blue eyed snake

wow, that's a big one and indeed, living stones, I thought they fitted nicely in this thread

pregabalin is wellknown for its nasty side effects. I would go back to this doc and see what he offers, or go to another one for a second opinion. Or, ( being a chronic patient myself, but something totally different) see whether there are patients-groups with your kind of troubles and see what they can tell you. could you treat it topically? or is the pain located too deep inside for that? I hope you'll find something to reduce the pain.

Mud's everywhere, but it's an interesting association between the child within and The Red Child (Chizi 赤子) thanks for that

looks like some projection is going on here.

yes, that site is not bad. Potassium is something to be careful with but it is not as dangerous as many seem to think, you need to listen well to wat your body says, that's all. Checking serum potassium would be a good idea but possibly her doctor will not do that.

yes, i needed bit of time to let that part sink in. the muscle problem may be caused by potassium problems. It's known that the potassium uptake ( to put it simply) is disturbed in patients like her. Meaning that even when bloodlevels are okay the muscles will still have a shortage. so she could try to take that and see whether it helps. When it helps you will pretty much acutely find some improvement, then it it's finding out how much is needed to get those muscles out of their hardened state. NOW brand sells potassium gluconate, it's not expensive, you mix it with large amount of water and take a tiny bit of it. the large amount of water will prevent it 'burning' your stomach and makes it easy to take in small amount. try and see how the body reacts, i do not need it anymore but has done me a world of good some years ago. regarding mastcell stabilizers, they do work but in general take quite a lot of time before you become aware of improvement. formal meds like hayfever pills have an instant effect ( when you tolerate them that is)

thank you Steve

I would like access to the Current Events please.

I take it all in the sun, the wind and the rain without it no gain

Thanks for that vid of Thich Nath Hanh I've started taking care of the little one long before energy work started, she just made herself known I think. Touch me, heal me said her small voice. 't was a deep and healing experience Reading your post makes me think of what my teacher once told me. In my own words as I understood it: when a child is born the central channel/ great thoroughfare is open. Growing up that channel slowly closes due to the pains of hurt and misunderstanding kids encounter. In general when kids are about 9 or 10 years old it closes. By doing practice (hereby he meant the chigung as he taught it) that channel will open and you will find the accumulated 'mud' from your childhood ( and everything that layered on top of that) she's just the kid version of me, at the stage during which the ego formed.

