sagebrush

Singapore mai fun

well that dog looks like my mothers dog except hers is a dachshund. pulling rabbits out of a hat are you? or how about a tongue twister Alfalfa.... pulling habits out of a rat? not sure how you blend Chinese and Egyptian..... and besides that...does it matter? further to the right moses parted the Red Sea....end of story :-)

well I can make it up...spontaneously for fun. although I am sure regret is close around the corner.. the song behind the scene with maria shriver is chuck mangione. I had to look up the spelling of his name. and the circa 1977. instrumental but the lyrics : feels so good there is no place to hide the thoughts of all the time I cried and felt this pain that I have known because I just needed to hear that something special and then one day you said "hello" "lets make love along the way" your name is music to my heart ( I think I copied that correctly) I'll always really love you... the rest is not quite right.... flugelhorn by the way not trumpet. it is about the cut of her jacket with no collar and the hair whispy still reminiscent of the 70's and most likely a cropped jacket at the waist. the convergence of.......something not sure of...... goodnight and peaceful sleep I began hear chuck play the song thinking of the image.......and had looked it up a few days ago-so I guess it is not spontaneous so much. but her clothes as I stated before put me in the groove..ha

maria shriver? circa 1981?

Be ignored is pain... but you might be better off. But, but that's ALL folks!

a few lucid dreams in a lifetime should not be such a Bother.....

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I have not seen my spirit animal-that I am aware of- have you seen my spirit animal? not necessary I suppose do you want to tell me what that is about? I am pretty clear I am moody based on habitual mental patterns and not very good to drink so much caffeine and sit to read. I do not know if I want a spirit animal I think in spirit if I am out and about like hiking it will present itself- tonight three deer cross in front of my car. I don't think I have a said culture, too btw. all creatures have merit dolphin whale swan rabbit mink possum

how did tiger get into the post? confronting repressed emotions ---tiger?

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sunk in funk:-)

I was angry yesterday. I trace it back to source of coffee. If I don't get busy working labor-it makes me irritable and emotional/moody. so I climbed my ladder outside the condo and cleaned up to the second floor. both unit 3 and 4. it was full of green mildew on siding. but oddly enough----today I am the recipient of just intense chills and aches since posting at dao bums. source that later. I don't drink wine often, but I have drank on numerous occasions. in general it gives me heartburn and increases depression. seeking escape is like dreaming of kayaking a river that is slightly swollen from rain storm. I don't own a kayak but can rent them. I have only gone on a lake. but the current of a river looks more fun. in the meantime I organize where I see fit. and I make jokes in my head silently trying to grasp or grapple with the world. sometimes they slip out here--- new in the garden: iris coneflower bee balm variety sedum cat mint(walker) potato vine forget me nots the list for improvements is long- and I realize my own dirty work is loving myself is not easy. who else has seen a stuffed animal that looked like the penguin Wilfred..... and mentioned it? nobody but me

I disagree example: another funeral some members of the family I know over long period of time. some new because they live out of this state. ok--awkwardness in me. someone said thank you for coming. I said-well thank you. it did not make a bit of sense other than putting words out there because I am uncomfortable. emotions are like waves on the sea. unbalanced I disagree. you have trained your mind otherways I cry at funeral- not my family or friend but long time neighbor of 40 years. sweet man. more religious than I figured-believer in the word the bible. faithful to his wife 69 years and devoted to career, simple life, and church. you don't like emotion if your child run over by a train-you are going to fuckin cry maybe for years to come. not unbalanced body or mind. loss of son. unanticipated. unmeditated. where we going with all this? if I had the means I would have tracked you both down face to face. I cried at the funeral because I felt like it. tiny man 93 years of life lived very well. decent who knows where he goes. according to his beliefs-heaven the members of that faith think you nuts. I try to be open mind

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quoting old saint that emotions become tension in the energy body, that just immediately makes me aggravated immediately. not sure why. its like an espoused philosophy of cliché. maybe I do not understand and then I like to get upset over it. anyway. always ready fight or fligh I refuse public displays of affection.:-) burning heat in my right leg on the back side by achilles god damn go garden

funny. I recall saying something along the lines when I first ever heard someone speaking of Frodo and tossing off some ring... I am like what in the hell does that mean> I think I was aware of hobbit and jrr tolkein - and then it was like-I don't even like science fiction- geez. perspectives change over time..... WWFD? :-)

well tune into the background subtle noise.... it is Seal.....we will never survive unless we get a little crazy.

when I need to open a can of whoop a-- on myself I reach for Vernon howard. I begin to think of many expert climbers on Himalayas. World renown mountaineers are scattered and frozen up there- its best to take advice from a unassuming snail in a garden. although I do not necessarily think the trill of a bird is Truth. but it sure beats a lot of noise. I watched a video my sister sent over whats app. It was of a street performer. He had a boombox and a miniuature wooden chair, and a skeleton puppet on strings that he danced along and it lip sync to a song like singing in concert. It deserved a coin or bill in the hat. It was unique and I smiled. the music was chubby checker twist like we did last summer. maybe you can internet search the video. we have people in the world with lots of information, theories, like Einstein and steven Hawkins and then the homeless women on the street with no teeth..... I guess it depends on where you want to place attention and study. My dreams last night translate to being close to someone amid anger(someone else got to set up the instruments) and strangers.(some from the asylum) and I will continue to point it out that it was her(you). and then its just me. :-) good day and just so I am not off topic I will say satsang in the last sentence

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Tracy Chapman IF NOT NOW THEN WHEN

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Without leaving home. No Sirree! not me. Alas, An "A" round table. (note not the alphabet "a" but "A" as in Algonquin)

"come Haiku with me" off the beaten path-deer trails, the knolls of your mind.