Arya

Liminal, I won't use a condom or any other prevention methods, thanks for concern.

what does this mean, if she can sing and dance beautifully then that's fine. and I'm kind, I practice loving-kindness.

you can do it 24 hrs, it feels good, fluid & smooth

Just to update on this, Earlier I was breathing wrongly at first i.e. from the lower body, since I was breathing from a very low point, this made the breathe shallow and yes also premature ejaculation. Now I've found the best of both worlds, hard to explain this but pushing through the Middle of the lower half, but not to low, think middle of the lower belly where there feels like a spacious heavy energy, the chest and upper body expand by themselves and by alot. So you get immensely deep long breathes. That pushing action downwards miraculously lifts the upper body up and thus it effectively feeds the upper energy centers. This is what I take from experiencing this way of breathing.

friends, I almost forgot that I made this thread, lol! I wanted to delete it as soon as I made it since I felt embarrassed. But it is a dilemma. To answer some questions, I know a lot of girls fancy me in my neighborhood and outside too if I....uhh..retain my seed. My house is two floors and with a terrace which has small room in the corner. Basically like a storage shed. I live on the second floor alone, two bedrooms there. I'm kind of scared to go to a girl's house. I don't live in a western country and people are kind of conservative here. About using protection....that's not much of an issue. Thanks to my breathing practice(in and out breathing), I have good control over bodily energies. IF you read my older threads...you can know. Right now though, I feel I can have lucid dream sex quite easily because my body mindfulness is unshakable. I feel I'd have to wait indefinitely(to get real life sex). Might as well just become a monk than forcefully trudge through the household life in hopes for a females love. My dad said the first thing he'd give me an apartment, when his business gets going again and my mom said she'd get me a wife at 25, if and when I get established by myself. thanks for responses

Been some days since I last ejaculated. Feeling much anger, body has become tight,strong and supple again. Becoming hairy, facial features getting sharper again. Too much female presence upsets body energies. Forced to assume masculine role because of femininity. Movements have slowed down, can feel energy, can feel every inch of the body. Body yet again taking an hourglass shape. Full-body breathing has stabilized.

Back to reverse breathing again and now it all makes sense. Why I was having the intrusive thoughts while doing it? Because I was just focusing on the heart, therefore there was nothing to feed it energy. So now I pull in energy from the lower half and then there is a sensation in the middle of the brow, a pressure that I believe silences everything. This then feeds the heart and then bliss is there. Old memories come up, some remorse - they need to be resolved and let go off. They mostly get resolved as soon as they come now because I have a stronger moral base, but some stick around longer. Today, fasting again and now it seems clear that fasting is for purification and reverse breathing is the key. If anyone has the same experience, working with the heart-love-kindness energy, then please kindly respond. Thanks.

You guys NEED to take in sunlight. I believe the bliss is because I take in sunlight in mid-day and then when I am outside in the evening I feel aroused in the whole body. I believe the moon is doing this to me, though I'm not very sure. Full moon is arriving, we'll see.

Yeah, my urges simmered down a lot I think. I'll go back to my humble life and stop thinking about magic and what not. Although it would be nice to see different sorts of beings at the very least and visit different realms. Wouldn't that be harmless? Maybe when I become a recluse, I'll develop these abilities where it's safer or they might come on their own.

Since I have been doing this, my sex drive has skyrocketed. I get bliss from looking at females, it's like the lower body has a mind of its own. It recognizes feminine, femininity and wants to merge with it. Went to grocery shop today and this time I was dragged around by my lower body, so I was looking at females constantly and the lower body lights up in bliss. I used to PULL this energy up before. I'm not pulling it up because then it will reach the higher centers and cause immense pain for quite awhile. So I can keep the energies down now and my eyes don't burn. This is great. When I was doing reverse breathing I think my energies were leaking out. It would be great if I can abide in upper centers without pain and tormenting thoughts. Right now there is pressure in the middle of the brow. I think something is sorting out thoughts and emotions that pop up from down there because I feel a pressing or clicking sensation in the middle of the brow. But downstairs it feels immense. I'll come out here, I masturbated more than 5-6 times in the past day and but today still I feel this really powerful vortex of energy. My thoughts come out crystal clear and my visualization power has increased immensely. I have a very very strong urge to cultivate powerful magical abilities. I know where I am, and where to go. It is all becoming clearer.

