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I ask a lot of Questions:). I will see my teachers in 2 months and untill then I want to get rid of it. Sometimes after meditation or after different insights/ experiences my ego sticks to concept of no-self. I dont know how it happends but it is just pure dullnes, no emotiobs, no wanting to do anything, no life in my body. I know that it is another mistification but I dont really know how to get rid of it. And durring these moments my crown chakra is just burning. Like now. Sometimes becoming overemotional brings me back, meditating and trying to bring my energy dawn helps to, but I really hate this state and cimes back on and on. I dont know how I get into it and I don't know how I get out of it. Anybody has simillar experiences, and know any solution?

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Hello I experienced this cutting off my breath durring meditation a couple of times. These nimittas comes but Usually I freak out cause of the lack of breath. I understand it and that there is no posibbility to die, but when it come to experiencig it I react as if being suffocated and I jump out of it. Anybody any advice to overcome it? I don't have a lot of experiences with meditation, but A lot of times I came to this moment, each time is easier, but this thing bothers me

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I discovered today that it is related to my concentration. When I loose it I feel momentary energy moving up and the same moment pain in my head + this clinging to absolute perspective. I noticed it after reading some answers here, I just went to my work and tried to stay in one point like in meditation. Pain in my heAd dissapears momentary, and normal body-mind presence came back. then when I was losing this one-pointness, following thoughts I got this " crow chakra pain". When I keep concentration but withouth force, just relaxed, everything is more stable, even when I talk to someone I have to be in the moment. It is challenging and some strange thing occured. I was talking to one man, totally concentrated on him, and I started to see yellow thing around his head. Aura? Damn meditation

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Okay, thanks guys. I know it is not it is not a real thing, just a kind of clinging, It just happend once and then has started comming back. I was not meditating at all while it happend for the first time. I started to meditate to overcome it, and it helps, maybe the other activity is needed too. I did not have any drugs history, I only drink wine from time to time.

Thank you. This is helpfull. Sometimes I follow the wrong ones, and they just last, but don't grow, other lead me to dream like state, and sometimes I did follow other sensations in my head like pulsation between my eyebrows, like she said it this quote. Today I noticed something new. After about 40 minutes of breath meditation I've started to have strong lights, tried to stabilize them and after a while my body and sense of will become paralyzed. Something like Sleep paralysis. I was aware of everything around but withouth moving or control of my body. There were even fireworks explosions near and it was like nothing. I could not move, and could not have will to move. But it was okay. The good nimittas just explode, I'm just not familliar with it yet, and I stop it cause of fear, but each time I go further. Funy thing - when I did not know what good nimita is I had more of them, now, when I know, they are harder to reach

Do you stop the mantra after lights appear? The more I focus, the more I let go trying to do anything the "bigger" nimitta become, It grows in "stages"

Hey Dawg, From your perspective - is it true that arahants do not have sexual life or are impotents? They say in Buddhism the it is like that after full enlightenment. Ajahn Brahm said so, but some gurus and teachers have wifes so I don't understand this part

Okay, it becomes better and better. My control freakness has to do with it and it brings me back to follow my breath, I guess. Thats the main hindrance. I don't really know how these nimitta intensive should be but first appears after 5 - 10 minutes of meditation. SOmetimes they are so intensive that it is like being taken by it and the strong ones has also blissful feeling. Once, my eyes start to move like while dreaming. But durring it I never loose contact wtih hearing or feeling of breath. I'm always aware of body, even if not paying attention. I can only be so deep that I don't really know if I breath in or out and can't really think or being attached to anything, but I hear and there is body there too. I notticed that I can have "small" nimittas durring the day. It is a kind of pleasure to put mind into this state. I can't think of anything else durring the day, than meditation. It's dangerous It reminds me of moments when I was a child and sometimes before falling asleep I had these nimittas but they were just sound. I could follow it just doing nothing and it increassed by itself, Once I did not cut it of and follow but then it was moment when I was kind of sucked into it and did not "feel" my senses. I thought I was dying and it was even hard to move my attention to go back int my body. Since that moment I was alwasys afraid of these sound phenomena when falling asleep

Breath meditation. Watching my breath. First when there is a lot of thinking I just repeat some mantra and after a while stop the mantra and start observing my breath. After a while there is this light and bliss and at the same moment when it comes the breath gets cut off so I panick and look for my breath and that takes me out of meditation.