uhm first a disclaimer, remember i am not a doctor, just a patient with a bit of knowledge, also the amount of info I have on your friend is very small. reading your story I definitely warn her away from any formal training, whether Lomax or something else. The isometric exercises ( it's not yoga btw) can be done lying down and are created especially for patients like her. Let her try that, the lying down version, maybe after some months she can try the sitting up version. Many people are unaware that even though they do hardly a thing they still are overtaxing the body. It's good to hear that the external energy treatment was so helpful, that gives a spark of hope. I wonder how she fell ill, was it post viral or a gradual getting worse over the years? the weight loss is severe and she will have nutritional deficiencies, all the more reason to look into B12. Any neurological complaints? like tingling, problems positioning herself in space, weakness of legs ( buckling)? The cramping thing is bad, first thing that comes to mind is magnesium but chance she cannot handle it as a supplement is large, look into magnesiumrich footbaths. ( and take care to rinse feet and pat dry afterwards) intolerance of supplements is wellknown and hard to deal with, the way to go is starting with minidosing of the most important stuff, as an example, I use medication ( "hayfeverpills") when I started I could handle only about a tenth of a daily dose every other day, took me 2 years to build up to were I am now. Take care to buy things that are preferably pure powder with no additives as some people react to the binders and fillers. MCAS treatment is three pronged 1) try to avoid all triggers, that is not just food but can be a lot of things, the following are mentioned by a lot of patients: scents ( not just chemical scents, flowers can make ill too) every artificial addition to food. Rubbing of the skin, temperature changes ( these 2 can make taking a shower or bath a hellish experience, do not rub dry but pat or just wrap in a towel or coat. For some people light is a trigger. exercise, pain, psychological stress, long list really ah well, here's a list https://tmsforacure.org/symptoms/symptoms-and-triggers-of-mast-cell-activation/ 2) take supplements/medication that calm down the activity of the mastcells/ stabilizes. there's quite a lot of choice, I would start with PEA, that can be had as a pure powder and as it is made by the body the chance it will go well is relatively large. start with minidosing. L theanin can be very helpful too, it helps lower the high tension in the body and stabilizes the mastcells. Vitamin C is a goody. then you have quercetin and luteolin. Luteolin is very good but pricey. before starting quercetin find out whether she also has salicylate intolerance, that's quite rare but one can not be careful enough. in the department of medication there's ketofifen and cromolyn but these need prescriptions. these are both stabilizers. Cromolyn is not for people with salicylate intolerance. there's more btw 3) take medications to reduce symptoms - there is a whole lot of choice there but as she's so sensitive it'll start small. loratadin and cetirizin can be had OTC. It's worthwhile to give it a try but starting with tiny crumbs, loratadin is preferable as it crosses blood brain barrier somewhat. uhm... the shit produced by mastcells makes you sick n several ways, one of them is by effecting the neurotransmittersystem. among other things it makes you feel wired. The stabilizing agents work directly on the mastcells, reducing the amunt of shit, that takes months to get some effect. The antihistaminica works by working on neurotransmittersytem. ( this is very much simplified) whatever she chooses, start with one thing and monitor whether there's change, then build up very slow. Take weeks for every step. so starting with those exercises and when she's used to that she can carefully introduce PEA.(Palmitoylethanolamid) these are good sources https://www.mastattack.org/ and a book https://www.amazon.nl/Never-Bet-Against-Occam-Activation/dp/0997319615 the book is written by one of the few doctors/researchers that really get it, without that book I would not be sitting and typing here. Every chapter rang several loud bells. I totally get that she does not want to see doctors btw oh, when she has issues with sinuses nasalcrom is a goody, pricey but very worthwhile, look for a brand without conserving agents. and look for an MCAS group were she lives, a good group is worth so much. about the hypermobility, over the last years it has become clear that there is a large subgroup of ME patients that have lax connective tissue. That can result in CCI but long before that it gives problems. MCAS and lax connective tissue are often seen together. One of the things with lax connective tissue is that it can lead to high muscle tension as the body tries to keep itself together. That means that people with lax connective tissue can be very stiff and not hypermobile. But looking back in the younger years unusual flexibility can be remembered and often seen in pictures of childhood. when you want to help her start finding good resources, there's a lot of info to be found nowadays. It's good to know she has a friend like you who cares and tries to find out things, who helps. Seeing she has a friend makes me happy.

Reading she has the severe form of ME i would not advise that. Do not know about Lomax but do know quite a lot about ME. The slightest exertion will lead to possibly irreversibly worsening her condition. Sounds like digesting food is taking too much energy already. I remember countering that with eating 3 or 4 bites every hour. This is specifically designed for patients like her, there's some research done on it, when you wanna read it just give it a google search. Also look into who has designed these exercises. further up to 60 % of patients have a condition called mastcell activaton syndrome (MCAS) , someone should study that for her. When she's in that 60% there are treatments to be had, both supplements and medication. Reading she has many food-intolerances it seems probable to me. Treating MCAS made all the difference for me. Does she have hypermobile joints? Also need to look into B12 deficiency, many patients with ME have that and it should be treated with i.m. injections plus cofactors. oral supplements do not cut it. Sending love to her as it is a horrible illness which in general is totally misunderstood.

When you read that as a sweeping negative statement, feel free to skip, was just mentioning how the local self can get attached to such experiences.

hm.. you are now putting something on the forums that I shared in private, can you please remove that post. to answer your question, I did not refer to that experience.

sweet being caring for your mom, not knowing what ails her I wonder whether doctor's can't, or won't? and depending of the cause of that pain, the breathing technique you taught her may not be the cause of the worsening, it may simply be her worsening condition.

in this I agree, looking back at states of bliss it seems to me that it was produced by the higher and/or finer energetics burning through the body. The manic part being produced the local self, reveling in it and wanting more. Contentment is indeed the more balanced state, but I suspect that that sort of contentment is quite blissful

Naturaly arising, that's a good term although spontaneous is not bad either. Seems to me it's produced by the 'chi of the earth' for want of better words.

