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The funny thing is that a person can have sexual enjoyment and actually benefit themselves. The problem is that people are not very willing to investigate and try things that might be completely customized; there's a harsh dependency on the work of ancestors. The problem with that, in addition to being stagnant, is that we often have way less info on what they did than we think we do. Most people do not know the shamanic roots of Yoga, Taoist alchemy, magick, and the like. Many of these cultures had practices in which the practitioner made love with otherworldly beings, and I say otherworldly quite literally here. I don't use spiritual because that gives the idea of utilizing something that is not as "material" at this world, when in actuality these are just beings that live on different wavelengths than the ones prioritized by people in the general world. But all that is to say is that there are many ways to satisfy certain desires and actually fall in line with things like conserving Jing. It's just that those things can be somewhat uncomfortable; I've had incredibly satisfying encounters with female deities and primordial beings. Moreover, these interactions were EXTREMELY beneficial from an energetic and health point-of-view, and contained sexual sensations that are WAAAYYY too multifaceted to put into normal linguistics. Despite that, I found myself uncomfortable with the idea of not having a girlfriend, even though I don't even want one hahaha. I stopped completely just from a priority stream that I didn't even realize had no meaning to me. I had long-surmised that it wasn't important for me to have a "human" female companion because of this, but I somewhat underestimated to comfort of normal priorities and how they could impact my decisions. But it was so nestled that I not only stopped that deity sex, I went back to watching porn, which is easily more defeating than deity sex (I find that deity sex increases your ability to attract women quite a bit). It helps to add that deity sex has only be ejaculatory in one instance for me, and I've had primordial sex well over 300 times. So it is honestly about priorities. Most of this involves letting go of old priorities, or at least our idea of old priorities. I often find that the "letting go" procedure is not so much a thing of getting rid of desires, but actually expanding the perception of how that desire manifests. I don't think sex is to be shunned, but rather that folks need to allow for sex to manifest in fashions that are far more expansive than just "bustin' a nut". The issue is that most cannot get over that, and it has been my experience that I often cannot understand how some people practice Qigong or other arts and don't feel deep changes that inspire them to explore beyond their comfort zones, or don't produce experiences that allow them to accept that "siddhis" or "superpowers" as anything more than metaphors. However, what I do see is that there is a huge issue with individuals being able to open into new ways of living and prioritizing. Perhaps it's a security issue... who knows. We just gotta be able to do it for ourselves while we are aware of things.

Hey, I'm not saying it's typical, nor am I saying that it has always happened. However, Not only has it happened to me, but it is something that is not as uncommon as you might believe. Now I've been knee-deep into fasting research for about 5 years, which doesn't make me an expert by any means. However, perhaps it might be because of my aim in studying it - living without food at all - that has garnered the experiences I have had and also the stories and experiences I have seen others have. The assumption with fasting is that people lose weight because they are not eating. Hence, skinny people say "I don't need to fast because I am already skinny." The problem is that because fasting is primarily a detoxification activity, and not necessarily a starvation action, your starting weight has very little to do with what your end weight might be. As such, there are many skinny people who gain weight because the reason they were skinny was due to any number of problems in terms of their metabolism, parasites, or ability to absorb nutrients. Now certain fasts have different repercussions than others, and as well different effects. Juice fasting is pretty much safe for most people, and yet at the same time you would be hard-pressed to get as thorough a detox from it as you would a water fast. However, water fasting, due to its intensity, requires quite a bit more preparation than a juice fast does. I personally have been working with urine fasting, and let me start by saying that I am not recommending that anyone decide to do urine fasting. I got very personal reasons for doing it, but I can say that I gained weight with this type of fasting several times, and it was weight that appeared to be very beneficial weight. Urine fasting is possibly the most dynamic type in terms what people gain from it, but again, this is not an advertisement. If people feel that there is an inherent human need for food, I wouldn't recommend it at all to be honest. I also wouldn't recommend it for something like Kundalini, at least for a beginner. The OP did state that they were pretty seasoned at fasting, at least capable of 40-Day dry fasts. However, with something that is as volatile as kundalini is apparently supposed to be (I can't honestly say, I don't work with that system), there are just certain basics should be established that, while fasting can aid with them, might not be addressed here. The OP is obviously having a hard time sitting still while fasting, although it hasn't been expressed whether or not that is an issue without fasting. That issue right there is enough to halt ambitions, and yet there are also issues of what the OP's experience is with chakra work, meditation, what their diet is like on a normal basis... several things go into this. So I would definitely agree that there's gotta be some basis of substantial practice, and if one is fasting as an auxiliary modicum, then that's all it really should be. It can have a great effect on keeping energy channels clean and focused, but I don't think using it to "raise" kundalini would be all that wise.