I never believed in chakras, I thought it is something symbolic only, but I started to feel it since around 3 months. I want to know what to do with that cause it affects my life, perception and my body too (sicknes, flu, headaches). I have no idea about chakras. I only meditated sometimes, not to much, I was not participating to any tradition so far. Maybe a bit zen, but very little practice. Everything started with being in a relationship with a woman. One day I just oppened to her, and in this day I started to feel a lot of energy and pulsation in my forehead A few days later I woke up with a headache (at the top of my head) and hearing vibrating sound. Also being very sensitive to sounds. Painkillers did not helped. It just started to grow, like a hughe clench at the top of my head. then in a period of 3 weeks I started to experience a short insights where "I am everything" Then this pain went away. but I have started to meditate and this pressure in my forehead has appeared. It stays with me the whole day. Only in the morning it dissapears, right after wake up, but then, after a moment it is back. This vibrating sound I hear too. So once durring the meditation I came to realization that maybe it is something about chakras, so I started to think that this pain in the top of my head was maybe a chakra too, cause this pressure in my forehead seems simmilar to that. I wanted to check it. I started to focus on the top of my head and it came to me again. This pain, and clench. I was meditating for an hour just experiencing thhese two pressures grow, and after that it was just painfull. The next day I woke up with a hughe headpain and blured view. Then flu. Durring the day I had another insight with "no I, empty mind" and after that I felt like heat on the top of my head. What can I do with these chakras? Is there any litereature you can reccomend me, or maybe to visit some specialist? Or just leave it and do my work? In february I go to a zen retreat for 3 weeks, but I don't know if asking any zen master about it is a good idea. They don't have any teaching about chakras I guess.

Okay, I have something to share. After reading all posts here I went to meditate for an hour. I did not know what exactly mean al these things you guys wrote, but I just tried to lower this "energy" into my lower belly and down into first chakra area. And circulate it too. Down in front of the body upward in the back of my body. First nothing happened, but I was just trying softly, I asked, as someone recommended, to my controling mind if there is it something blocking my energy flow and if it is possible to circulate my energy freely without any problems (This asking I made according to Big Mind process by Genpo Roshi) then after a moment it become possible for me to do it through the whole session. I started to feel my first chakra and other different sensations, like heavy "things" in my back, Less pressure in my head, much less, less thinking, warmth and shivers in my whole body. I also kind of can channel this energy more to the right of my head and body or to the left. So this is all true about this energy and chakras. So all I have to do is just lower "it" to the level of first chakra? Something more?

Well, when I was not open, or attached to some things, not present. I don't remember exactly what, but this felling under my belly button was connected with my genitals, cause in these moments I felt like an impotent until I pass it. Really, something like giving out my power

I started talking to that, but only responce I got was more or less pain.

Sitting in front of the wall with eyes open or closed, breathing into my lower belly and repeating mantra (not always) and holding a mudra of concentration. when I breath in I say in my mind "who am I?" when I breath out I say "I don't know" Sometimes I try to start with evoking non-seeking, non-grasping mind Other version of that is just feeling energy going down into my genital area, and then going upward as I breath out. Sometimes I can feel it going down, sometimes both, sometimes only when it goes upward. Recently, at the end of session I get feeling of leaving my body in hands area. SOmetimes I experiment like with this pressures. I did not know what is it so I focus on it.

Kevin_wallbridge Sometimes I feel something uncomfortable under my belly button inside the body. It happend when I hold back with something in relationship, and most of the time I realize that I'm holding back after a few days. Then this strange pressure goes away. Nothing in my throath and under the base of my robs. Buttons to push? Not much, but planning was my weak spot. Now it becomes better. The pressure arises when I feel no frustration. Whan I am lost in frustration then I'm lost in general, with feeling anything too. What I felt after your first line was - first - offended, and after a second - "he is right". What I try to do, since around 2 weeks is being more in my body. But this "being without leaving my buttocks" is really hard to do. I don't know if I ever experienced being there. Most of the times I have feeling of going upward without even trying to move my energy anywhere. My girlfriend is really sensitive to me and she noticed around a month ago that I was "dead". That she could not feel me. This has lasted for 3 weeks, and I really did not know what was it, but I felt like only being consciousness withouth body. And literally I could not feel my body nor any emotions, everything was neutral to me. Then somehow I learned how to go out of there. In one book of zen I found some description close that - they call it "being stuck in absolut". At this point I did not feel any pressure in my head. When I meditate I just sit in front of the wall, with eyes open or closed and breath to my lower belly. Most of the times I can feel every breth in my genitals too. I practice also walking meditation: 10 - 30 kilometers a week. Sorry for my english - I'm not a native

Hey First of all - sorry for my English - that's not my native language. My name is Jakub. My background is in zen. More reading than practicing... There is one question that brings me here. It is about chakras. I never believed in that, but now I experience it and don't know what to do with it. So I say hello and want to ask more specific question in a new topic. bjo!!

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