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I have gotten that feeling when i have lost but can't let go. I thought i saw that pattern here too.

water is not logical thing. Nor fire, nor any other element.

its disadvantage to live in the head if its hardened. No good logic can't arise.

i bet its not about the subject but its that Karl is stubborn.

Thanks guys. I needed that signal or feeling where i am being taught. Its really hard to accept a teaching from another person. Perhaps its a feeling of humiliation i needed. Thanks all of you! Your efforts haven't been in vain.

If to think that dharma is elements. That would makes possible that different combination of elements can form bacteria what survives only by eating poisonous apples. Yes then dharma is true for some and the same dharma is wrong for others and same Dharma can be true or wrong for both.

Are you saying that wrong thinking is cause of suffering. If i think that poisonous apple doesn't hurt me, but it still hurts me, it makes me angry. So changing my perception doesn't help indeed. I need to abandon the apple.

I am not looking for suffering, suffering finds me. Its kind of makes it hard to defeat.

ok i see. But you do it once, twice.. suffering seem not to stop but comes with new waves. In my case i'm in the sea of suffering. Are you not noticed it, the sea of suffering? Also its not unbearable suffering, there is pleasure component in suffering.

Also there is a tendency to give up too easily. Put that into category of restlessness. Can't get fire up by simple means, then either fry on a electrical oven or buy ready food. So never see the suffering. Also yes i'm a troll or something, that's the reason i been left alone so quick. I already know the answer to this, i go much farther, i can stand the rectum area. There is a decision point where either you let out or let your energy into legs for another round, but there everyone already died so you are only survivor of the battle.

tnx, Seeker of Wisdom. Since i posted OP, i have had two more episodes. Currently i'm just looking back. Life really is worth of living, it is beautiful. Too bad its coming to an end at some point tho. Also to add i have been melancholic since birth. Whoever want to diagnose should keep that in mind that there are differences between people. Also we laugh to different jokes, doesn't understand ourselves.

Suffering is because you need to produce, take or give away to get rid of suffering. Anyways there is no happiness in getting killed, kill, or be replaced.

If whatever you are clinging to starts to die, you suffer. It all starts out being interesting, but you get used to it and then it starts loss its value till it dies. You hanging around with a woman you like, but there comes another one with much better qualities, you then start to dislike the first and abandon her and take another. So according to nature not to suffer i need to follow my own desire then i feel always fullfilled. But then other people suffer because of me. I have lots of friends in animal kingdom but they afraid me, otherwise they would have killed and ate me long time ago.

A i said i'm alone because i don't do nothing. Its not me who is wanting to be alone, since i don't do nothing there isn't much people around. If i drink then i would like it that it never ends, lots of interesting people in company. I don't drink because there is suffering afterwards. I could pretend that suffering doesn't come while partying but it does not help it, suffering will come. Its undeniable fact. I have heard it from so many people, but they still continue. Also i continue, i can't stop causing myself to suffer. B If i am not doing anything its matter of a time that my mental state is causing me pain. Its similar to when you have read and studied so much that its like causing you faint if you try more to concentrate on the subject you want to learn and understand. C So i will let little bit of happiness into me by listening music, hanging around in forums, playing games etc. Point A is B and C.

i choose goodness.

Is it the moment, i admit defeat and ingest the soar pill? Its impossible to imagine perfection. I regret using the word non-dual, i hate myself..

Non-duality has no conditions. You don't realize it or attain it because you can't, it would defy the non-duality and it couldn't be called non-duality then anymore. Choosing is a function what arises from discrimination. So its up to you if you believe in free will or not since it arises from conditions. If you have a thought "i want to do this", you are holding some kind of bias already. Because of not seeing what is your bias you are wandering around aimlessly thinking that the things you do is what "you" have chosen.

Reading now past posts, no such feelings arise as before. So there is nothing behind the words, no chi, no other kind of force outside. It was all my own mind clutter what led me to write these things. It should be kind of obvious too. Since we read posts many times and try to figure out what someone told, it itself is a proof that something is made up from using pieces what is already ready. Having power and abilities is at the same level as everything else. So i am thinking about powers. It came out that it was my bias for posting this post. Now i know my motivation, i haven't never thought about it this way yet, hmm now exitement rising, energies moving in lower body i sense i need to take a dump, see you later. Edit, i noticed 30 seconds later that it is more above that center, i didn't go.

Here is a challenge, physical movements versus thoughts. Both are on the same page but the difference in speed of changing qualities is big. Thoughts pile up they transform into substance because there is so much of them and then substance will pile up into forms. Empty mind is not empty. You can meditate on emptiness what is exact mirror of your own reality. At some point thoughts will run out of ideas, i see the subtle and do the thing. So any extra practice i do is turning the dust up to already clear mirror. Read your message, i got pointed to a particular feeling in me. Lesson learnt thank you for that.

From Surangama Sutra:

From The Surangama Sutra:

Taken from a book The Surangama Sutra, commentary. ..

i don't know actually what to say, since i do progress sometimes when i eat coffee or hit my head or meet an attractive person etc. But at the end there is a dead end that one part of the myriad stuff happening. And it feels totally not okay to post here because im offtopic but i was keeping you in my mind while expressing myself i guess it makes it even. Cya.

I reach the bottom faster than you guys and also take a notice of it and i'm connected to this drain. No need to do years of practice and discover that it aren't working or leading to results what you need to undo later, I know that's the trigger for many here. Its hard to swallow it.

Sick Puppies - You're going down