blue eyed snake

goelag

very simple, in our society smart women who are top engineers will not get the place she would have if she had been a big hairy male.... i recognize so clearly what TM writes. I'm pretty smart myself, wanted to pursue a job as researcher, and had the qualities for it. But, the care of a handicapped son was not to be combined with the 60 hour workweek that was expected of me. so that was out... nurturing. O yes, I could have let him go to an institution... any reason why a researcher cannot do excellent research working 25/ 30 hour a week?? Where I live women are expected to have a job, being economically self supporting, care for their children and care for their elderly parents. Women who (can) choose to not have a job because they have a working husband, those woman are looked down at, because they " don't work" so much for 'being nurturing' as a value in this society.

oh my...levels again, where have i seen that before... and...as i do have problems to pay for my daily groceries, I think I'll stick to my own cheap brand of doing the hard work myself. no levels needed, no theories, or lists or whatever. just train daily and diligently, even when I was rich though, I would prefer that

yep, males are an aggressive sort...

yes, reminds me of an then eightyearold niece who was crying to her hearts content when her grandmum died. someone tried to console her with words like: "grandma doesn't have any pain anymore, it really better this way" Then she sort of yelled: of course I know that, but I'm sad, I'll never see grandmum again and that hurts!!!! and she cried further, the healthy response of a kid when i wrote I saw: crying to her hearts content... maybe thats sort of what CT means

thanks for the booklink, it does inspire me

I do not remember the before, but during and after it opened saliva-production indeed went way up and was sweet. Now when i get it to flow sweet saliva starts flowing. I think that started when it opened but I'm not sure about that. Btw, i never did any MCO-work, whatever that is. The body was ready so it opened, at least, thats how I see it. As I said, even though I'm sure Sifu knows the theories, he does not talk about the. just train, daily, and with a good intent

sorry to disappoint you. I've never craved something extraordinary, I started chigung just because I'm ill and wanted my health back. then strange (extraordinary) things just started to happen, totally unexpected. But I did not like that. At that time I'd rather be a normal women without all these thingies. Now I've accepted it for what it is. Nothing more. maybe it's time to move on and agree to disagree

's that true? wow, then there's still hope for me and the original poster asked just about waht people experience whem the MCO opens, now the discussion is derailing into a discussion about whether an opened MCO leads to immortality (or a prolonged life) just saying

yes, the veil can be very thin, and you're open for it. Boom May I share a memory? after my brother died, my mum could not let go. He always drove an old yellow deuxchevaux, with that strange noise those cars make. So, she and I could hear his car driving up to the house. I heard it and looked at her and vice versa. But my dad didn't hear a thing. noises in the house too, we lived in an old creaky house. A house were you can hear who is upstairs or walking the stairs. Mom and I heard it, dad did not. It took a real long time for her to let him go, and for him to let go. He died of suicide, makes it harder. Bereavement, takes a year my love. And the most heard thing of people who lost their partners is that the first year they get help from family and friends. After that , well a year is a long time isn't it.... But then you have to recreate your life without him. The highlights of the year again. Whether that be Christmas or private things like looking at the first flower from some plant. Little intimate things. sorry, I should not let you look so far forwards maybe, take it a day, an hour at the time. that boom, I do not know Joe, but from what you've written about him, sounds just like him. A memory to carry with you I think

i did not regard it as a judgment, just felt like telling how it felt for me.

hallucinations... I remember when my dad left us, a sudden and by most of my sibs totally unexpected death. I came back from my vacation and sat with him, I clearly heard him talking to me, he had an important message for me. I've never regarded that as an hallucination, he just needed to tell me something after his body was no longer functioning. same with my brother. I don't know what happens after death, but I do know that people contact us, when there's need and when we can hear. Me thinks, as with all those things, go along with it but don't get ' sucked in' by it. love again, cry when you need and look for diversion when you need that.

fire

oh well, I'll share when I started qigung my sole interest was to improve my physical condition, I was ( and am) ill, quite ill. Sifu warned me beforehand, when you start to do this training you will walk the spiritual path, whether you want it or not. I did not think much of any spiritual path, newagey floating away flowerchildren, let them be. So I shrugged it of and started training, an hour daily, once a week in the dojo. Sifu is the sort of guy who does not tell you anything, just train and anything will happen all of it self, the answers on questions will arise when you're ready. So, after half a year I began to get what he meant by the spiritual path....it was hard, but I was firmly decided to follow this, both for health and for that spiritual part ( gosh, how I dislike that word ' spiritual' ) after half a year Sifu suggested to me that next time i train I could try to keep the tongue to the palate, just search a little he told me, there is one special spot... so I did, the effect was that in the small heavenly circulation something like a wild river started flowing. The effect of an empty stream all of a sudden filled with a lot of water, I was shocked, like wow what's happening... for the record, i had never heard about the MCO before, did not know that such things could happen, still took the whole energetic thing with a bit of salt, still a bit the ' unbeliever'. The strong feeling kept up for about two hours, then it abated. since then there is a sort of awareness that it is flowing, when training that feeling becomes stronger. I've changed some since that time... love BES

organic!

ah, beauty!

it's autumn ( here) some leaves seem to be falling

welcome Dawn, much wisdom can be found on the forum, and much BS too. tread carefully, just as you do in the real world. I look forward to your contributions

Rubens

would that I could help, I can't, have not been in your situation. But know that I hear you. but this, yes, i think that is so. but maybe prolonging it is not so bad. If you let come all in one big gob, it might be too overwhelming, even for a radiant angel if you want them hugs BES

hah, but the Blue Heron felt blessed, a free lunch! These birds are regulars here, and they tend to think that ponds are free restaurants. I made a very thin line ( the sort used for kites) on the borders of my pond, low, something like an inch. When a Heron lands there, seeing those nice tasty goldfish he feels the thread with his feet and doesn't like the restaurant anymore. Also a place for the fish to hide under when those hungry visitors give it a try. But since I installed that thread no Heron has eaten my fish, they do not seem to visit anymore. the population has grown from the 4 that were left after the Heron had snacked to his hearts content, to about nine or ten fishes, nice! but they are beautiful birds.

strange mythical beasts

imho

lovingly

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