Fasting is a lot different from starving, so it helps to understand that what fasting does holds very little weight on how skinny you are starting out. I personally have gained weight, muscle, and fat several times while fasting, and I have also seen the same happen with my younger brother. But like innersound said, for most people it will be detoxification. I must say that I would NOT recommend it to most people because they cannot prepare for themselves properly to fast. I wouldn't recommend it if someone is going from a diet of extremely dense foods (most people will flat out say "meat-eating", but even as a raw vegan there are food choices that are extremely dense) with low natural water content to fasting in one go. Let me rephrase, I wouldn't recommend it for most types of fasts, but things like juice fasting can be entered into without much worry. The problem that can rock people is their mental priority, and what they consider to be "necessary" for survival. Most people will also flat-out disagree that you "need" some sort of food, but experience really does show that universal "truths" are often not as truthful as we might believe. I would recommend juice fasting to anyone, although they might still do better to prepare with raw foods for a while. But you also got shit like raw juice feasting, where you treat juices like "meals" and stack the juice with a shitload of stuff. For a beginner, fasting would be more about detox, although that detoxing benefits a practitioner greatly in terms of clearing out blockages that are nestled not only in the "physical", but also "spiritual" bodies. There's a greater degree of mental clarity, and things like concentration and visualization do increase... at least for me. The issue can be length; it's not likely that these benefits will come about in just a few days. So yea, fasting is a pretty personal science, and I would have to rant for hours just to try and jot down everything I have experienced with it. The OP is already a seasoned faster it seems, so we gotta take into account that their needs are different from ours. The only thing I could say is that to eccentric215 is that whatever you are doing, with the fasting, it might benefit you most to focus on that kundalini work as your primary work of the day during that fasting. If might not do you any good if you are continuously busy all the time, and even before that, you might want to take up practices that'll help you be calm in seated postures.

I'd say try some liquid fasts first before trying a dry fast in the beginning of your kundalini work, or perhaps in any work that requires prolonged seating postures. Seated work is a lot more demanding than people like to think, and honestly it builds things for the body that people cannot really understand without doing it. I am currently preparing for a prolonged fast myself, intermittently altering between eating (raw vegan) and juice/urine fasting (urine? say WHAT?!?!). So far, that is working out really well, and I'll be going strictly fasting within the next 2 weeks. SO that's my take on it, and I thought to chime in simply because this is the first post I have seen that highlighted fasting hahaha.

Yea, I have gotten to a point that it really doesn't matter to me. Unless I am having a child, and I am certainly not trying to in anything that could remotely be considered the near future, I really don't see a point to agitate it on my own. I also have an extremely dwindling attraction to the idea of having sex with a woman who does not hold her primordial evolution to the same, or higher, regards as I do. It's a little alien, because cute women have always been something that my attention prioritized. For that to not be the case anymore, and for me to be more and more comfortable with the possibility of not having relations with an "earthly" woman at all (there are several "otherworldly women" that I have been in contact with), is something that, while alien, is becoming eerily comfortable. It's strange because I can't really seem to be interested in anything a "normal" 27-year-old is, but hey...

No problem, and honestly I stopped posting because I simply just forgot hahaha. I mean, at a point, posting things like retention days was redundant, because it stopped being "special" in a sense that it is just a normal thing right now. I'll hit you up with the details, and I am aiming for the tai chi course. Thanks

You can't really find a "universal" truth when the parameters for assessing reality are relative. Even if we were able to find something we could all agree on, it would still only be "the truth according to humans", for our perceptual tools contain bandwidths and frequencies that are all different from other creatures. Therefore, the "truth" is always going to contain some form of relativity, no matter what tools we use to perceive things from. There's really no problem with that, it's only a problem when people place security in "truths" so that they do not have to venture into realizing that we really don't know what the fuck is up. That's scary, and for most people, it invokes massive insecurity. However, if we truthfully could say we knew any truth at all, I feel this would be a very horrible thing, because from what we have garnered from the truths we have now... if this is what reality is all about, we're screwed. But if we managed to get this far being complete novices at existence... things aren't actually so bad. We do not have the skills, on a gen-pop perspective anyway, to discern any truth other than those that we feel are important. Again, nothing wrong with that, it only becomes a problem when folks try to force their relative truth on others as "The Truth".

