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  1. I dun goofed

    madness23 replied to madness23's topic in General Discussion

    Hi Rudolf_safie, Could you tell me more about what have you done and how did you fix it? Was sexual energy also involved? I have tried energy healers, accupuncture, herbs but maybe I haven't found the right one yet. Im currently on medication because without them the depression is so bad I don't leave the house.

  2. hey how did you burn your self id like to hear more about it

    1. madness23

      madness23

      I did the semen retention thing and learned to have multiple orgasms. I would also do one hour of san ti standing posture every morning and the five elements of xing yi. Before I went nuts I felt like I was reaching enlightment but it was actually a psychotic episode.

    2. mindtooloud

      mindtooloud

      ok ive been trying to look up what semen retention is and there is nothing clear on the internet, is semen retention not releasing sperm at all or having an orgasm but not releasing sperm?

  3. I dun goofed

    madness23 replied to madness23's topic in General Discussion

    Hi liminal_luke, I know that I am responsible for my own suffering because nobody in my family has any mental health issues. When I researched it I saw the comments on amazon. http://www.amazon.com/Taoist-Secrets-Love-Cultivating-Sexual/dp/0943358191 There are two customer reviews who got on antipsychotic medication doing these practices. also this: http://www.thedaobums.com/topic/13577-a-case-of-insanity-induced-from-chia-style-semen-retention/ Its just that I did not made this research before I started playing with sexual energy. I should have been more cautious and read more what other people think about these books

  4. I dun goofed

    madness23 posted a topic in General Discussion

    I am the most stupid fucking person that have ever existed. Seriously what is wrong with me? Why would I play with sexual energy? Why would I play with fire? I have destroyed my life with my stupidity. Those toughts run in my mind every single goddamn day. The backstory is: I have practiced some xing yi with a master and it felt really good. Years later by accident I have found Mantak Chia's books and they seemed very logical. I stopped ejaculating and began to do xing yi everyday and for about an hour and a half. I followed Chia's instructions but without any caution. I tought myself to have multiple orgasm without ejaculation. What can go wrong, right? After eight months I had become psychotic and I was locked up in a psych ward. This was 3 years ago. I have tried everything to help myself but my mind is still a disaster. I have developed bipolar disorder and it doesn't go away. I have nightmares every night. I wake up at least five times every night. I am either deeply depressed with suicidal toughts or high in the clouds. My mind is a total mess. It is permanent. Please be carefull when you play with sexual energy.

  5. Hello

    madness23 posted a topic in Welcome

    Hello, I am a retard who taught himself Mantak Chia's meditation and went psychotic in one year. I played with fire(sexual energy) and am now burned for life with bipolar disorder. Please be careful with these methods. I also practiced xing yi.