blue eyed snake

i guess that youngster did not need his raft anymore

I saw a book translated by Cleary and kept the link elsewere, not sure but I think @Taoist Texts posted it. https://archive.org/details/meditationandhealthtaoistteachingsthomascleary_202002/page/n5/mode/2up?view=theater

well, just a guess a lot of guys find Daoism due to them doing some form of martial arts, and they are prone to be power hungry after making fire with their fingers and blasting things out of the way... women tend to be more interested in healing and caring But I do not know and its unbalanced years ago the men and womens places were created to get rid of all the posts about semenretention That was good action women are a tiny minority here that's one of the reasons that at the first sign of misogynistic behavior I pounce also the whole forums is not to be compared with what it was, i hope it will become alive again, I remember a place teeming with threads of all kinds and lotsa people.

no, but i see several movements of fanatics, when those grow we will soon have a problem. Roughly a third identifies themselves as Christians Good to hear, I guess in places were most people are going to church the fanatics are a minority, i fear the new movements wich find their existence in fanatics and do not have the buffer of a large group of people with more moderate ideas In this case I do not mind much the rational view, i get enraged. its Christians that drove out the old ways, Christians that reduced women to a lesser sort of human christian who deny women to decide about their pregnancies, who chucked gynecological care into the hands of men. really Apech, I get a red haze before my eyes when I think about it, thats a deeprooted anger in me. and whichever group of christians did it is not of much interest for me, the thoughts and idea of the witch-hammer still do the rounds in all the misogyny I've seen and endured in my life. as I said, they killed and tortured my tribe

This bunch of bums is not representative and on top of that the ratio male female is heavily skewed. Too much women meekly do as the church tells them, thereby betraying their sisters.

they've killed off my tribe with their witch hammer and I have not forgotten, nor forgiven. its one of the things that can enrage me, apart from the horrid torture, they've efficiently bred out the voice of smart loudmouthed women, or so they like to think.

I have never heard the vatican condemning surgery on little innocent intersex babies. These kids are assigned a gender without having a say in it. Mystics of any religion are much more interesting then the official dogma's for the peepul

I was unaware the small heavenly cycle existed, until one day teacher said to me, when you practice tomorrow touch your tongue to the palate on that spot. it was as if a dry riverbed suddenly filled up, it roared though my system and although it does not roar anymore, it just keeps on going, even without any practice.

\ I had kept this thread but admit I never read it ( or have forgotten about)

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Surprised, but delighted to see something so common and available on the end of your link. Just in perusing the linked book: I think almost the same is to be found in the golden flower, (also from Cleary I think) I did indeed interpret as about the human body, roughly meaning at the start of you practice you become aware of "non being" "chi" ZongMai in the middle of your flesh body . late in the practice comes " when you sense being ( ie the fleshbody) within nonbeing ( the aura, or the subtle body) within what I call the bubble. ah yes, found it, not Cleary https://thesecretofthegoldenflower.com/ch3.html the lineage of my teacher has some Tibetan roots among others. A millet pearl dropped into my body, it was like " huh, what's this" adding to this, My teacher steered me away from any reading and a lot of things happened. When I asked questions he mostly told me "you just practice, it's going well. Later I started reading and found descriptions that rang a bell. https://thesecretofthegoldenflower.com/ch3.html

now were's my crown, I did put it somewhere, it must be here, am so forgetful.. well at last I have the age and the befuddled memory of a crone now

Welcome Abby

't was the hottest thing in those days. My, the times have changed indeed. That is the dress you bought to try a bit of crossdressing and then be finished with it? I think dresses could look real good on you but you need a bit of help what looks nice on you and how to wear .I know another transwoman, my age, who told me the first dress came out a bit meh... and then her young adult daughter took her to the shops and they went on a shopping spree and she learned womans clothing. at first sight i would say this needs some dangling jewellery around your wrists just some doodads to finish it. I remember when I started working as a child-psychologist i got help with what outfits i could use for that. I much like looking at welldressed woman, but me myself, no sir I was top of my year but always looked like a mechanic or someone cutting trees... and i needed to learn to look like a female professional, well, i ended up in pants but the total looked professional and i did feel more or less myself in it.

for me it was pivotal, during my early years women and girls wore dresses. to wear pants was a statement in those days, I remember one of my big sisters wearing hot pants with high boots in those days, that caused quite the uproar in the household. I found her beautiful, i think i was five so she was 15, dad was not amused, i did not understand, i liked what I saw.

I live in a woman's body and after decades of wearing pants I had a hard time to wear a skirt at first, but it was so hot I thought it would make me more comfortable. Now, in my old age it does not matter anymore, what clothing I wear, whether I enjoy looking at a young woman or a young man, what pronouns people use. it's of no interest anymore. Looking back I think i was lucky with parents who reared their brood as neutral as possible in those days. we all had to learn to cook, knit, basic sewing and also basic technical things, fix a puncture, change a tire on your bike. Being able to use a hammer and a screwdriver, helping dad painting the house. plus the leniency of my parents to let me wear boyswear, to let me run wild. Looking back I am happy I've tasted both genders without transitioning, just by living like the opposite, fond memories of my time as a mechanic. in a way I've tasted physical life in an extraordinary rich way, although i would have jumped to the chance of mastectomy and testosterone when I was younger, now I am grateful I had to find other ways to be okay with myself.

BES

can only give my personal experience, Kundalini came totally unexpected and it cut away ego in one fell swoop. for many weeks I walked around dazed. That one fell swoop had made me realize that those stories that I had always shrugged away as woowoo were true, that ego was made out of nothing, that the phrase "were all one" has substance. but I could not live like that and a new storyline, a new ego built up. again reactive et cetera Now with the underlying knowledge that it is just a story

found it, Matthew 19-12 in my motherlanguage it says something like: he who can understand it, let him understand. With an undertone of" this is not easy to understand/grasp, but some people will understand." I read it as: some guys are so devoted to the spiritual path that they will cut off their balls to e totally devoted to their path. ergo, they are not distracted anymore by arousal and lust and wet dreams https://biblehub.com/matthew/19-12.htm so, very different the transitioning but same lowering of testosteron and loss of libido due to that.

I remember guys always saying I did understand their point of view much better then other women and that they experienced that as helpful. I think the indigenous people of america said that 2 spirit people can be a bridge between the 2 sexes when those trouble each other.

In my case the body forced it on me by both hormonal changes, early menopause and thus deteriorating mucous membranes and an illness that lets my body react with allergy-like reaction to arousal. also allergic to estrogens btw... so I am a perfect celibate monk in my old age, not by choice though. thinking on it, but not being male more like wondering. When you change the hormonal balance by taking estrogens and thus reducing the influence of testosteron. I guess it just follow that you're less inclined to want sex. uhm...like of old you had eunuchs with their balls cut of, another way to drastically reduce testosteron and sexdrive. or am i amiss with that thought? I seem to remember there was some bible text about this too

mine were less frilly but even a nonfrilly dress is nasty climbing trees and such things as the skirt tends to catch on things. Plus I was a boy and boys wear pants, not dresses.

although some spiritually minded people would like to have their sexual lust taken away, somehow I think you are not one of them. Mine was taken by some disease of the body and I do not like that one bit, take care you keep yours, don't increase the risk by jokingly talking about it..

don't talk of the well you do not want to drink