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This is a nice post(i have responded it before too). Aversion towards light work is a projection. But how to let go of that projection is not like a one step where you can say just let go.

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yes you should even want to stick around, unless you want to get sticked by Vlad the impaler type by taking a birth as a enemy of such a person.

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...or watching a movie clips uploaded by various users into Youtube. So if they will satisfy the desire to see the entire product therefore also buy the product. Is that i cause bad karma to manifest in these people who uploaded these clips? for me it means i get satisfy and lock the heart and plus i won't feel anything for a while. What about critics, if they are wrong?, maybe the product is fine to me and i don't buy it or try it because critics. Anyways someone gets beaten up. Sick thoughts rise pretty easily.

So Jeff could i ask you those kind of philosophical questions? and how are they related to light practices?

There is death issue. When you see a bug what is stuck and you will come to aware of a idea that you could save it- that knowledge rises in your mind with the potential to make a effort to save the bug. So now if you don't do it then does it equal to a deed of letting a bug die?

yes and some even sleep on spikes and under spiked blanket. So to get another extra microsecond on nerve speed and not miss the triggers on bad sensitivity.

Like if i am sitting and taking sunbath, and then i hear that my boss is coming then i think i need now to start working otherwise i might get salary cut. My boss is a factor i can't decide how it acts without having later a physical punishment. So also the forum members cause sensations and are factors i can't change. So it is that level of realness. If its claimed like someone got a high jhana so well good but does it help you get better life situation, do you now can get away from feeling suffering when someone beats you with a stick..

the area below navel is the most hardest craving burn i feel when its on. I suffered greatly, now not so much but still i need mostly meditate like it is a job.

when i go to meditate, it is like riding a bicycle, or walking around other words nothing special. So i sit in meditation and think that i won't ever going to sit long and years(its boring). But i also can't give up, so there is this awful hopelessness feeling rises. So the thought is rejection of activity but i also can't give up. So it starts fire what doesn't feel pleasant at all. So i try to cultivate those feelings, they will deplete and something else happens, satisfaction, tranquility whatever.. Urges are like also i want to drink coffee. My mind is in coffee machine, i see a mental image of coffee machine, i need return mind from it. One way to return my mind is to drink coffee but nope i don't want because one day i maybe don't have the coffee so i need to get my mind back without drinking a coffee. So two different variants already. Done it so many times i can recon also many other correlations and shortcuts and what can be done easier and better without much bad backlashes. So perhaps its individual to me, but well i have a story, thanks for listening.

also who are nobodies, basically not know what are the hidden dramas and issues, then OP is VERY MISLEADING. WTF anyone can relate to it. And waht those later do, is fall under ground becasue of embarrasment.

the water of piss, that feeling is late to cultivate, it will accumulate there from feelings of fear, anxiety etc. Add exitement you have also brown stuff./////////actually not late, you can use those sensations. I have, but i didn't meant those urges in my post. i mean more like boredom induced, aversion etc sensations. But that is not all, there is waht matters is a common nominator,.. there is something in urge what kind of clicks or works. -------- So also if said like sitting in a room, it is just to point out a scenario, if you can get what it means then you don't really have to separately practice.

Jeff, Do your group cultivate Jing/urges? (i think urges are jing) Basically you sit in a room and wait till you feel a need or desire to go somewhere and do something. So are you cultivate that force?

no i am a retard on that respect, i never speak normally, i mean never had spoke normally. I also read you what you write also retardly. --- you can be right tho, the same idea what you told i am aware of that, but it should not be the main issue.

i think not. I suck at literature. Like in a game. 100 bronze gets 1 silver, 100 silver gets you 1 gold, 100 gold gets you one liquid element. so lots of repetitions. 100K reps to get 1 liquid element.