There was a point in time, not too long ago (as in 6 months ago), where I was literally imbibing on over 5,000 pdf documents one all sorts of matters of self-empowerment. It was easily the most stagnating 4 years of my life, and if I had actually practiced any one of the modicums from any of the pdfs I read (it had to have only been about 50, maybe 100 at absolute most), I would be way farther ahead of the progress I have made now. Now that isn't to say that I only do "one" thing with the Internal Exercises; I am also working in the realms of dreaming, hypnosis/deep-state training, and "cleansing" dietary actions. However, they streamline and are based on personal experimentation, to a point where I have only read about 5 books that I constantly refer to because they are what I practice. But I also have most of my entire day available to do this; I decided it was a bad idea to prioritize a career BEFORE getting to my primordial work. Rather, I decided to set this as the basis of my life, and let money come forth as a RESULT of having realized primordial fruition. So it's really gonna be based on you, and we gotta realize that no one has written the manual yet on how your, mine, or anyone else's lives play out best. We gotta write those as we go along, and as useful as past techniques, ideals, philosophies, and theories might have to do with it, it is very possible that we have to do things that are very special and specific to each one of our individual proclivities. It's not really that hard, but rather that the hard thing is trusting that we can do it regardless of whatever help we do or don't get. I was fortunate to stumble upon things that fit me so far, but I probably passed up several things that were also like that just because I was thinking that I could find something that was already for me without me having to find out how it was for me. Reality is too big for people to actually try and say that they "know" what it is about, especially from the stages of evolution we have seen so far. Even the ancient sages were speaking from a particular perspective, so no matter what the source of information is, it is still privy to variations and changes based on the person. I am of the earnest belief that you can master anything and learn everything through the exploration of what drives you. We just gotta be open to the fruition of these things. More is not always more, and less is not always more. You get more from exploring with true investment, so don't be afraid to syncopate and streamline, because I know I certainly got more when I did this.

Yea, I'll be honest in saying that I am also partial to things that can be done by oneself, and for me I found the Stephen Chang work to be very much in line with that ideal. If I had to find a guide from a Yogic source that I felt could be done solo, then I would say Swami Rama's Exercise Without Movement. But overall, I am a bit partial towards things that are solo practiced, since classes often don't allow for the type of one-on-one interface that I feel is conducive to having a teacher in the first place. I'm gonna have to agree with this, primarily because I was in this rut just trying to start doing something period. I find that a major problem with modern society is that there is TOO MUCH stuff that you can find that you may conceptually believe is helpful to you. There was a point in time where I had [downloaded] every Pavel Tsatsouline book, Charles Atlas, Mantak Chia, Brooks Kubik, Bihar Yoga... I just had every damn thing a person could read on physical fitness and on "spirituality". I had the idea that doing "everything" was gonna help me out, and in trying to do so, I realized something: I was doing nothing. There's a reason why successful people are often seen focusing on a singular discipline, and that's because strength comes from focus. It is nice to see other people doing stuff and being inspirational on youtube, but those folks are doing things that are very personal for them. What they are doing is not so much as important as is the fact that they are actually doing it for themselves. Doing 10 different things is probably not the answer, and I wouldn't actually suggest trying to find the right fit for you with people on youtube. I've been there, and it's not the greatest idea unless you are 100% sure that this is gonna give you EVERYTHING you want to get out of a particular program. But in my opinion, this is a journey that you have to dictate yourself; and you'll find out way more doing what you can do now then searching for what you want to do. There is probably more than enough in kung fu to help you, if you got the right teacher. If your teacher sucks though, you can do anything and it will still be a pretty huge flop. But I would say that the best thing is focus and concentration on what you choose to do, and understanding that you can realize a great deal, if not everything you want from a holistic investment in what you choose to do. I mean, the OP's name is Oneironaut, and through learning deep, conscious dreaming, that laone could heal this problem. So it really is the investment in a work, not so much the work itself.

Well I can't honestly speak for Qigong itself in terms of classes, and if I implied or directly said that I did, my bad. I have been to a number of yoga classes, and I CAN speak for those in a sense that those are missing fundamental qualities of the practice. However, I think that perhaps certain forms of Qigong are harder to separate their original purpose; it might be harder to do Qigong on a purely superficial level. I mean, just in my experience, I was very poor at doing the Stephen Chang exercises, and yet I benefited greatly from them. I cannot say the same for my experience with yoga, so I would not recommend studio yoga unless you knew that person was teaching and practicing yoga from a primordial perspective.

