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Went outside to find and eat berries, i noticed a bug on a berry and i took it away as its nothing. Whhyyyyy

your post put me to think that the real life is also like an autonomous system partly. Like i do something and it triggers some kind of other event to appear.

NPL is a mental image triggers a sensation. ASMR is sensory experience triggers a sensation. They seem to be same, but NPL uses thinking/mental consciousness. --- its my first 5 minute noob guess.

yesterday, someone dragged me into a place and did unethical act, i was just watching, standing there. What could have been offence if we would have been got caught. The same way back he saw a poisonous snake, it run away, i was closer to the snake but i didn't saw it. But he spoke he saw a snake, fear entered to me, half way walking back perception is fear. Been back, I found a tick walking on me and i killed it. After i departed, going home i felt anxiety like sensations and bad(blanket term), and today morning also bad, worked it off. I just think i should have released the tick, instead of killing it. Fck poor tick. Useless kill.

Even God is but lack of better reference. Reverse engineering body

i agree. In games who play very well are blamed for using cheats. But who play badly are called trolls.

These are objects for to interact with in case you don't have human or noone to interact what has passed the "Turing test".

kk, i use more like a symbolic examples. If i need to have a change i think about something else but the thought is entire scenery so there is affection in it and it will make a shift in my body and i can cultivate it, and make a forceful shift by will. That's how i train myself, it entirely depends on me. So if earth shifts then i don't get so bad hangover.

Make a rule, and sustain it, become a leader and have followers. So anyone who goes against it will be punished and converted. If you have better Tao than mine, then you will win.

am i good at dharma, love me all!! do i deserve paradise? i think the next level is my own thoughts will satisfy me. (sry about being a bit selfish here)

i don't really believe in magic other than there has to be a medium a carrier, and that known then there is no magic but defineable product. But i believe in God, an archidect. It made systems and things.

I walk on earth. But its not me who is walking, i command the body. How different body parts are accessed are mindstreamed. The more i open the mind the more bottelnecked i am, because i need use codes to access and do things, initiate processes what then i need wait and then can access and do.

Got a new sensation, it have appeared before too but too few times, now i saw. Basically a cactus without thorns. So with thorns it conventionally would be negative. That was the thing, i can't just go from negative to positive, for an outward observer it would be easy feat, but not when you are in game. To add is that its earth what goes through states i just adjust accordingly. So it makes it even more silly if to think I deserve punishment or think my punishment is overkill. Just let the earth god rule.

feelings layer is type of sensations what are receptive. That makes it difficult. Since it feels like you lose and going downhill. it doesn't matter at all what you talk. If i will concentrate what you talk then that is just i squeeze my forehead and make a pattern and make it digestable for you, so you can think that i actually read what you say and you feel positive feeling.

You should keep mind as your focus, as it is your heaven and ruler. Without body, head doesn't exist and without head your body dies. So the delusion or ignorance is what rules your body. So you should start listen and stop ignoring. (rant) --- you don't have to do anything. If you don't do then someone else comes and do it with a happy face. There is a state where also you do things with a happy face and cheer up others and tell about easy life.

idea is to get straight through drama and gain emotional maturity. It is to let the relaxation what is felt in torso to fall back down, that same substance or water is raised going through all sort of emotions and feelings and eventual outbursts. ------- i have wondered what is next or what sign i need to see. I see my eye sight is brightening. Hopefully no more falling back. And currently just waiting when the vedana skandha, feelings will get mastered quicker and quicker in this context, breath is third skandha. Breath will come wet life.

well i went away from a forum and play a game instead.

you guys really know how to idolize and give a sense what is like the average Joe isn't teaching you anything. you get punished for that by the people who are next to you who has to listen what only you think is special and steal the day. Quit stealing the day.

ok, let it be real then. Does it matter? you can use whatever object for contemplation. And sometimes insights rises, but these are not real too, because they don't matter. Or visions, or feelings etc whatever they don't matter. can we move along. Its not me who creates this reality and decide how things are. What i do is ask and contact who has power and pick a side what is host and follow that.

yes, that's why i came to rabbit hole. to avoid ban.

Its that state, and looking back it takes so long and many days...evil state..someone call exorscist. by the way brown stuff is heating up, i feel. I feel the sensation in my nose too. And it is not a smell but tingling. Also my eye sight is brightening and hyperfocus(if i use that part of eyes).

someone make me feel embarashment. I almost got the sensation. Too late, i know what i need to do, i can cultivate the situation where you know you are doing wrong. So what i need is i should go to chucrh and tell about my deepest sins. It would be like a asmr. So is there anyone want o hear my dirty secrets?(no even thinkign my anxiety sensations start rising a bit) but still too little --- i think its about having fun alone. So i should share instead.

also he is vulnerable in that state, it is the result of getting burnt by being normal. -- sad A.W, truly broken. Mistake is he didn't found what he needed(i think) because you get instantly sane after that and for a while your mouth is shut and nothing coming out.

i have respect to him, he is a troll too. That same state what i have right now, so if i would say bad words, then its aswell means i am jumping into a pool of acid.

you thought me something. I read from other thread that you are weak and tried out some things. so just now i recon what type of sensation in me is weak and i naturally jump on it like a beast. So sry if have teased you a bit.