blue eyed snake

“Rabbit's clever," said Pooh thoughtfully. "Yes," said Piglet, "Rabbit's clever." "And he has Brain." "Yes," said Piglet, "Rabbit has Brain." There was a long silence. "I suppose," said Pooh, "that that's why he never understands anything.” ― Benjamin Hoff, The Tao of Pooh

until fortune smiles, i will just go through the pain, the seven years will end.

there are about fifty swans in the meadow that i overlook from my livingroom, farmer is probably not happy with it, but soo nice to look at. Picture is not mine but gives an idea

Nice link, thanks!

reminds me of my teacher who once told me: you only have to stay in observation, slowly it comes to me that this was far broader than the question i asked of him then. And all those things that we won't tell an ordinary psychologist about, just observe them, as you observe the other things in your life. Not saying I do that...far from it but I can see now that that is the direction that calls me

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couldn't resist posting this, but all the same these are troubled times.

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well, I find I agree with Brian, it's even worse imo. we don't teach our kids the basics they need to be able to learn, the simple reading, writing and arithmetics. In Holland ten percent of the 12 year-olds don't conform to the minimally expected level, this is about being able to read the captions on television. these children end up as functional an-alphabetics. The top of the children, those that make it to university. 10 years ago I had the ' pleasure' to have to read essays written by firstyears child-psychology. The majority can't spell, they can't formulate clearly even though they're smart enough. some of them catch up... arithmetic, for about 20 to 25 years a method is in use that makes it hard for all children to grasp what is asked of them.... when they're twelve they still have difficulties with simple fractions. Last year i was clearing out books and found my old books math and physics. I asked my son whether he would want them. he gives extra lessons to both dumb and extra smart youngsters to pay for his study. He wanted them and concluded that on average the gap between now and then is about one or two years. He also commented on the amount of problems given for each topic which was decidedly larger than in modern books. He was looking at my math-book sixt grade ( so for 17 years-old) and told me that it included a lot of stuff that he was taught as firstyear student physics. you pushed my button....so much for modern education...

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yin & yang

your posts stayed with me, so now words follow, but not about rigpa, about wich I know nothing. not a coherent story either, just some things that I want to put my humble comments on. why be dissatisfied with that? seems to me you're doing well and are consistent in your practice for 30 years, seems to me that' s worth applauding which is far more than the average person is able to I might get my chance on that...all is not lost which happened to you by your discipline of everyday 20 minutes, more would maybe not be healthy for you, seeing how it scared you, don't be afraid, the fear in itself makes it a fearful experience (yeah, easier said that done...i know) to me...now, the kind of depression you were/(are?) suffering from is frozen pain, old deep hurts that are packed into the body and the energetic body. Pain, deep sadness, anger, hurt. To get rid of it means going through that old pain, to release it and that hurts like hell. eh...meaning, i think that it is old pain never properly adressed/digested ( searching for words here, this is not my native tongue) Therefore this pain sits there, waiting to be released, to, in the end, be really felt/ experienced. Maybe, this experience was something like that?? yes, that it is I see ' ego' as a lovable but tiresome toddler, not something to be demolished... that little whining girl was so tired that in the end you managed to put her to sleep, so quietude came, the reality could take over IMHO A real depression is not some egoic issue, not something you can snap out of when you stop feeling sorry for yourself. It has to do with old hurts, this frozen stuff creates all kinds of disbalances in the body (and in the balance between all kinds of neurotransmitters too, but that's a consequence of frozen pain, not the cause.) There maybe an other way of understanding this phrase. To me it might mean, but that's just me, that you chose this life, with these hardships, this pain, the whole story you now so well and I'm only guessing at, and the depression that's part of it. Because that's the path you chose, to learn the Way in this life. These pains could also be a ongoing issue through live's on end, and you're getting rid of those old patterns here and now, in this life No fancy words needed for me, t's only the toddler that's capable of emotions As said, I do not believe that real clinical depression is ' wallowing' seen too much of it, in myself and several others. But I agree that it is the contrast between the extreme emotion you felt and the stillness within...that made ' you' aware of it ( or something). thank you for these words, I've been through a like experience, hearing the same ' voice' and you put it nicely, helps me to ' get' my experience better love BES

have no words for you, words become pretty useless, but I do sent you a big bunch of love, catch! BES

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I like this! but methinks, what you say, " A wave is the action of the particles. Waves don't exist of themselves. "Waves" don't act. Particles act (because of a disturbance) and may (or may not) establish themselves into a wave pattern." Holds only true for the closeby reality, waves in the sea and in the air, even to waves of emotion when you wanna be fussy. I like that way of looking at it. But a statement like : " a particle acts like a wave" uh, what I remember from conversations with these students ( some pretty weird conversations I had with those guys , that is about light and the movement of electrons, becoming far away from our daily life. i think they said something like, when you want to talk about light you need words and math to describe what you want to say ( and to describe what you have seen) but light is neither particle nor wave, its just light and sometimes it comes in handy to describe it as a particle, in other instances describe it like a wave. maybe it's like that deep place where you can land in meditation, there are just no useful words for it, but it does happen!

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I've known several physics-students with autism, none of them were confused about light being particles or waves, even i, with a decidedly alpha background, know they are just models, reality is inconceivable, the only thing the mind does is making models of 'reality' , a useful trick, both studying physics and going to the grocer

phoenix

neverending

I wanted to change the world. But I have found that the only thing one can be sure of changing is oneself. - Aldous Huxley

Would you indulge me and tell more about this?

thank you gentlemen i'll keep that picture in mind for the next hundred-thousand times i become aware of running around in circles, beep beep ...

thats sums it up nicely