I would say that no matter what you do, it might help to realize that Qigong and Yogic asanas (you are not going to find "Yoga" at a studio or a gym) are not explicitly meant to be purely physical exercises. Granted, they can have a great deal of benefits, but if you are not practicing them with the original integrity that they stood for, then they'll eventually fail you as well. If you are looking for a purely physical regimen, I can think of 1,000 better for you than Qigong or Asana. Charles Atlas' Dynamic Tension program was pretty awesome for me, and it corrected things with my mobility I did not know were being corrected. It's also easy to pick up, so for me that would be a recommendation. Another take on that would be Harry Wong's Dynamic Strength would be another that focuses on movements that have more practical basis in martial arts. There's also Pavel Tsatsouline's Super Joints. Those recommendations are based on purely physical matters, although they all loosely touch on chi as well. Charles has an entire chapter devoted to "Vril", so if you follow the instructions in that book, you would be helping yourself out at least somewhat on the energetic end as well. However, in the end it might be more helpful if your reasons are specifically based body issues. If you are interested in Qigong or Yoga, it would be best to learn from someone who knows the primordial functions of each exercise. Neither is holistically superior than the other; that is something you would have to discover for yourself. I do Internal Exercises from Stephen T. Chang's Complete System of Self-Healing: Internal Exercises, and I got more out of that in 8 minutes than I had in 2 months of various forms of physical Yogic technique. I can't say that it would be like that for everyone, though.

Well, in order to even know what the problem could be, there has to be some knowledge of the type of life you live, your personal practices throughout daily life, and others. Things like your diet, physical constitution, sex life, social and family life... these are all things that CAN (not necessarily will) impact how things are going down with you. So before anyone could offer any sort of decent advice, you'd have to be able to to divulge some info on that matter.

Well, I have found that self-expression is best approached from practice, at least when you are doing this type of work. I feel that humans are somewhat stuck in a linear mode of expression, and in my experience, this has been mostly what's facilitated in forums. There is more than enough self-expression we can facilitate when talking about practice, rather than focusing on ideologies written in times and by people we can barely comprehend. My self-expression is almost over-exaggerated in the realm of theoretical debate, and I found that it often leads nowhere. So I don't really have a problem with self-expression, it's rather that the focus is purely on mentation without practical application based on "inner" self-expression. Those hermits are doing a lot of self-expression, we just wouldn't have a clue how to orient to those guys because they have expanded their framework of what that self-expression is.

Day 7: All of the below exercises are from Stephen Chang's Complete System of Self-Healing: Internal Exercises. General Maintenance: (1:00:00) Deer Exercise: 2x/day - (16:00) Turtle Exercises: 2x/day - (15:00) Crane Exercise: 2x/day - (20:00) Deer/Crane/Turtle combined form: 2x/day - (18:00) Solar Plexus Exercise: 2x/day - (10:00) Abdominal Strengthening: 2x/day -(5:00) Semen Retention: 7 day I realize that I should probably stick to leaving my posts to being strictly based on practice that I am doing, or interested in doing. I'm not really a guy who gives a crap about things creational theories, philosophies, or the "laws of the universe". I have my own take on them, obviously, but there is no reason for me to get into debates based on mental ideology. It's something that I thought would not be so emphasized here, as we do focus on spiritual models that prioritize knowledge through practice as the the primary vehicle of teaching. It's no big thing, I just realize that i have gotten back into the groove of a bad habit that I discarded a while ago. So my fault for instigating any such activity on any thread, because my aim is focused on cultivation practice, not spiritual ideology.

Day 2: All of the below exercises are from Stephen Chang's Complete System of Self-Healing: Internal Exercises. General Maintenance Exercises - 50:00 Lower Back Exercises: (10:00) Lung Exercise: (5:00) Liver Exercise: (10:00) Kidney Exercise: (5:00) Sexual Gland & Lower Body Exercises (5:00) Arm Exercises: (10:00) Deer Exercise: 3x/day - (16:00) Turtle Exercises: 3x/day - (15:00) Crane Exercise: 3x/day - (20:00) Deer/Crane/Turtle combined form: 2x/day - (12:00) Solar Plexus Exercise: 4x/day - (20:00) Abdominal Strengthening: 4x/day -(10:00) Semen Retention: 2 days

