I am having energy coming up the spine from the tailbone that feels completely different than any other type of chi I have experienced and it is much, mcuh more powerfull. It is making me very disoriented and scared. To some extent it actually feels very good but it is also very agressive and uncomfortable in other ways. I feel like the power that this comes from is huge compared to what I have tapped into before. THe sensations has varied from burning and not quite the crawling ants feeling but something not quite unlike it. Right now the energy is white but the colours have varied a bit. Is this something that happens from time to time when energy come from the tailbone? Is it always like this? or is this some sort of sign that I am opening Kundalini by accident?

Good to know that kinda what I thought. I prefer to save the Goddesses for a couple of years down the line but I do kinda look forward to seeing them as well. THe energy has been quite calm for a long time now. Tai chi helped and so did a massage. I think the massage helped physicalize the energy. Now I am feeling rather good. The energy has spread also so now I have the cool white energy all over which feels kinda good but also weir as I am not acustomed to this flavor of energy.

Sounds good. Now I am actually feeling quite good. The energy itself is rather nice. Why is deep breathing important right now? Is it because it distributes the energy correctly? I will do a round of secret smile later today and I have tai chi class in a couple of hours and that always balances out my energies.

Michael Lomax. I have had some very good healing sessions with him lately. Yes I do feel that I have access to people that could help in such a situation and long term that would make it ok but I do not feel ready for it now at all I have absolutely no idea what it is. I am just scared of kundalini. I hope and actually think it is just some chakra orbit stuff of the regular kind. I have tuned in to a couple of yours and that has been very nice:) A dual one with Susan Carson was just awesome. But I have conciously been avoiding it now as I don`t feel ready for kundalini at all. The energy is much calmer now but it has been turning on and of a lot so it might get stronger again. The way I see it now is that this was just some sort of normal chakra energy but that because I am already so energetically unbalanced and ungrounded energy that does not feel that strong for others feels overwhelming for me since it goes in the wrong places. My energy usually just goes to my head and not down the front and that makes very manageable amounts of energy sometimes painful and disorienting. I have been pressing an acupoint on my wrist that makes energy go in the front channel and that has helped a lot. Right now it kinda feels quite good. Also the energy is very white. Anyone know what it means that the energy is white? It is also very cooling now although sometimes I have small sensations of heat.

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You are a great resource for the Bums. Please keep posting The chineese never seem to be too happy about unpredictability of any kind If what is said about moving the ming men fire is true, then learning to replicate the same thing mentaly without the drug might not be such a good idea. You don`t get toxins of course but you are still going into patterns of awareness and energy that, although usefull in many ways, might still be unhealthy long term.

AYP si totaly free, very efficient and taught only through online lessons. You could look into that. Even just 10 min a day of AYP meditation will yield positive results. A couple of weeks and you will feel better, six months and you have a huge change. If you do it, you should evnetualy add a grounding technique or two to it such as embracing the tree with visualising roots. Maybe also secret smile or inner smile if time allows.

http://www.thetaobums.com/Authentic-Tantri...hers-t9421.html http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?showtopic=11493 http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?showtopic=11485 THese threads give you a lot of important info. You probably are having a type of orgasm that is too yang and so are overcoocking yourself with the wrong type of energy not too much energy. You probably lack the ability to properly integrate the energy. The more advanced you are the better this seems to go but exactly how it is done is not quite established by anyone. You need to blend the hot fiery yang energy you are storing with energy from the heart. Biels fir and water technique on alchemicaltaoism goes a long way to help with this. Doing the inner smile deeply also helps. Testicle breathing blends in unaroused sexual energy in a way my teacher thinks is important to balancing you when you practice retention. THe secret smile can help you a lot with removing blockages that create extra problems for you because of retention, it will balance your emotions which is especialy important because sexual energy makes your emotions more extreem wether they are positive or negative. It will also probably help balance the sexual energy with heart energy because your are flushing love and happiness energy through every inch of the body. Stilness meditation and deep abdominal breathing is IMO key to integrating the energy well and most certainly for achieving multiple o`s in the right way. Your orgasms should idealy almost go up by themselves as in Karezza and there should be almost no forcing. Try the aneros as it will help you achieve a more corect type of orgasm as you can only have them when relaxed enough and it does not rely on technique. These things are dealt with in greather length in the threads I link to. Read them first.

Since there is a lot of theory about animals evolving through contact with the energy of advanced practicioners sending him as much energy as posible seems like a good idea. Maybe put him in the healing section so other people send him energy too.

use the search function and find those threads that mention Karezza. In those threads there are plenty of good discussions that adress a lot of this.

My life in a nutshell. The image is really good.

Although I think Bodri probably has got some very good info he has the psychology of an angry, arrogant 13 year old boy and is generally full of shit as far as I can see and extremely inflexible in his views so I never really take what he says very seriously.

I think talking about attainments can help normalize them for yourself and others and can be a vital part of an exchange of information that helps others get where more expereinced people are quickly. As such sharing experiences can be seen as an act of service and compassion. Especially because there can be a cost to sharing about attainments because many people get suspicious. Read daniel ingrams writing about this http://web.mac.com/danielmingram/iWeb/Dani...ok/Archive.html and ask the same question on dharmaoverground where they all completly disagree.

At dharmaoverground they can give you very good instructions for shamatha to still the mind and go deep and vipassana for insight. Quite a lot of people there are very experienced with that sort of meditation and could guide you for free in the forum. AYP is solely taught online without anyone ever meeting the founder yogani. It is all through articles, books and the webforum. It is a very successful system where people get quick results in a fairly balanced way. Add some grounding and secret smile and you are really on your way.

I wanted to use the clapping smiley face but couldn`t find it. Just imagine about 20 such clapping smiely faces and you will know what I think of Rudds satement.