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regular person wishes me a cancer without saying it out, its default mode of noncultivators.

what that means?

idea is to get you frustrated so you get brain stroke soon, due to old age you won't recover and die sooner.

i refuse to connect with you. So you won't get a sensation of that i speak with you. I ignore all statements you make when i need cause my heart fart.

Probably, while consuming you lose intellect and go into instinct and do what you want and don't listen/hear anymore what is on earth. You also stop craving for others. You will be far off from discovering that there is a world.

it doesn't have to be candy, it can be the smell of cooked meat. The cure is different, at least for me the mouth starts water and that same water will take away the desire to eat meat, also meanwhile i went back and worth from being a pro meat and against eating meat, it is difficult. I really can't decide if to eat or not while the strong desire is on. Same way when you die you will be pulled into female womb and that's also peak sensation we can pull our mind back and avoid that birth.

reading about drinking alcohol, got something in my neck and mouth sensation. So i prolly will have soon an unavoidable desire to go out and drink alcohol.

no, when you want to taste sweets you are not allowed to consume that much that your belly would send a disgust feeling and therefore you don't want to eat them anymore. That would be too late for to get a hand on peak sensation. And use your will to find a solution waht is before your belly comes to your aid and liberates you from incessant candy consumnation.

whole point is taht you won't end up in low birth, what doesn't ahve any discernment..

i didn't say you suffer, i explained that you are not suffering because you eat cookie. i don't have to wish it, its by holding senses alerted to spot burglars or other surround noises, and when listening music then it is so low that its forces me to keep hearing active. i now wonder if you able to discern between sound and hearing? and peeps ask what music you listen, well are you listening really? --- its just description, you can play around, like notice certain tones what cause certain peak sensation, its also suffering, because it is like getting hit by a sound note -- physical pain is same way, it has mental component what isn't pain, but at some point the pain is low and time to time peaks- thats suffering, you won't notice it as suffering but it occasinally peaks so you know that there is hidden source.

there is no violence in nirvana, there you can't get a taste of it and more, you will learn it where it is occuring by not violating. And you need female egg. Actually the cultivation is to get females they have egg.

you are not allowed to sit on soft chairs or sofas or have a soft comfy bed, never. Also food you eat the bad parts and not take too much... You will become triggered from very little things and interruptions, your sensitivity will skyrocket. And you will notice that when you break your discipline you lose sensitivity and it will make you feel bad and regret. Ok, then peeps ask what is the point of that practice? Its for to get satisfaction and taste what it feels to sit on a comfy chair. Mind can form a physical taste to satisfy the need for comfort, and that is just one sensation what apply to many things. There are much more other things discovered.

for continuance, i fulfilled my duty, and went to sleep and things happen related to female connection it wasn't an dirty act, it was connection and the feeling in a new way, but i know it was O. Not evolving in that front, not sure how one could get a way from the need of carnal desires while having a body. Taming it, learning new things about body is a good gift to have a body. --- maybe i have appearances in a way i could understand and its not that way but well i described it loosely how my brain understands it.

reason you don't feel burning mental suffering as physical sensation is you don't have fuel. You use up all fuel by turning it into useless substance. For an example you feel desire to buy a cookie, just don't buy it, its that easy to cultivate and you will feel burning anger and pain and frustration at some point. It is gradual process and after years of practice you will start looking for a way to stop suffering and you know its not by mindless self gratification or relaxation on spa.

i have that weird day today, so you won't slap me? causing pain for me would help me out faster from this state, but its too late i discovered myself that i am in it. Oh well, i also know what triggered that state, its not internet but my real life event causing the ground for it. Its time to pay the debts AGAIN.(not money debt but much bigger issue but very easy to do physically)

Kpop is the best. i don't really need anything else in my life. -- i thought i am dumbass to post video, but its the dance animation what can take away desire. Certainly three steps further from retention.

only noobs do semen retention, advanged ones(like me) are beyond it. Get it? there are more to discover but retention is a first step to discover, it starts with the million dollar point(recon the irony and sarcasm potential). --- I haven't verified if it is million dollar point, but there is a point what not let fluids out, but still have a feeling. So i just assume everyone talks about that same point.

Money doesn't have any value if you already have everything you need or want or have anything there is possible to have with money. You will be bored. Anyways good luck with leeching on homeless people feelings. --- Also if you get actually successful someday, your will give out a signal to have a challenge again. And it doesn't have to be money wise, it can be anything else. It like pointless to go into spirituality with you? when you do a transaction with money then that is more valuable than money itself since 5 dollars for some triggers a emotion when losing it than someone else losing same amount.

Something destroy your crop, you have a bad practice of trying to grow food?

it takes like couple days of work on a potato field to have food supply for entire year. One potato multiplies into average 4. but when you want to have money and buy things, then you need government aides fund support. Everyone who has land are getting support from special funds. its because potato yields too much in time it takes away the value of money. So in potatoes the money isn't worth shyt.

money->metal->blood->life sacrifice take a loan, buy a car, drink vodka to make your blood active, then drive some people dead

the order of the things, relaxation-->daydream-->boredom, you also need be able to do it backwards, starting from boredom and without going to bed or fun activity but you feel how a dozing off for a sec releases a substance what takes away pain. practice seclusion, its like subtle weightlifting, it is hard to do it, like weights destroy muscles likewise boredom will destroy your bones and fats and everything else, tills you get into a limit mentally and body will switch off and releases activates other substance what feels satisfactionly. Also you will learn a pathway for a brain doing everyday activities and then seeing someone coming and not appreciate the pathways then it is painful too and the pain will go into sensual organs it is very hard not to come angry and the outburst comes suddenly during unawareness and it will feel satisfying. --------------- So i have seen complaints on zen buddhists are angry and serious...well noobs are the happy observers.

Do you notice circling? Are you familiar with the website Dharmaoverground.org? What circling is is going from one knowledge to another. If to practice everyday or doing a prolonged retreat and reaching to the point that feels like i have had this knowledge before, it seem like circling. And thus its possible to create a map. Emphasis is on circling, it can be that it only seem it is circling, because that's just another knowledge itself that sensation of having had this before. That knowledge is sensation meets sensation. Its like being aware of yourself, but in that case there is no self but the heart discovers its feelings goes round and round and it then stops clinging to that and the substance or essence will be revealed, you then can call it out and manipulate it and put into pulsation or circle movement then you black out, cessation happens or forgetance. gaining experience into those things, going over and over again. Substates, master states, something new all together etc. There is another way on top of it. It is human interactions, like if i call your description of "enlightenment experience" a trash.

blood is food, wanted thing. pus is semen, unwanted thing. mixture of it is a holes and pins put together and we get a structure. what means physical body? means tangible, but there isn't contact happening actually, contact is for to give a image, so also i think the sense organ contact with light photons or whatever doesn't actually happen. So for now i am thinking about waht is the deal about the buddhist descriptions of contact, dependent orgination....in one word these are models and in reality things are actually different.

hidden door, if it has any relevance to it then it give you balls/possibility to say no to earthly government what it forces upon you.