OKay, yes I am experiencing a powerful rush of energy down there when I look at women, yeah premature ejaculation is inevitable. I am forgetting how to pull the energy upwards, well, I don't care anyway now. What I've noticed is that I've gotten my sense of smell back, where had it been all this time? Thoughts are more aligned since those harmful thoughts that were once bothering me, get destroyed immediately as they form and don't bother me incessantly. So the sense of dread has completely vanished. I feel here, I feel like I am really here, a human. Feels great. Tell you what, in fact, I feel heavenly a bit. Although, the most important fact is that I can again, don't how how to describe this - I can *feel* the surroundings, you know, when you visit a place or think of your home, there are impressions in your mind? Some scenario that happened in the past or something that you will encounter in the future, they all have some impression, aura, an ambience - some sort of atmospheric vibe to them. I had lost this, wow did I lose this. This whole interest in spirituality was because of this reason. I haven't taken a bath in about 2 or 3 days, haven't shaved, brushed my teeth after a whole day I think and jerked off twice just recently. Feels good.

Once you have a strong spiritual base, belief in afterlife and that your actions have far-reaching effects then depression becomes trivial. Unfortunately, true and proper religion is being systematically rejected and lost. People who have no fear of doing wrong, can do anything evil. It's astonishing to see how often people lie today, even people who are well-off in terms of beauty and wealth. Being hateful & malicious is not seen as anything inherently wrong. Well, come to where I live, these people swear on a daily basis and are ugly looking. You can tell from people's face & also the color of their skin how their personality is. Anyways, if you find anyone in your family suffering from depression then tell them to take in sunlight for a little while at noon, preferably with most of the body exposed.

Hi Des, I never said suppressed and I'm not sure what that implies completely. Generally it is the women today who suppressing the men, but men out of love & sympathies, run circle around women more so than before. It's good that you are discovering your femininity and if you keep going, you will surely attain to heaven.

I don't understand why parents today are making their daughters get an education and work instead of marrying them off young to a capable guy. That way we'd have less depressed men and women roaming about. More jobs for men and women can remain feminine instead of doing manly stuff. The whole boyfriend/girlfriend paradigm is completely wrong and unnecessary. That's what you get when you tarnish love and the institute of marriage. In fact, I think sex outside of marriage has very dire consequences, it's flimsy and fickle. If I had a daughter, I would be the most proud if she married a wealthy handsome guy as soon as possible, preferably at 16 or 17. Don't care if she got Phd. in physics or does well in Business. This whole society is a joke.

What do you think of this? Anuruddha, The Buddha's most eminent disciple when it came to the third eye. http://www.bps.lk/olib/wh/wh362-p.html http://www.palikanon.com/english/pali_names/ay/anuruddha.htm

I think I've finally found the way to open the heart center. Well it is... Sticking your chest out. Yeah, that's mostly it. Of course you have to temper your mind and speech but this is it. I'm not kidding, it's as simple as lifting your chest up. Also, it gives you a hourglass figure like of a female. Please do this exercise(yes, it's very strenuous) all day and if you can, kindly report back to the thread. I will love feedback. How can such a simple thing be veiled for so long from me?

Hello bums, I've noticed that when I abstain(day 49 today) and then I go talk to females then certain parts of my body start shaking or vibrating. So I went to the dentist today and there was this nice kind lady dentist, probably late twenties or early thirties but she was a bit overweight, although had a nice complexion. Anyways, she was constantly talking to me and never looked her in the eyes, I had to turn my face away because apparently I was falling in love with her ! This happens all the time now. So she kept on talking mostly about food and how I should brush my teeth more often etc. During the conversion my left leg started shaking wildly and I could not control it at all. It had a life of its own. But anyways, whenever this happens my mindset changes towards women, a very significant shift - from lust/passion to a sympathetic caring nature and it becomes impossible for me to hate them. So I want to talk to females more but I am afraid that it will activate the lust side again. I've had these episodes of shaking before also, and after speaking to a crowd I have them. Once I talked to my cousin who's the same age as me and it happened to quite violently as though I was shivering in very cold weather. What do you think happens here?

