Kubba

Thank you Jetsun, its wonderful

If you can, Elaborate please . What do you mean by fear? Disagree to share my energy does not come from fear. Or do you mean something else?

I don't want advices that require sharring my energy. Let sharring energy be the domain of mystics who died of immunological or digestive problems (out of empathy for others...)

Just don't worry. Finding a teacher is always good thing to do.

I think that it reffers also to what they call Guru principle, just ussing different terminology. Putting knowledge into others. In Muktananda's "the secret of siddhas" I saw somewhere that reaching real yogihood happends only through grace of Guru or through intensive awakening. So probably real yogi as manifestation of grace emanates his realisation to other peoples bodies, unfolding this way knowledge and transformation in them.

I just needed it

Well, I meant that these kind of practices are for more devoted and advanced practicioners. What works for you not necessary will work for other and can even cause harm in the body if he will follow your advices. So add just some sensitivity and don't put yourself in a position of a victim of insanity - whose normal anyway, what is normal?

I have pain on the left side of my lap - in place where leg connects with pelvis. In the left knee too - only when squating, but thats really uncomfortable

Why do you suggest that to him? Its just telling to him to replace one thing with another. Thats insane

Mother's taste Covered whole world I took a piece of paper Looked at it carefully Through my empty eyes Of no distinction

What have you seen? What are you aware of?

Hug me,By the way, concider spending some time with a real free being in person. They call them teacher or gurus. It can be helpfull

What is the problem in uplifting someone?Someone can go the hard way, and maybe if you did so you encourage this path, or maybe you just talk to talk, I don't know if thats the case, just free thoughts. Since the guru is embodied true Self which is the same as mine or yours, and he transmits it, and transmits the love - through his grace you own love can start to shine, and love, devotion is crucial. So relation with guru is crucial yet withouth any sense of authority or that he/she is higher than you. Offcours at the end you go on your own. It makes the proces more ballanced, it makes it less dramatic and shorter, but sure, you can spend some lifetimes in samadhi to findout on your own, free choice.

How you had this awakening? through guru? or it just happened? If the first, then come back to him, If the second answer, then also find a teacher. Thats how it has to be completed.

Your addiction might be already sympthom of Kundalini since it is mor complex thing. There is danger in it cause Kundalini likes to feed on things that fascinate her, like drugs, so it is important to nourish yoursef with good food, good literature good enviroment, loving atmosphere . So when things will go further you can be drown into even more addiction - I saw it already and does not look pretty. So these things you can easily let go of. No need to go there each addiction, you can let go of knowing that these substances violate your system. Also contact with healthy, non abusive spiritual Master can be healing to you. It can sweep away all obsessions in a split of a moment. All through experience of his true love, and obsessions came out of lack of love basically

You may concider looking for a spiritual teacher to finalise your process.

They give only this fire. The rest is the rest. Seems that awakening highlihts your tendencies even those hidden, it makes them stronger instead of what people would think - dissolves them. It just dissolves your relation to tendencies not tendencies itself. It even dissolves your shame of tendencies. Doesn't mean that we need to copy the guru, or think that we need to chase you g girls, since it is abusive. Some gurus do things that they should not do... But they simply don't care.... And even may not know that they should not do it. There is a phase into not everyone falls into but it is indeed pure insanity. Anyway they just give this fire, as only thing that they can share. The rest we may contemplate and take some assumptions.

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Comparing oneself to others, and thinking that you are better because you think that you know something - thats The definition of selfishnes, thats arogancy in form of spiritual arogancy.

Shadows of branches dance on the sidewalk They dance like thoughts in my mind Moved by the same wind

Hehe , who then if not you

Sure we are, but you know what I mean anyway

belief that one is separated entity.

You don't have heart, so you will be treated badly by life untill you understand what need to be understood.

You may need to see a teacher. Can't do it on your own anyway. Love will start with tears not with tricks of meditation.