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([If you see me as negative person who needs help, you should cultivate and meditate till you get over of it. i saw your post as an attack, but i cultivated and got over it. I'm sure i can cultivate and see it hostile again. So seeing is a variable and not you nor who i am. I suggest you to level up your seeing faculty. That you won't be mistaken it to be a person]. i'm gonna eat my own words, so i hope they won't cause much sickness, i already know it won't hurt that bad as last times). also i forgot to cultivate away the usual tone of voice of mine. That annoying explaining voice, what prolly triggers some hate.

You sped up. It doesn't mean i did progress or anything you got that impression. I read the words "WoW" and it sounds like i have been a burden. I used that today in order to get away with conflicting space. Just add speed, faster movements so it activates something and i get release and i can work in same space what was hard pressuring me before.

current guess from based on real evidence, but these things can have no connections but still i write it down: When old moon starts to develop after the full moon i am coming occasionally aware of what i am doing, or aware of my self and i am sleepy. Thing is i don't remember becoming that way aware(or is it cessations) before and during the full moon, just were a sickly period with various sufferings. pretty much after the peak of full moon(hour or so later) i start become aware. Looked the timings on calendar when the moon is full exactly and remember approximately when i come aware. Also if to calculate more punctuate perhaps its setup like mechanical that exactly after peak of full moon north oriented peole start become have cessations or come aware what they do. ------- also it seem there is two types of people, some are like north hemisphere other are south hemisphere dominate

the thing what spin me into outburst is still there but i don't let it out(at least so easy). Also therefore i don't need to cultivate long to have a substance what drops pass the bottom of breath. Things do get easier but a certain call can now trigger full empty out the rectum. Its i'm not getting sick so badly than before, but because that sickness held back lesser things, now i have some more psychological weird feeling problems than ever.

reading this convo. I can replicate it into some special breath. I think that is meditation.

i am getting more sensitive and can work them out early. I am working with issues, i am ahead of my past. I can imagine things, play a scenario it has to be what is also connected somehow to reality of my current issue, so i play it and then i get afflicted i notice that affliction and can work with it then from a body.

I care about afflictions. a snake bites me, then the snake is innocent. The cure is in poison. Affliction is like a poison.

What about being in a way that people tell awful things to you naturally/effortlessly. So i need start hid those things, so also i can't go to certain places and do certain things i would love to. Entire life will flow by hiding and can't relax. Everyone has that thing, some sort of base sin. One option is to kill everyone who i feel threaten me. It is based on my own inner life who deserve to live and who not.

If it would have been a bad response then you wouldn't speak to it. And also "rather". So i am still lacking and can't get into positive frame, makes me feel sad and that is a good thing when i eventually see it. i don't want peace, i am looking for afflicted feelings. I still can look what you write tho and cultivate.

What would be your first question? ... You write that sentence you lost what you held(like with holding the breath, you don't let the substance back in), basically you let the steam out, and i can get a sense and cultivate it. I think this kind of interaction is needed like being to being.

Your first sentence already has negative connotation. As i said i need to do something beforehand to get afflicted feeling. So i don't just read sentences. Also to note is that when i am moving around changing location like going out from my usual place then i need to wait till i can again get feelings. So i don't whine that you are just chatting and not even try to be not you or change things. Also if you scatter your thoughts try to answer in detail but still you have only one tone of voice so i read that tone only and then go for singel sentences what either attenuate or amplify your base tone.

Warm house is comfortable, there is this positive connotation invoked. Same way, if i read what you say, it hurts me. Because the connotation is that i am weak, so i work with that feeling and find a way how i can turn it around so i will feel satisfied, released. ----- So to read in general what people say, i need to use eyes correctly to start prey for these feelings. Then i can use these feelings for assumptions. Assumptions are like you have to do this and that. So i can read some of people and they speak from a point of assumptions what try to force me do things as connotations. ----- might ask why i do it, it is for substance, i eventually can stabilize it and hold it. Also split it....etc. Also live with sleep deprivation to find there a darkness etc.

btw i don't get what you say.

Full moon is on. Maybe it is that what establish conditions for these types of experiences.