Moon and crescent > trinity

i see i have unitarian/oneness clingance. Now if i cultivate that then i feel sorrow. So it is a good shortcut to that feeling. That doesn't mean i reject that but will abuse that point every time to get that feeling. Basically 1st layer is form, its there as a idea now i can notice that and get a feel. Feeling is a second layer. --- I think its the same thing where some peeps try to take down ancient forests for quick profit. So basically the treehuggers can't let go and accept that world will be destroyed its the faith. --- and treehuggers later come and say told ya so. It feels extremly salty. --- so knowing the both aspects, you get a perception.

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No worries, just be yourself. I tried to initially tell that i am still living after using that point. (what next said can be ignored because its pretty oftopic) I think sicknesses try to force you into correct way or feeling you need cultivate, so going through one and the same pains many times you will finally also see and know what to cultivate to go through making sickness going away triple fast. That weakness that i felt like starvation even if i eat food, and hard time doing anything physical is reoccuring to me, like you said a chronical thing, its much better for me now, i go very fast through that(hopefully saying that doesn't backfire and unleash a new weird weakness issue), i still recognize that place when it happen. But i have intensified other things. As of the "doer thing" its seem not so wide spread. But in buddhism there is lot of self and no-self talk. And simply hand we use to do things. There is channels what will be gone through and made known so next time can know more. Its cartoon simple like what shoulders do or elbow. For an example: Elbow is fear and anxiety, you can bend your hand and cover your eyes or spring push things away etc, shoulders are for rough push through and not being a coward and deciding to stand up to the pressures of life etc. Even talking to ou is same kind of meaning or principle.

if you put your hand onto a hot plate there is a pressure or light growing very fast and big it hit painfully after certain threshold is reached, your mind is able to discern it, you won't see it with physical eyes. People can affect you same way. I think pain can be dissolved like craving can be dissolved. In one of the translation of Diamond Sutra read that if you conquer pain that means it doesn't go over the threshold you grow back what you lost. So it reminded me amphibians who can grow back their limbs, so i wonder if they feel any pain.

i think it is New age thing of shifting to 5D. What 5D is your imagination manifest reality. Now just look it up what Jhana realm have same quality and you get a correlation. So is that wrong thing to do? Or i should find a teacher, what usually is meant that the person saying things out doesn't want to take the responsibilities what said on him/herself so its easier to tell find a teacher. It is like a internet meme. Jhana realms from second one have no sexual unions, in higher realm mere smile can satisfy. If you look Buddha statues they smile. Monks aim to reach is at least Akanistha realm. -------- its for to realize truths about reality, if want to know even better truths need make a resolutions, take vows. So a commoner can do whatever it likes i assume, but they won't get to know the truths and other knowledge. Other words it is bigger world with different classes of beings etc but if want to get most out of human life then there is some pointers to fulfill so can enter to certain places.

i have used that point so many times that i realised i don't get enough of it. In a spawn of many years. I doubt you can break the point what holds the semen back. There is same thing happen during sleep when that release happen mind knows how to stop it and during that process you come awake in succession and respectively also liquid comes out so during that time you naturally know how to use mind to hold it back so nothing get lost or very little. So if you do it manually it is a transition point of going into deactivating the doer as the pressure from hand can be then returned. So you then need wait till someone comes. It goes into realm you don't want to hear about(natural first denial reaction). For that you have helpers. With other channels doing the same thing, at some point can use mind to do the function via dreamlike space assessed via eyes. Using breath to get the substance derived from somatic feelings from body getting sympathetic. ----------- So basically you didn't read my first reply to you without having rejection in mind, so you expressed your rejection, so my openness got rebounded and i felt sick afterwards. So nothing out of the ordinary, that's the way things are done imo. You served me well.

Its like told to me that I don't get the answer I am looking for. Why tweet at all? you looking forward for certain response. I wonder why the one loving response doesn't suffice? so these loving responses actually are not what you looking for?

I was not matching the burden of this thread with my sentence. Something i can't yet handle. So i wrote a sentence what suffocate the sensation what i felt.