Rbn

Thank you very much Jeff. I feel like it will help me to develop further. However right now, I decide to start over and try to get a better "foundation". Get a flexible and muscle body, especially my back in order to straighten it, training on my breathing without a lot of intent to not speed up things. At the same time, thank to you, I will "destroy" my fear, and even try to find a way to perceive any more issues. And keep gathering knowledge about where I am standing right now. If I have any questions I will ask you, thank you for your help, thank a lot. Best,

Hello everyone, First, I would like to apologize for the late reply, I am sorry. Aletheia, thank you for your advice I will follow them. However, I am still trying to figure out what implies your 4th paragraph, I will ponder on it for some time, thank you! As for the standing exercise,after doing it one time, it is really interesting and energizing, it got into my daily routine. Thank you very much for your words and advices! Jeff, thank you for your opinion and I think your are hitting right into the problem. It is true that not so long ago, during my childhood, I had many issue aroung the bladder and it freaked me out(And I think it still freaks me out). I will certainly need to accept and get past my fears as you said. It will certainly take some time but, I got to do it! Following your advice for the experiement, the first time I visualized this scenery(If i may call it like that) and I felt like something hitting inside my stomach and below, something really uncomfortable. I couldn't really understand so I tried again in order to catch clearly what I got. As a result, i felt like my stomach became alike a pond of water where I just throw a rock and create some turbulence. Also, my heartbeat accelerates. But the sensation came more when I visualize blood flowing out down my finger and hand. Really akward experiment, I still wonder what may be the conclusion of it, what would all say. I was a bit reluctant to do it at first but I still did. I think visualize you smilling while waiting for me was easier. Anyway, Thank you a lot for your words and advices! Voidisyinyang, thank you for those informations. It helps me a lot, and gave me new matters to think about, I will read both the pdf during week-end. Thank you!

Hello everyone, there are questions that remain in my head every time I think about meditation. I wonder if I can get your opinion or some lead to get further materials in order for me to understand. After some practice I try to do Lower Dan Tian breathing. However, it creates issue with my bladder, I couldn't control the need. So I stopped and after some time it went away. I certainly did a wrong breathing method but since then it creates a blockage. Every time I try to breath the same way, I feel like a problem would arise or simply the need. (Maybe you will need more information about how I breathed so I will try to be precise. All the process was through the nose and tongue touching the mouth' roof. I inhaled with chest rising and stomach going in, trying to concentrate to gather energy with all my body inside my chest. Then I make it go down under my nostril or at the same level, and finally I exhale with stomach expanding and abs contracting and chest going in. I didn't necessarily try to gather all the time, some session I try to make it pass through my body.) Also, if I may add one more thing. I used to picture water in my mind everytime I practiced. A drop forming on top, flowing down to a lake or some that helped me to concentrate and relax. Maybe it has a relation with the bladder issue... I wonder. Also, I read that energy is sometime represented by lightning or water. If I may add one more interrogation about picture of water. Is it common thing? Is there some practice that require such thing? Is it benefit or require a higher level of understanding? Or is it just fantasy that could bring more trouble ? Thank you for your consideration thank you for reading me.

Thank you for your words, I agree with what you said Marblehead, it is the reason why I just practice what I may call basic exercises like Zhan Zhuang and following the way of energy book. And simple sitting meditation combining with more physical and stretching exercises. Thank you Zenmode for partaking this. I will definetely look into it as soon as possible. Thank you again. I wonder if I may bother you to ask for opinion about the issue I encounter back then. About my bladder. Maybe I did a wrong breathing method but since then it creates a blockage. Every time I try to breath the same way, I feel the same urge at my bladder level. (Maybe you will need more information about how I breathed so I will try to be precise. All the process was through the nose and tongue touching the mouth' roof. I inhaled with chest rising and stomach going in, trying to concentrate to gather energy with all my body inside my chest. Then I make it go down under my nostril or at the same level, and finally I exhale with stomach expanding and cheat going in. I didn't necessarily try to gather all the time, some session I try to make it pass through my body.) Please if you have any opinion, I would like to know it. Also, if I may add one more thing. I would like to get your opinion on the picture I created in my mind every time I practiced. The picture of water. Is it common thing? Is there some practice that require such thing? Is it benefit or require a higher level of understanding? Or is it just fantasy that could bring more trouble ? Thank you for reading me.

Hello everyone, As my first post, I would like to thank all of you for this place where I could find lot of valuable knowledge and interesting topics. I have to say I am still lost to what road take. And following what I could read here and there, I decide to find more until I get the right idea of what I really want, what I really expect to be. I may try to find a teacher, unfortunately, the place I am right now has none. For 2-3 years I have been interested in the subject of cultivation. And after readying some I try to practice. At first it was pleasing and went for around 20minutes a day. I did try some Taichi, Yi Jin Jing, Zhan Zhuang and a bit more general Qi Gong. I try to take time to do sitting meditation also, as I read somewhere it was always good to balanced. But then, issue came. I did mainly Qi Gong, basic movements (following a video on YouTube, I wonder if I could find it) as for the breathing method I try to concentrate under my nostril, chest up during inhalation then stomach up during exhalation. Also, during the practice to calm my mind and concentrate I keep water as image. Water forming form a drop and then flowing through my body or to calm a lake without ripples. It was great. But then, I do not know why I start to have issue with my bladder. Could contain myself. After going to Doctor, no problems, certainly stress... I stop practicing and add some physical exercises to my days, after some time the problem flew away. Now that I think about it I was influenced in some sort of wuxia novel and I had no experiences and was even stupid to do such a thing as a novice. Now I am afraid to do the same breathing method and I don't even want to try think about water in any way. I wonder if any of you has heard or even have a personal opinion of it? Anyway as time flew, I keep trying to get more knowledge. Finally deciding to practice in a simple way : breathing with chest up and down. One time focusing under my nose my breath and one time with nothing in my head, emptiness. (Not during the same exercise). As for my body, sitting or standing still. Nothing else. I was thinking maybe take it slow without jumping straight to some fancy things. Make it simple and at the same time discover how it feels again. Correct my way of being as a person, changing some little things one step at a time in order to behave and feel better. I would like to thank you again for this forum and also for reading me. And I have to apologize for my language skills, I may have a wrong English but I still hope that I did write the correct idea.

Hello to everybody, I would like to thank your community for this forum, I would like to apologize, living in France, I may not write a correct English, but I hope that you can understand me. For my self-introduction, I do not really know what to say more, I don't practice martial arts but I am profoundly interested by them and specially their philosophies. I don't really know anything, I would like to start by making myself aware of this fact and so I would like to start to read those forum's threads and try to 'gather' an 'understanding of the Dao'. Thank you again. Rbn