although I do not follow Damo Mitchells training, I found this a good investment https://www.amazon.nl/Daoist-Nei-Gong-Women-Lotus/dp/1848192975

I do not know @C T and somewhat reluctant to talk, i begin to understand why my teacher told us not to share experiences. On the other hand, maybe it's time to stand on my own feet in that regard. For years this thread, your posts have been important for me. As I am largely uneducated concerning the things we talk about here, your posts were nice, readable little chunks of information from a reliable source. Sometimes cause to read a bit more a a subject. Sometimes so much buddhist terms that I skipped over. It's been very helpful for me. it's not a state but an ongoing process. Non-localised, pervasive awareness sounds good but the center is still the physical body so non localized does not apply I think. ( English is hard for me). When you conceptualize something as a state you paralyze it, you take a slice out of reality, analyze it and think you've found truth. That's what science does, and for science it's good, as it should be. But it's not good when you forget that you've paralyzed your object to study it. Suppose it's one of the reasons talking about it was not encouraged. Another is that it changes, in 5 years my insight in what is happening now will be closer then it's now. Were I am now it's just a guessing game, but as long as I do not paralyze it into a frozen concept of what this means, guessing is alright. So regard this as just my two cents. It's like a stream, you enter and the water will take you. Then the stream changes, it empties in a bigger stream, the change that is happening to me now may not be because of something I did but because of the stream changing... you get what I mean? Looking back I see there were other things, sort of never before recognized 'milestones'. Then when I did start some formal practice it was with a teacher who steered me deliberately away from reading and talking, This process has gone on for decades really. I suspect it's a sort of ripening, you cannot hasten the ripening of fruit but left alone it will ripen and then fall off the tree. When you make it a state instead of a process, you pick the apple before it's ripe. the murmur is not something audible, it feels like... err, many years ago when doing practice I became aware of a bubble around me. That awareness came and went, at first only during practice in the dojo but later it spread into my regular life. That bubble was small, but decidedly bigger then the physical body, lets say I could stretch out my arms and just stay in it so to say. 't reminded me of my preschooler son who told me about bubbles he saw around people. Also remember having ideas about it that now look incorrect to me (or maybe correct for the phase I was in). then it left, everything left me because I was so very ill for so many years. Now the awareness of the bubble is back but enormously bigger, dunno how big but at a guess up to 10 meters, that just happened. But, maybe it's always been there, only the awareness was not sufficient to feel it. Like I hear some people are not very much aware of their physical body in daily life, of course that body is there but somehow they have not the ability to really feel it. Other guess is that the energy system inside of the body has cleaned up enough, that the zong mai / central channel has opened enough to make things like this happen, but somehow I doubt that. As I said, a guessing game. and the awareness of that bubble is a continuous reminder (a hum in the background) of what your beautiful quote said, that energy and consciousness are, in their finest forms, the same. at the moment it feels to me like everything, from the material world to living beings to the finest energies, it's all expression of the same vast consciousness, not only err... ensouled ( or something) by it as i thought before, but really expression. on the other hand, reading about the amount of doing and energy that people put into it, the vast reservoir of knowledge in several cultures. It feels so strange that this happens to unwilling, uneducated BES who hardly did any practice. cannot wrap my head around it and feels sort of arrogant to write about it in this way. ah well, looks like I'm transforming to a luminous blob after all

thanks for posting these CT, it's very helpful lately the experience of err...things... is shifting again 't feels as if... ( finding words is so hard), there's no need to make words and concepts of it but the ever busy monkeymind does that nonetheless. like: in my thinking mind the large awareness, the Self was formerly exclusively energetic in nature. This has shifted to 'awareness is everything and everywhere'. Some manifestations are physical ( coarse) and others are (very) fine in nature. But all expressions of the same awareness/consciousness. hmm, see .... making words of it does not convey what is meant. but this part of your post seems to convey what is now felt as lived experience. Not that I am anywhere as close to that very refined energy, hardly, still the reactive monkey mind. But the awareness that when you go that deep in the end both the physical and the very fine are expressions of the same awareness/consciousness is taking root here, as a soft, almost continuous murmur in the background. ( and still have not conveyed how it feels/ how its experienced. The concept is so clear to me now, but words fail me)

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