blue eyed snake

loneliness and alone. alone is easy, that is being without other people. But many people who are alone do not feel lonely. And many people living together with other people feel bitterly lonely. Loneliness is coming, indeed spotless, from being unfulfilled. But where you can think of digressions as being an aid to fulfillment. I think that's not the point. When you need to do things to be not lonely you're covering up your feelings of loneliness. to me, it is something like not being able to be content with your own being, with not loving your innermost self with all it's bad and good habits. So being unfulfilled with love for your own being, feeling unworthy or things like that. Now why do people then feel the hollowness abating when they meet a good friend ( or a lover )? Maybe, because that good friend is able to so thoroughly enjoy your personality that you start to ' believe' that yourself. That you are indeed a lovable good being with a lot of bad habits. but ultimately I suppose that this feeling of being oke must be firmly rooted in the ego, then you will not feel lonely anymore. ah..just my ramblings. and about being unlonely being the defaultstate. I read in the paper that 30% of the elderly report feeling lonely.....

that's good, now put in in perspective some people call it karma, you seem to get quite a lot back and you're being pretty reactive too your frequency is spilling all over the forum, and not in a good and healthy way as is the case with some people here who really are developed further. Those people would not think of saying ( or thinking) that they are beyond karma. This was not a snide remark, it was an earned attack on your behavior. I've read many of your posts and had as many openings. But my interest in snide-remarks is much smaller then you think. I do not take you serious, but the way you are disrupting the forum I do take serious. the best of luck with it, I've some characteristics that need pruning, but cowardice is not among them. I'm no kiddo, but a grown woman. Talking down to someone can give you the feeling of being larger. Which is exactly your problem right now. Talking down again and you're mirroring nicely, it seems to play a role for you.though. Giving advice to everybody as if you're the teacher here. Saying you're beyond karma, lecturing people about how they should diminish their ego...sigh. First take a look at your own ego whats that to do with it? playing the victim again? shrug time to hit the ignore button again edit : typos

Kar3n is a good mod, and it's an unthankful job too. I commented some days ago on her being able to keep her calm, I do admire that. I very much hope she stays You put it better then I can. Picture in my mind rising was that of a small boy throwing sand in the sandbox. Then, when the other kids do not put up with that behavior running to the teacher, whining " they're teasing me" A good teacher does not give leeway for such a child. Who started the nasty behavior, oh, it was you ( again) . In life you get what you're giving, that's a rule that can easily be learned in the sandbox. yes, that is sort of what happens, first I'll ask politely for some civil behavior, then I start to poke fun and after that i use the ignore button. The latter being better for my mood and also for the others. Without that my tendency to bite would become all to visible and if someone from the staff deems this an inappropiate picture, I'll happily be suspended for a few days. to remind zenmode about throwing sand at me I did and do not take you serious, but what you give, you get back.

Never knew all those tings about prostrations. I've done it for about half a year, every morning ten prostrations ( ah, what i read here that's puny, but was all my body was up to at the time) It happened sort of spontaneously, it included itself in my morning practice. It felt like an between heaven and earth thingy to me. The upward stretch, heaven, then the belly down stretch, earth. Definitely n energetic thingy to it imho.

about a month ago I wrote a post, then thought better of it and clicked away the page. now reading that thread again, my post was still there, so I decided it was meant to be posted

What more could you want, then a body breathing in the endless now.

finding the pit, you might plant a tree

black

waiting

nice I'd like to add that in women the MCO can spontaneously run ' backwards' which is all-right for them. But agree totally that to try to let whatever qi-flow run in a reversed direction is a bad idea.

Be prepared to appreciate what you meet. -Dune-

To die, perchance to... live again, and breathe the wonders of this world

that's good DSM4 labels psychosis only when people see/hear things that are not there for other people when those visions inspire fear/anxiety. When the visions/hearings are culturally normative it is also not labeled as psychosis. I dunno what the DSM5 says about it, have not read it yet. agree I'm not much of a reader, but i'd suggest to look within

even here dear cat, there are people who would think you've issues... ssssshhhh

thanks, I must admit I always sort of choke on all the terminology. But this post touched me. Maybe I'm wrong, but reminds me of the kundalini-energy rising up. also having several ( and I think 3) barriers when going up the spine.

here it seems to be the year of the sparrows. I've a row of willows in my view, one of those willows was literally alive with sparrows. never seen that before.

worthy of repeating!

you're doing a good job as welcome master. practice: before I fell ill i meditated daily between 20 minutes /hour. chigung daily, around an hour and most days a little taichi, about half an hour. since illness I cannot do physical practice anymore, so I only do a little meditation

you serious about that ?? I've always known that, but then, had I been a child now, I might have been dubbed as a 'gender-idunnowhat' we just have to work out that duality in a body that has female or male status.

scuse me, did add it to original post now

the fruits of my practice, nice question much better state of mind, anger and anxiety have lessened enormously. Forgiveness and compassion are opening. Mentally getting into balance. Much better at seeing things in their perspective. I've had some siddhi's. Better body-posture, I've grown about an inch (that I had lost already due to shrinking). Frozen shoulder is unfrozen, but not yet as flexible as i'd like it to be. Pain in back is more or less gone. no long list of practice here, just a little meditation and chigung

That I like, you can cultivate Qi, and you can properly cultivate qi. The latter having a sound intent ( morality) as a prerequisite

It has a strange and touching beauty

nice music, hadn't heard them before suits the talkative ego of this evening

yeah, my ego is talkative today, I don't mind that. Let her talk