Yasjua

Vibrate the state you want - let go of objects. Here's my story: I moved to Portland, Oregon in 2012 and decided firmly that I would do absolutely nothing in regards to receiving what I need. I kept this state of being up for 10 months and automatically received everything I needed, often in extraordinary ways. You cannot predict what the Universe will give you. Your manifestation will look nothing like billionaire Joe Bob Shmo, or Esther Hicks, or anyone else's manifestation. Your wanting particulars and rejecting universals binds you to cause-effect thinking. The Law of Attraction is not a cause-effect effort. I not only ran out of money, I encouraged my money to run out by spending a large portion of it on a cello (I wanted to learn to play). I did not work, I did not sell anything or scheme for money. I needed a new living arrangement and a woman showed up on my porch, sat down next to me, started talking to me, we became fast friends, and she told me she needed a new roommate in her community household. When I ran out of money I got a phone call from my father asking me if I'd like to go to Iran, as my grandmother had just died. I said yes, and was taken care of through that trip, and met some of the most incredible people I've ever met. I learned about Sufism, deep dreamwork, how Sufis communicate with God in a manner no Westerner I'd ever met was capable of, and energy. At the end of my stay in Iran (it was my first time there, and is my country of hereditary origin), I realized that I had not had a chance to properly say goodbye to everyone I had met. I decided not to get ready to leave, despite my flight leaving in three days. I did nothing, and when questioned, I told people the Universe would take care of everything for me. The day before my flight, Lufthansa, the German airline I was taking out of Iran, went on strike. I was called and notified that I could reschedule my flight for anytime in the next three months. I chose 11 days, as I like the number 11, and left merrily. Friend, in order to manifest you must let go completely. Then you recognize that the manifestation is always happening. Your interference in the process comes from the conditioned belief in cause-effect systems. Effectively, the thinking on this planet is that each individual is stationed behind a steering wheel and is guiding their unique, individual, personal, private life through this complicated terrain of society/earth. Look at our actual experience on this planet, DB... where is the steering wheel? What power do you have over the whole? None. There is no control center in all of the grand earth and beyond. Every point is the center. There is no joystick, no controller, no magic object or thought-structure that will give you any power to influence anything. If you see the whole this will be terribly obvious to you. If you divide the whole into units of time... if you divide the whole into units of desire and utility, you will keep encountering obstacles. Be THAT which has no obstacles in its path and you will be delightfully surprised... over and over and over and over and over again.

I'm looking for informed opinions and advice on dealing with an inguinal hernia. I noticed the lump on my right pubic area about 5 months ago, but it didn't bother me at all, so I didn't do any research or go to the doctor. Fast-forward to a month ago - I caught a cold and started coughing a lot. The pubic area started to hurt, so I looked it up and found out I had a hernia. General physician confirmed the diagnosis. I'm seeing a purportedly excellent surgeon tomorrow for his professional advice, and will probably have to decide between getting a very simple outpatient surgery or doing nothing about it. I suppose my questions are: ^1 - are there any unconventional treatments that I haven't heard about? ^2 - has anyone had inguinal hernia repair before? did you experience any complications? ^3 - are you familiar with the mesh some surgeons use to repair the stomach wall? will my body recognize this as a foreign substance? will this complicate or compromise my body's long-term health?

I'm curious as to how many are currently including entheogen use in their practices, supplementing/balancing with herbs/tinctures, or experimenting with more conventional chemicals. I was supplementing with adaptogens for about four months during a period of spiritual and physical fatigue - Ashwaghanda tincture, Rhodiola Rosea tea, Eleuthero tea, Schizandra capsules, and a daily mug of really strong Yerba Mate. Taking these together kept my energy levels stable while I went through some deep physical exhaustion and spiritual forgetting. I took several Chinese herbs and tinctures between then and now (at the recommendation of practitioners) for different conditions, to no avail. Fast-forward six months... I have a powerful fascination with brain chemistry (particularly neurotransmitters right now) and have been supplementing with CDP-Choline, a precursor to Acetylcholine, Thiamine (Vitamin B-1) for GABA levels, and Passionflower extract for Serotonin levels. The effects, and the chemistry of it are both beautiful. I express myself more easily, cry when tears need to be shed, feel joy when joy is needed, dream more deeply, think more holistically, and easily overcome mundane worries with laughter, creativity, and happiness. No current entheogen use - I suspect I have some serious work to do before those will come into my life again (I've strayed a bit this past year and a half). What, if anything, are you supplementing your life/practice with?

The only thing that dies is fear.

Also, you need to continue monitoring your daily activity, thinking and meditating your way through obstacles, and avoiding unnatural food and harmful stimuli. Contemplate the presence of your own superego in the projected images you create of other people - this observing, judging faculty of the psyche is an illusion, and imposes itself wherever there is consciousness, creating the feeling that we are being watched and judged. Truth is, there is no observer, and there sure as hell aren't a multitude of observers.

I recommend getting your neurotransmitter levels checked and supplementing your diet according to imbalances and deficiencies you may have. You can get this done by a medical professional, or do a self-diagnosis with the Braverman Personality test (http://advancedpsychcare.tripod.com/sitebuildercontent/sitebuilderfiles/braverman.test.pdf). The spiritual insight and perspective I gained through meditation, contemplation, diet, natural medicine, and life experience never fully corrected my personality imbalances. I found out that I had depleted my acetylcholine through psychedelic use, exposure to chemical fertilizers, and aluminum toxicity. Supplementing my AcH with CDP Choline, aiding my GABA levels with Thiamine (B-1) and gently nudging my serotonin levels with a light regimen of Passionflower extract returned my personality to normal (and I have a very eccentric 'normal') - but that normal state, where I am my eccentric self and fully comfortable with it, is a huge relief. It truly is a burden to not feel comfortable with the way you naturally are. There is a particular wisdom to the personality that cannot be replicated through any level of 'attainment.' My path was long, but as I gained more and more balance and more perspective on how everything functions together, I finally figured out how to keep everything on the relative level in relative balance, while continuing to enjoy the delight of the grand scheme of things. Tldr; Get neurotransmitters checked.

I'm new to this forum, and didn't read through all eleven pages, but I'd like to chime in with a few words. From what I've read, there appears to be a deep underlying consensus between all the participants. I'm not sure if the participants see this or not, but there are no differences in opinion here. Reflecting on this anomaly, I recognize that every perspective I've read through here has previously been my own, and now all perspectives are my own, with none opposing another. All perspectives are leaky vessels and argumentation is the system by which we exploit the holes in thought. This does not invalidate thinking. On the contrary, all of your thoughts express a fundamental movement toward truth. None are straying from truth. The terrain of the mountain is infinitely diverse.

Hey, my name's Yasjua. I'm currently drinking some black tea and writing on my blog. I'm wearing a red head band and an orange and brown sweater. I'm really tired. I own a few things. I travel most of the time. Thanks for accepting me into your forum.