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Buddha got milk. And ended its ascetic practice.

but to me it seem what you do is cutting the roots. Reading your other posts too you like the fetters model. fetters model is not about cutting the root that we don't like female boobs anymore. They are great, because when we see them then we can connect to the belly and get a feeling. Feeling can be cultivated. Eventually boobs are a reminder and so on.

So now i can go and drink a coffee. Mistery still is did i even had a change to drink coffee before or only after i did that procedure. --- have read or relay on information from scriptures, that human body is fruitful, that we can just do things easy every now and then, but not in spiritual realms there can't. So i can see better how it is. its because we are that ignorant and deluded we just can do things without knowing procedures.

i heard a legend that in internet actually is a webpage where people talk about mediation and the issues coming with it, anyone heard about it too or have information about these sites?

censorship in full throttle. ---

by the way i just got very angry writing you a post, my hands started to shake too. -- + head is painful. Similar to the migraine but without pulsation. Also i left the part out, but it would have been interesting to hear, but the politics here forbid and i would prolly gotten banned.

Habitual(still thinking what the correct word here is) anger is a feeling like the sensation when you reach certain level of pee in your bladder. Real anger is like a desire to pee from different cause and its a charge in pee, what can be discharged and you forget that you have pee. Also its with taking a dump, sometimes there is a intense urge to take a dump, you think it is wet but actually it is not. So its with anger too you need know how to cultivate that the real anger rises what isn't the dumbass anger. So i gather and anger(it can be anything else too, like frustration, feeling of incompetency, failure etc) is intense, in its peak brain actually shows that its sensual desire, you will feel not anger as mind but a body sensation, like molten metal ball burn translated as intense urge to have a sensual release. there is more to say in this subject.

There is no point instigate someone random who isn't even interested to sit, its very useless and time waste to sit because this age is not best suitable for yoga, jhana. dark age body is not the body type what was age before. Certain body type doesn't feel the things other type would feel. So it is useless to tell things to someone who is kali yuga - For them they need only to wish to become enlightened, their thoughts will manifest thats what they think that their thoughts make things happen//that's why a kali yuga person can get enlightened by wishing to become enlightened because they cling to thoughts so heavy that they think that their thought manifest reality. with ascetics practice you get the body you need pictorially. Other words you can be fat, but still be the correct breed. Like you need be man to become enlightened, that does not mean taht female body means one is female and vice versa.

Well get cranky and stay there you will see it will disappear without the things you do from first paragraph too. You just need extra push so you would fall over the cliff and die. edit: you yourself can't jump of the cliff, someone needs to push you to it. Females manage your anger, so if you decide to be alone, you will have no manager you need start deal and face the feelings of anger and irritability, cruelty etc.

I need help, but from the point of independence where i am lost. That thought will have different sensors active and now if i ask directions the mind is nondual, antimatter. So in sense organ i need find the homeless signal, the wanderer. I myself won't see it, its the mind what has directions leaps towards it automatically when it notices it. And then i know what i need to do. So for me i just stay in one place and wait till the signal comes and mind leaps towards it or the connection will be made when two notices each other and match made.

that has karmic activity, i knew it and cultivated it so i don't get insulted on rebound.

i sometimes need do that facial expression to empty something or activate movement.

bulletproof way to check if you are on path is to read out the sign what occur. Like high pitch sound in ear. And what other sound there are in ear and distinct what is what. Even the stork bird sound in certain time. Like the white noise gets stronger and stronger till you notice it automatically by itself because it has come so loud then immediately a tone comes in and eradicates the white noise. It is not possible to discern or know, its just tone happens and happens rarely enough i guess not to make importance of it. Also how the white noise comes about. That has a thing too. -- know the signs and more you can test yourself, what i read and did try out was from a hindu book, there when you have that channel open you should be able to do taht with your nose etc. --- there is two types of tones what eradicates white noise and there is even sensation felt in ear. Also face skin crawlers and ear worms crawlers. -- sun, moon, needle like star, vortex- circles within circles.

