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i know the pattern now. If go into mode then i don't know it enough from the beginning. So i will get suckered.

look down dawei post. That is an attack on me, so i feel an urge to respond with violence. I have good opportunity to craft an insult. So but they see only a what is written by me, and ban will come. So if they now blame me, that i am at fault, then i go nuts and rage mode.

i need to investigate it, it could be the key to how to warm feet what toes are attached to.

yeah. I just had to do it to overcome myself.

hugs

yes right attitude. Right concentration. Right livelyhood.

I think trolling is a right way to go. Never look back, its too bright from cringe. I like that heat, pleasant stuff.

or what love you meant, dear Marblehead?

i assume love is predetermined pattern, if i meet someone it gets activated and i think "oh its the one and only". I know what details are activate that pattern of mine. I'm past it hopefully, too much cringe.

anger is too long process for reproduction. I'm looking for faster way.

basically to the point not knowing exactly what anger is, its like a genome.

there is certain progression towards it in competition and there is even a certain movement, what is based on greed. And anger comes late if someone is trampling you and you just disagree and can't admit loss, and even can cry. So it is individual case and mechanical, it works every time if you follow that pattern.

anger is different every time after progress or evolve. I don't have the teenage tantrum outbursts.

basically that is not going to work, there is happen a change in belly and then if you quick you can even hold your outburst back but the belly change is the defining factor so its a fail anyway.

i haven't had anger issues, unless i fail in something like a game, or lost my life savings in a casino again. jk, its not casino, its other similar thing.

do something routine, then at some point your softness will disappear and the base is anger. So long working hours are bad, but tell it to the boss taht after 1:30 hours i am working on anger. And anger here is just one of the manifestations of that tone.

i should hold my mouth shut, lots of broken hearts here. Never know what they do in rl. Bye.

nah you will go to hell, so start packing. The moment you realize you did wrong. So that moment is sure to come.

yea but, its you can't do it with a sober mind, wouldn't it bother you? rather its your unability to understand that Alan Watts is the least defining factor here.

brain yearns more powerful wisdom and liberation. No alcohol, no porn, no drugs needed, waht could possible replace that must be a good substance.

internet is overflowing from Alan Watts oneliners and thoughts in audio versions too. He uses the style to invigorate the brain, it is like talking with a twist, you don't expect that to come, so many will fall for it as high wisdom. its like a good show. And like Miffy, its not for everyone taste.

its actually simple there isn't anything special to know. Its about faster progress, evolution, and supervisers worry about circling on one and the same processes unknown time. There are also certain type of peeps who are deemed not able to break out of that circle of dumb repeats because of sensual thinking is too strong. philosophy is science to destroy other person. And philosophers wait for worthy opponents who can destroy them too.

who i am? i am asianphile.

there is a type of person who dislike physical contact, other people smells, loud voices. Also i dislike if people have too much skin revealed. This is lot of information.

feeling of desjavo can be scary.´Maybe i should pursue taht feeling?