blue eyed snake

now that escalated quickly, mr Hulk has a permanent ban

maybe the anger is like an icecold block in the body, the venting of the anger is the heat.

here's the bridge that flows so gently curving upwards touching mystery

I've known several though and after a near death experience as a teen i do want to go through that gate. Entrance was denied me back in the day when i was young. But when my time has come i will go willingly without fear. please do not revive me in whatever way, the idea is repulsive to me. contrary to my way of living

a bit of history, Dutch but googletranslate or such will help you out. Foekje Dillema, they say I am not a girl https://www.gendergeschiedenis.nl/gendergeschiedenis/dossiers/224-ze-zeggen-dat-ik-geen-meid-ben-de-schorsing-van-foekje-dillema

glad to read this, keep on thinking about this and start a learning curve

interesting, as i read it it points to what is commonly called the solar plexus. Now that area is for sure linked to emotional blockages in the zhong mai, the big channel from crown to perineum ( or vice versa )

take more than a moment, take a day, a week, think this over, try to get what I mean, connect with it on an emotional level. grow up and learn to apologize.

many decades ago my parents taught me to judge people on their individual merites. In children's language: it does not matter what color or religion a kid has, as long as you can play together and have fun. I keep this advice close to my heart, whether that is jews, moslims, immigrants or whatever. you are judging a whole people forgetting you are talking about individuals, to me that's dehumanizing. I remember the lady that babysat my son, that son is probably older then you btw. she had no family apart from her parents, they survived the concentration camps and married, all their family was ruthlessly killed, she was an only child. Try to get what that means, take a moment ( or more) to let that sink in. That is an individual person that you hereby judge to be bad because she is from jewish descent she, and all other individual persons from jewish descent have no relationship whatsoever with what you write and to me your stance is morally indigestible.

Nice to see you here, firstly i owe you an apology 🙏 no idea what happened at the time --- then: it was a very interesting read, concise indeed. As you know I am not much into Jungian psychology, probably because my mum was into it, but this is an insightful text. thank you for posting

what an interesting experience that must have been, never had something like that . but these experiences were not alike, yours was during heightened stress, mine occurred during deep relaxation, i think the neigung people around here would call it sung. Seems to me it's not useful to compare them as if they are sort of the same. good you had relief after the first months of chigung there has never been any engineering or re-engineering. 't looks like the years of chigung practice have started a process that slowly unfolds, layer after layer changes. I have not done any formal practice for many years, but still things unfold and the sense of ' me-ness' change. it's interesting to observe that. In fact I never intended to follow any path and i do not adhere to any particular philosophy. Making up my own vocabulary for ' experiences' . Reading here, there are posts that seem to describe recognizable 'states of being' and then I use those words to be able to communicate. There are no people to talk about these things in my daily life s it's nice to be on this forum. But it's all just words, the experiences realy cannot be caught in words, or so it seems to me. no offense meant and no offence taken. wil try to explain my position too i've spent decades of my life with doing psychotherapy every once in a while, trying to unravel the things that happened in my life, how they've affected me, how to live with that,how to become more mentally healthy. It did not however, touch on the trauma i carried deep within. In other words, it did not touch on the biggest blockage, chigung, or my teacher, or the combination did that. It felt as if a cork was pulled from my innards. After that i was sucked into what some call the spiritual path, i do not do that, i did not want it. It just happens. in the same way i started to disidentify with the body as the 'me-ness' after a near death experience as a teen, Disidentification with the ego/ the stories started to unfold. Not as a belief, an act of will, or by following a set of instruction or a particular practice, it just happened. over the last years i find that the sense of 'me-ness' more often resides in the bubble around me. not able to explain that and not interested in doing that either, just observing.

interesting thread Never had a spiritual practice apart from some years of intensive chigung with a teacher that did not tell me anything but: you just practice, you're doing well. then later reading up on things and recognized in hindsight what terms could be stuck to some things that happened. Although @stirling tends to rub me the wrong way he is absolutely right regarding nonduality But @Bindi is also right when she says it could be a form of thinking/ a new story to believe in. I've known people like that. for me nonduality is a once felt reality that nobody ever told me about, at least not in those terms just the vague talk of newagey people in my younger years. Remembering a thread here on nonduality and thinking, hey, they're talking about what happened to me So after the lightning insight I went back to storytelling, but now being aware of it being just that, the building of a new story because the ego needs that story... (in fact, ego ( as I see it) is that story.) through the years/decades the story changes After entering a sort of next stage in my life it becomes more usual to see through the stories of others (at last...) so when someone triggers 'me' /my story it becomes clear that person reacts from his or her story, has nothing to do with 'me' so i can let go and try to react in such a way that he or she does not get triggered and stuck more in his or her story. We're here to help each other after all. --- then about karma, it's not something i should talk about because I am much too unlearned in that department. Lately the thought arises that the reason we get reborn time after time is because deeply stuck emotions travel with with us life after life. There have been several memories of former lives and played back it can be seen they all were about intense emotions, deep fear, feeling of guilt, aggressive lust and anger.