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yo, it explains, why you need to keep your own pain in so that others doesn't know, so that you naturally feel authentic. So my thanks! you already thought me a lesson.

those who lock you up are illuminati fetish, who believes that there is more to see than your own ass. --- get it? when everything goes downhill we try to save our own ass only. The eye is up there sees all.

don't believe? go camping and take with you 24H Nato food and eat it, lets see. that quality what is trained. It will get things done without doing them and then start capitalize on it. Let the ignorants run and do things for you instead. peeps think that locking up someone bc of crime that it is a punishment? person actually who deserve punishment are the ones who locks you up for being ignorant. the things what people buy are 90 percent impulsive. So these are more like collectioner fetish, so its okay if i take them, i liquidiate these things again. So again crooks do the nice ones a favor, without crooks your shyt aint worth anything.

but to get the fluids going, to turn the wheel, even bland food can make it happen over time, because you don't get full of it so you will feel pain in stomach but over time you get used to it and notice you even like it. All this made because pain took you so low that food is not bland anymore but pretty tasty.

its your feelings, you will suffer so long till you pass out. Like your own hands try to strangle you and you will pass out before you could die. We can manually let go of clinging to hands, some nervous system switch. With feelings the switch is done not by you, just wait till you pass out. there is also more, its starvation. Its awful too. and the regular pain. feelings, tears starvation, air pain, pus

basically reality is pool of water. I use my hand to take some of it, and use my mouth to take a sip, and that sip is going to my pool and through vessels it reaches to my brain and i get ecstatic. Sense organ consciousness connects to the heart living world, its ruled by female deity. It is what dream is. That bottom is connected to ldt, little head etc. ------- So there is two channels, has to be "seen"(gone through) and the uniting, sameness, spatiality, womb is what we focus next. What after that next is as import as pregnating. -- So is there actually a real world or not. But that what is right now a round world is round because we couldn't get straight through it.

is your world real because you feel pain? is that only thing you can remind yourself of reality. So you have said previously tyou don't subscribe to suffering. So that means you avoid reality.

In experiences there are no self or selves. Experiences are merit accumulations.

if there is a comparision that this life is like a dream, then when you die, you either don't die but awake other place in this same dream, or the other version is you wake up for real. So a nightmare is you wake up and think you are for real woken up, but in truth you still are dreaming.

so you suggest that when you die, then you will continue to experience the same reality you died in?

Idea is what at least me need to see is that: Other person has power over me. The following came too: Played it through with the mind too, getting rid of the need to decide myself, and that the decision the power or hope is given or exercised on me. ----- The key is that i don't play it willingly, its i have no other choice than wait till the correct thing comes what actually can affect me. And to get there i reject everything what is not IT. ----- Basically i cultivate something till i get the surge back. A intelligent response where there is anxiety or fear and my heart start race. the role play in forums is just act as a pump. So and today i felt like a lifeless crap, so i put the two things together, and get another injection what release also adrenaline(it was more detailed what i did but for the sake of less details). That now i actually feel alive and felt compelled to compile this post. edit: i think it is adrenaline(whatever it is, but it put me feel alive). And i feel i actually need to take a real life crap now, the urge. I name it holy shyt.

sentient being is the 5 skandhas. You start cooking new food. So you start develop skandhas and the discovery of new things, your perception widens, you get new insights etc. You will also cultivate sameness, knowledge from past food experiences. Then also you can play things through head without doing anything, learning, preparing. skandhas groups these things into order, so you can know what phenomena or experience belongs to what group. So with the object, like food cooking you go through all sorts of challenges, these points, feelings are also your body. You can notice these points and start then cultivate them. So you can know what habit will initiate what and eventually you can initiate it with your own mind. Just thinking about something and vision happens and you can use that to enter body and clear a obstacle, also knowledge rises. ------- same what you said.

darkness sends high five

Fear of getting banned, walking on a very thin rope with my actions. There is an intelligent being who can decide my faith. Took a while but i reached to this sensation. Pls don't end it too soon.

i remember probably wrongly but that first buddharealm being too pure that there is too little crimes, so that means beings can't evolve. i am greedy, so i don't want that other people help me, i want evolve fast. I need the max evil i can take what will move me. Otherwords you doing it wrongly. i use the stronger evil to destroy weaker. Positivity is just very very weak evil. So you buffing it up, cultivating it it will come nasty evil. edit: SRY i forgot to say you can do the same what i do too. You are welcome!!

so if want have a lightbody, your power needs to be around 10 light years.

basically you are right. I just don't have to go somewhere or figure something out what could be shared, because its all nonexistent. You can pick object with your hand and feel it and know that you picked it up, can count that it is one object etc. about 10 years you have new body, but you don't notice it, it is too gradual process. So you can have the human body and you have a self is developed layerly you can have those ideas and think it is real.

igf you start watch something first time then it takes time till the skandhas(layers what make up a being) are in place and you believe it is real. There is also second set of layers, what are mind based, so you can cultivate from first set of layers and the knowledges there doesn't depend on location, as i don't need to have actually there to know and get feelings etc So basically you have the things what you see or experience these are empty for you at first. You will get after seeing second time a 1st set of layers then you can start cultivate that layer and get knowledges what doesn't relay on location from sense organs derived information.

yes i agree, it is gone down hill conversation. No way to tell family oriented persons what it is to have no family, but becase nofamily person is empty then he can use mind to relate and can have a feeling waht is to have a family.

So i know your kind of people too, like hairless mole rats. Like to go half naked when warm weather.

fry in jelousy, its enough for me to live from a very little outer needs with long streches of time.

mhm who wouldn't know my kind of people. I don't claim i am over ordinary, just i can repeat things with my mind.

hey i have urge to meet someone, but that urge disappears quicker than i can make a decision further than my mind.

you will ahve a close person who is going to experimentally teach you that. Just wait and see.