i don't know how to say it but when you copulate you use up energy. There is a mind and body connection. Late late after many transformations, the discharge will be seen singular like ball of light if you decide to cultivate the desire to move without doing and get a movement by insight(sexual union is you move back and forth your flesh body parts and have a special door open in split second you don't see how it works,.. life is like a imitation of spiritual). Also you can't start see urge to consume right away, you also need see how your mind disappear to emptiness. Its happen to you and shown to you, you can't miss it since the acknowledgement happens too, so its not that hard because you don't have to worry about missing it, just need cultivation to set the conditions. Just sit long enough and with sound mind, in 5 min you feel like you need stop, so it comes a struggle. Keep on sitting till the feelings and emotions change into desperate cry. Its pretty much energy has reached pass elbow and gets into hand and from hand it goes to emptiness and then returns and the toxicy and irritability will rebound and its possible you become retarded for a while. ---edit i guess you all are already specialists and not need to practice years to have one meager sensation but know all channels and cavities and polarities etc.

i think what is even more important is: does it even matter if it is nondual or not. If we know what result we expect. Since if we don't know the effect or result then the importance what self is doesn't have any impact. sense of self is basically you know that it is your hand what touches the table. So you can have that sense that you are touching the table as a pure sense in mind. So its pretty much a clearcut kinderkarten pointer to antimatter..edit or not, dunno but i see logic somewhere what can be trained and proved. (i bail out of conversation since i have used up all my thinking matter)

wouldn't emptiness be just another word for mind/nondual? here what people say

for geeks they have desire to know things how they work and do create things too. you remind me of a blond girl opinion.

Matter is tangible, while antimatter is opposite to matter. Like proton and anti proton. When antimatter and matter get together they get destroied and what liberates is photons, gamma radiance. ------- I read article about Japan scientist proved that in lightning strike, antimatter is created and gamma radiance. That postulate was up already by Russian scientist. But now it is proved. --- i think mind is antimatter and body is matter. So knowing that the nondual is antimatter and dual is matter. edit: hmm then for me mind is non-dual.

you don't talk about feeling and sensation of I. Then that means you are in conceptual ground. Awareness can be linked to feeling. When you cultivate sensations like touch, smell, you are cultivating sense of self/ awareness/whatever name to put it it, location is in head. Cultivating sense of self by observing sensations, will result in you can attain sense of self what is head based field what can be used willingly and apply force to it and its capacity to apply power or force grows over time. In practice there is possible to talk about tangible sensations what show the location or stage what is spoken off. it proves my point, it is used to break the conceptual mind. - sense of self can be brought out any time you please or remember. So by reason, it does not exist independently. You sensing the presence and bias the description of the reality on that, but the now or presence is your mind field what is cultivated by body sensations. when the sense of self disappears, its just empty space/being/presence(it doesn't even matter what name), but again it is possible to move there without arising sense of self when you have cultivated life/urges to move, like desire to buy a ice cream.

maybe, i have seen dog ghost, it enters to me, and later i see the dog and i get fear. (seen it second time, first of i saw i sent ghost towards dog, now a year idk how long later i saw dog sent me ghost, so i wonder what third is; will i be able to manually interact with ghost animals?? it got me idea that human body creates ghosts. Also can receive. [hopefully i one day can leave the body as well(either i use ghost as vessel or not sure what it means yet to be outside the body), before i die and can't inhabit the body] --- also i see things fly by fast my field, its not very new phenomena for me but what occurs now more and more... there also sometimes portals open up, dunno what it is for or why(when i am on a rage mode, fae).

if i read then i sometimes see black hole appear into my mind space and i get a body snip like sensation. Sentences are not just sentences or plain text. There is difference who says the things. Also the things i responds have happened in most part already, the typing department just fills orders and the self is formed there too so it feels like i do type in real time.

it boils down to that sentient beings doesn't exist they exist because of ignorance lack of seeing. You don't see that you are in nirvana or in hell etc, how your mind changes or body and where it appears. For a ignorant, the historical Buddha died to old age, had pains etc also see it liek i would see a typical human being. --- In Sutra its said that he manifested this, old age and such to teach beings etc

nirvana and samsara is like no ice cream and ice cream. Both versions have craving, but since in nirvana there is no ice cream then craving can't arise. So more practice to discover the third thing.

Ok guys i remember yesterday why i stopped, today is same event seemingly but it is not. I feel pleasure even in my entire hands from shoulders. So if noone notice then its a procelibacy campaign, its worth. At first its hard and meaningless and not see the point when the peak desire is on but over time by opening points and other things and just progress its get better and the bad isn't that bad anymore. hmm googled celibacy, i think i have used that word wrongly. ITs should be cell biology.