blue eyed snake

Missing @Maddie wherever you are, I wish you the best dear

dear @Maddie , dear girl, or rather, dear woman for you're no girl anymore but have blossomed out into a strong woman. whether you go or stay here on the bums, know that I will always keep you in my heart. I really hope you'll find a place where you can live in comfort without the constant heckling and fear you now have to endure, much love from your nonbinary european friend

still somewhat unreliable

today it seems to work well

" All these details appear in various books of the Old Testament. Here’s a sampling ..... https://www.thenotsoinnocentsabroad.com/blog/descriptions-of-gods-body-in-the-bible thanks for posting, interesting read

can I please have my access to current events removed?

uhm... the first weeks were an ordeal, energy kept rising, through all of the channels when memory serves me well. had to do grounding practice every 3 or so hours. Twice a night I woke up due to it, stood beside my bed to do grounding practice and took another nap. after several weeks this began to abate and at last the force of it became smaller. It never really ended though, just as there was an awareness of the small and large circulation, the rising chi of mother earth and the descending light/ fine energy from above. This new one added itself to the chorus, a continuous soft flowing energy up the spine, always. no tingling, heat or other unpleasant sensations. Nowadays that awareness has become more notable, also several channels have become wider, especially the central channel, the zongmai/ chongmai, the one that goes straight through the body. Plus those physical dents on the head became deeper and more pronounced. apart from that ego was gone, cut away with one fell swoop and it took much to get balanced into that. The remnants of me walked around, baffled at the idiotic material abundance, all those packages at the supermarket. But also, just turn a knob and warm water comes out et cetera. Plus the sad isolation of the humans that were being encountered, all wrapped up in their story so tightly some 6 to 8 weeks later ego began to build anew, new story developed with this 'experience' being part of it. Part of 'me' looked at it and thought it mighty funny, see how she makes up a new story while knowing full well there ain't no truth to it. That situation is still there, still reactive ( much less than before though) but also fully aware that it all just a made up thing, a storyline. Lately the thought/feeling "oh, why should i react to that comes more often than the ingrained reaction. And ' something' in 'me' looks at the situations and is grinning, it's just so funny really.

sure that is possible, but I did not want it. I soon learnt to shut out those visions or open them as the situation warranted. But mostly I shut it out, it's quite overwhelming to see all that shit of your fellow humans. Also I had no use for the information, well those may be rationalisations looking back, I just did not want it, like " please take this away from me, unburden me from this new load. But even years after when curiosity got the better of me i could look and sometimes told people: "hm, maybe it's good to go visit a doctor, that little pain that you just told me about might be a symptom of something bad" also the memory of the most beautiful golden 'bubble' around a toddler, he will grow up to be an extraordinary man. Teacher once told that his teacher trained him to hone this ability so as to be better able to help people with their ailments, a hard training that was. I could have chosen that, but I did not.

too much political shit, can read that elsewhere. one must be able to choose when and what to read and lately most of the tab activity, which i prefer to use, is filled up with people talking ( and quarreling) about politics, trump/musk et cetera ad infinitum

clear memory of a suddenly acquired seeing of aura's and illness, black or dark grey patches on the the aura were people had illness/ blockages. I did not want that at all and was glad when it slowly disappeared, also more often people saying to me: how did you know that. probably more but it's long ago and my memory is not as good as it used to be.

i would like to have my access to the Current Events removed too

yes like a toddler managing to walk for the first time and feeling like he has reached the top of everything, look how big I am and can walk all by myself. The most important thing they have to learn is not to kick their friends, those who are still crawling. Last summer I told a friend of mine some things, he responded with: but then you are enlightened... mwah, you know these tiny teeny leds, the sort that's used for tiny christmas decorations? maybe that's me, but only maybe. In that comparison, enlightened is like the lamp of a light-house.

By Alissa Smith Williams