Day 1: All of the below exercises are from Stephen Chang's Complete System of Self-Healing: Internal Exercises. Deer Exercise: 3x/day - (16:00) Turtle Exercises: 3x/day - (15:00) Crane Exercise: 3x/day - (20:00) Deer/Crane/Turtle combined form: 3x/day - (18:00) Solar Plexus Exercise: 4x/day - (20:00) Abdominal Strengthening: 4x/day -(10:00) Semen Retention: 1 day I'm back at it; I forgot about the General Maintenance but I'm gonna get to those tomorrow

Not really, because both of those things, in my experience, cannot really stand the test of honesty if it is also turned upon the self. For example, being self-centered (which I honestly think is a completely misused term in the first place, because most so-called self-centered people are actually profusely worried about the opinions of others) is not something that can stand the test of genuine honesty when placed in terms of self-reflection. The ideals that go into being "self-centered" are so marred in self-deceptions that, if you are being truthfully honest with yourself, cannot be continued if you wish to continue being an honest person. The same goes with villiany; the underlying motivations of crime are based on deceptions that people have seeded in themselves. For example, people who are on the street committing robberies, drug deals, and murders-for-hire believe that they do this because the money is fast and "easier" than holding a job. Yet, they will turn right around and talk about it "bein' hard out here for a gangsta'", and they can't live their lives without looking over their shoulders, holding a ridiculous amount of distrust, massive stress, and a much lower life expectancy. Fact is, the street life for these guys is extremely difficult, and gettin' money in these streets is extremely difficult. But there is a deceptive idea that the money is easy and fast, when in actuality it is not easy, many times not fast, and extremely dangerous. They might be able to speak straight with other people, but there are several deceptions that criminals tell themselves everyday. I'll be honest, I haven't met a completely honest person ever. If they don't speak untruths to other people, they reveal the lies they tell themselves all the time. "To be successful, you have to go to school and get a good job"... that's a ridiculous deception that lays on the foundation of modern society as we know it. Many people cannot even allow themselves to tell the truth for it smashing their whole world, going through life believing in things that did not wind up being true in practical reality. Even saying that villains and self-centered people can be honest, when the whole basis of those ways of living are based on self-deception... honesty is about a whole lot more than just telling a person "facts".

I would go with honesty. If you gotta lie to get something, you're probably in the wrong place. Also, if you're honest, you come to realize things like humility, conservativism, and compassion. However, you don't attempt to fake these things, which is just acting that isn't seated in reality but repression. Rather, it helps you place yourself in situations where you are truthfully compassionate, and you get to realize that things like greed and arrogance aren't only based in things that often lead to destruction, but also that these things are based off ideals that often have nothing to do with the individual who possesses them. So I'm agreeing with honesty here.

The thing is, you can't force your ideas on anyone, especially if you do not embody them. I know that the OP is gay, but hell, I'm black, Jewish (for most my life, not now), academically gifted aka nerd, raised vegetarian... I'm a super minority (it's a nickname, I didn't come up with it). As someone who is "different" you gotta accept that the general population does not like that which does not fit their idea of normal. Every last single one of my siblings was picked on heavily as a child. The only difference with me was that I was willing to meet people half way and show that that I was interested in getting to know what they were about. That can be something that feels extremely dangerous, but in my experience, those who are different thrive by being able to empathize with the people who might dislike them. People sorely underestimate just how non-developed the human psyche is, and the fact that despite all our technology, as a species we are still extremely immature. This is not just in the case of bigots, but also "different" people. Bigots are unwilling to change, and yet those who want them to change do so by judging bigots as "evil" and leaving the sole responsibility of that change on the bigots themselves. Look at civil rights, most of it revolved solely around complaining and protest. There were not demonstrated, concentrated efforts amongst oppressed races to actually understand where the hatred of other races came from. There was a general unwillingness to ever look at the idea of this hatred as being something that can actually be a very human response to things that are different. Nope, if you are a racist, you are just bad, period. As such, we have a lot of people who considered themselves "non-racists" simply because they can be politically correct: "I don't call blacks "niggers", latinos "spics", "asian" people "chinks", or homosexuals "fags" or "dykes". Therefore, I am not a bigot." However, since the movement towards integration has been solely based on rules and not on psychological acceptance, then many of these sentiments that were represented by these words still exist. You might not call black people niggers, but you won't let your children go to school with them. I personally went to school where at least 20% of the white student body, which was 45% of the school population at the time, had never gone to school with a black person until they went to high school. This was in 2002, so it's not like this is something in the far out past. All I'm saying is, morals have limits, and they are even more limited if they are not shaped giving mind to everyone you would wish to accept them. If you try to counter bigotry with bigotry for bigots... well them, that's how wars start. It takes a whole lotta work on the part of the oppressed to do the changing, not complaining to people who dislike them. However, this would take the oppressed first looking at themselves and their issues, and seeing if, in fact, they are as together as they think they might be. There are a lot of unhealthy mindsets that homosexuals, racial and religious minorities, and oppressed people of all kinds possess that require personal and group healing within themselves. These problems are so deep that it can be quite idiotic for them to honestly be telling others to treat them with respect. Hell, as a black person, I can say the the current black image in America, while perhaps birthed by racist sentiments, is wholeheartedly encouraged and imbibed upon by the general black populace. As such, there has not been powerful enough movement to fix that, because black folks are too busy being distracted by things that do not allow them to embark on intense self-healing. That honestly cannot be done by anyone but black people themselves, both on an individual level and on a group level. Without that, I do not feel that people should even be talking about morals, simply because we don't even get a good chance to know ourselves well enough to create a moral code that even speaks to our own individual selves. How could we possibly try telling others what to do, when we don't even know who we are? That is what I feel the issue is, and is also why I feel that most spiritual cultivation cultures focus on acts on an individual level. You can't really teach a guy how to wipe their ass if you are still wearing diapers.