Feelings. The locations used in body and what activity, what type of energy, is it hold, dragged spent etc, then in mind what real life situations, scenarios these are presenting. Playing through them and try to pinpoint the best match. Take away appearances and use some sort of general meanings that can be understood. Is to witness what you did. If you say no to a desire then you will witness its impact after a turn. How the turn comes tehn good can be bad and vice versa, so need learn what to reject, hold, wait, run after etc before a turn. men who doesn't do discipline and talk against guarding energies are like free source of energy for yin. Females are yin so they like it naturally.

ok, thx to this convo i got more confirmation what type of energy noncultivator females are after. The friendly compassionate females will turn against the source what will not give energy before the second turn. So the men also afraid of losing the warmth will not dare to go solitary practice in order to see what comes after the turn. So these men are supported by females who loudly express thoughts against discipline and cultivation. ETC

So i won't bother to continue other than to say that it takes lot of effort to cultivate what you said. You are that strong.

i need to attack you in order to convey a deeper meaning. Because you not cultivate that point, it can be gone through by attacking therefore. By attacking, you get disappointed, get despair, depression etc for that i need build trust and buy your friendship with something then i will betray you.

celibacy and solitary practice is mandatory in between interactions and other actions in order to be able to these acts in your own mind later and not need to suffer because of the consequences of these actions in that time and space.

You don't still get it tho. I will change the subject a bit. Well there is this thing of negativity and not accepting your positive help. Because the positive help you offer is counterproductive. The entire combat like attacking is looked as negative act. But it is not. It is for protection, when someone try to brainwash peeps with positivity and acceptance its is actually the positive guy is try to pull out the warm energy from the negative person, in order to make it positive but it is actually you make it lose that persons energy if that person don't know how to put it back. It can be expressed better i'm sure. The channels and feelings cultivation without spending more warmth energy but packing it in order to use it in your own mind field to overcome and turn the tides. It is not wrong if positive people try to pull out the warmth from negative, because its how negative gets information easy experience and learns but the thing is negative person is not able to defend audioable so also the positives could learn, because positives will see it as evil acts and ban and suspendable, offecive.

whatever, you didn't get what i wanted to tell. Feelings, channels. Like when you cringe it is a channel you go through and it is situation, location and time dependent too so eventually you can replay these things in your head and don't need to go through painful events anymore. So the God channel what is basically the situation where you are the dumber and helpless one, so you activate, go through, purify these types of channels where you are the low key.

do you believe in humanoids and creators who live in other places than Erath and this galaxy?

I believe in God as higher power. Aliens. Extraterrestials. Maybe there is even humanoids in undeground etc you get the point. Trees have energy etc. Christianity as religion is for influence, politics and stuff. So its important to know what it is, so i choose forests so i am Pagan.

eyes can be used in internal cultivation, by approaching eyes from inside the head. For that there is needed to have solitary practice to be able to disconnect from You based system, like hands and fingers, and stop using those for satisfy urges. You can disconnect eyes from hand, that is not that easy to do, becase you need defeat urges and in order to defeat urges you need know when they peak etc. So for starters is just to ask God spark to enter into you to open light channel. It works because of dark age what is on currently.. its you look into the sky/up, and when you do you have basically all channels in right positions automatically to be able to receive. Also need raise the hands so that is a symbol of you have no brains to do anything and need higher power etc. But its just a light channel, the spark comes later.

In thermodynamics, the internal energy of a system is the energy contained within the system, excluding the kinetic energy of motion of the system as a whole and the potential energy of the system as a whole due to external force fields. It keeps account of the gains and losses of energy of the system that are due to changes in its internal state.[1][2] The internal energy of a system can be changed by transfers of matter or heat or by doing work.[3] When matter transfer is prevented by impermeable containing walls, the system is said to be closed. Then the first law of thermodynamics states that the increase in internal energy is equal to the total heat added plus the work done on the system by its surroundings. If the containing walls pass neither matter nor energy, the system is said to be isolated and its internal energy cannot change. The first law of thermodynamics may be regarded as establishing the existence of the internal energy. Source wikipedia