I eat a lot of eggs meat and fats like coconut, olives, butter, ghee etc.

Okay, I did the flexing and as you said , I can feel the top and down connecting through the spine. Ahhh, thanks so much. I will experiment and report back later how this works out!

thanks a lot for responding. I want to mention something else - the energy going out of my eyes, that happens more if I am sucking in the female energy - the energy feels like a blissful vortex in and around my perineum but it only happens if I look at the females, their figure. The thing is that females wear really tight clothes like yoga pants and jeans that displays their figure which is to my detriment. But if that blissful energy vortex is initiated and if breath it upwards then energy out of my eyes shoots out relentlessly. But I've noticed two types of these energies shooting out - one comes from the top down and then other comes the bottom and straight out the front. The top down one is that metta(loving-kindness) and the other is the lust/love one. Anyways, I can most probably NOW cancel out the latter one by forcing the metta one, even if I look at a female but the latter one takes hefty control by force if I happen to look at a females figure. It's confusing. I'll try the flexing as you have told me and see if it works out. But the fact is that sex is more blissful if I am doing the Yinchi breathing constantly throughout the day, feel great and strong but also I can drop into meditation very easily as well because of the powerful mindfulness that comes with it. Right now, I am unable to take up celibacy and would like to pursue relationships but I would like not to have public sex, lol. Only if she's my girl not with strangers because then my heart burns. The only solution I find is the top down metta energy feeding the heart to cancel out the lust energy

Hi, Mr. Innersoundqigong, thank you for this explanation. I have a better comprehension of it now! Can you help me with this? Back when I had stable 'whole body-breathing', I was probably creating a lot of yin chi which made me shoot out energy through my eyes. I'm not sure of this but I had problem of blood-shot eyes quite a lot. Well, I'm back to the whole body-breathing and will be creating yin chi again since I forgot to do it and couldn't do it for awhile. SO I might run into the same problem again. So how do I keep the energy to myself? Is it detrimental if I give it to females? What if I eat a lot of food. What happened was that my complexion and hair got progressively lighter during the early time period but I was sucking female energy which I stopped doing but I'm afraid it will happen again if I really breathe as deeply as I was during that time. I think I was literally having sex with these females. So this sucking of the energy should be kept in the bedroom I think. Anyways, I will be making a whole lot of energy because I'm taking in sunlight and my complexion is turning golden. SO females will be after me. Should I start a harem? Would that be fine? Will I age or die quicker if I give my energy to females? I was to go to the Himalayas when I get older, will I be too weak to pursue meditation then if I create yin chi now? Thanks for any help/advice.

Hoping to do some out of body practice tomorrow. I think I saw my astral body for the first time on the last full moon, but only my arms. I'm gonna follow the fast tradition on full moon & new moon from now on. Last time I also fasted.

Hello bums, I started drinking milk recently and have noticed that my bones are shrinking. Everybody has convinced me that milk has loads of calcium which makes stronger bones and I'm still buying into it. My urine is very foamy nearly every time I go to the toilet, calcium maybe? I've measured my wrists, they seem to be getting smaller. I feel weaker overall as well from before. This is pasteurized/homogenized cow's milk you normally get from the store, not grass-fed or raw milk. Is milk really draining my skeleton or is it something else?

yeah, I think starting with the special probiotic curd they sell at the supermart would be a goood idea, rather than milk at first appreciate the help from you!

thanks, I'll report back here if milk(and dairy) isn't hard on me. I've gone a week or so without releasing and will have a glass of milk about 2 or 3 weeks from now.