Well yea, I woke up and it was like,. "Well oops!" I mean I wanted to feel bad, but it was like, "There ain't shit I can do about that at this stage of development." Granted, it was still a bit salty (Most certainly no pun intended; I don't know what that shit tastes like lol), but I couldn't really get heated about it. It's kinda strange that you mention a lot of these foods, because besides the animal-flesh foods (I been a vegetarian since I was born, and while I don't think that meat is bad for humans, there are just qualities with meat that are far too unappealing for me to even desire to eat it), I've used all these foods. For some reason, herbs and special foods don't seem to be things that are very helpful to me. I'm not just speaking in terms of sexual stimulation, but they've been somewhat useless for me with my health period hahaha. I can say that out of them, I have had a beneficial and sizeably life-changing benefit from the herbal fruit blend triphala; that shit is absolutely amazing for your gut health. That's what also stirred interest in Ho shu wu when you brought it up, because it seems blends do a pretty good deal of work for me on that end. I also will state that I really got into herbs as a raw foodist, and for them it was like, "Do not cook anything, including herbs". That turned out to be a pretty shortsighted and ignorant way of using things, as some of these herbals got no power without heat extraction. What I can say is that I don't really feel that different, in fact it's like it never happened. Perhaps I won't know unless I start my exercises again, but hell, I woke up earlier and went to bed earlier than usual. I didn't fall tired because of it, I actually just threw out a great deal of riffraff activity that normally has me awake until 5-6 am in the morning. So when I did wake up early today, I didn't feel like I wanted to go back to bed. Hahaha, it almost seems like I am lauding what happened, which I am not. Rather, I am pointing out that, at least for me, it hasn't proven to bee the worst thing in the world, and I'm not going to go fishing for catastrophe if it ain't there. Overall, the days were far more productive and, for whatever reason, FAR less stressful and hectic. I mean I can't even really say enough about the latter point; the days even seem longer and capable of having more room for accomplishment. I don't think it is lost though, so I will see what's up.

Well man... I took a nap, it was very... stimulating, and now I am back at 0 hahahaha. I mean, is there any tips on what to do about dreams when trying to retain, because this came outta nowhere. At least I feel ok, but the counter is starting over.

Day 19: Semen Retention: 19 days I will probably start back with the TIE if not tomorrow, then Monday. I will know for sure by the end of the weekend if or when I will be picking them back up.

Day 18: Semen Retention: 18 days As stated earlier, I am refraining from doing the Internal Exercises for the remainder of the week to see how things flow with my current exploration. However, I am going to at least continue to post the retention because it was a vital part of the work and is still vital to how I am living right now.

I would think those seeking enlightenment would be on an internet forum discussing spiritual theories, but hey...

Day 17: Semen Retention: 17 days As stated earlier, I am refraining from doing the Internal Exercises for the remainder of the week to see how things flow with my current exploration. However, I am going to at least continue to post the retention because it was a vital part of the work and is still vital to how I am living right now.