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The society imprint in modern society runs too deep. Anything which does not follow the "current" norm is seen as a deviation. Any deviation is prosecuted via isolation. Humans are social creatures and isolation is a hard one for them Thus, the desire to "fit in". Being Natural is almost impossible... of course you can always do it on internet and do whatever you want and be whatever you want, but this "digital persona" is still only part of yourself.

Status Update ( LOLZ) 1. Mods, next time I act weird, can you please PM me and ask one question "Is neigong hit hard again?" I think it would do enough for a cat to figure out help. The mystery of my weird obsession with the topic is solved. Last night my teacher was questioning if there was any "weird" stuff, i.e. qi deviations... I was like hit by the thunderbolt, no wonder I could not pin point anything related to this anger, but gosh, that's why they say you do not walk there alone. Short story - the neigong was expected to hit emotional stuff and throat chakra at the marrow level. It just goes in circles I guess, once you think you cleared your stuff, you go to next level in a video game and it is much much harder to process. It's actually good I wrote this stuff yesterday - the analysis shows the anger hit the "collective female" being angry at "collective male". I.e. not any physical male/female nor divine male/female, very much on schedule... Please don't kid yourself if you think there is no "collective female" anger. I guess I just tapped into that energy and gosh... it ain't cupcakes and unicorns... Kali dancing... I am gonna start thread in PPD on details of the physical/emotional stuff pulled up from neigongs and sudden realizations attached to it... ( as like, would Jesus exist without Judas?...) and Love... yes... Heart Opens Everything... But you also need to open your mind...

have you ever felt LOVE? The one Gerard is talking about? Not a physical "need" obsession? Not clinginess, not fear to be rejected, left alone, etc? Not that physical urge? But LOVE? From the heart? If yes, so you know how to project it to me. If you project it to me and I feel it, maybe perhaps I will change my mind that those creatures are not capable of LOVE. Double dare?:P

thank you Tuesday you put it in a better words than me anger blinds... I understand that perhaps in some lalaland in 'Merica there are happy lands, but around here it is so bad, it's questionable of it's reality. As how can humans be so two-faced. How can one praise Lord and rape children at the back of the Church. How can one pray to Holy Mother and worship her and treat his wife/girlfriend/woman on a street with such disrespect... How can one pay male 1 dollar and the female only 70 cents for the same job???? What happened to the "heart" and "love" Gerard was talking in the first post? Where and when did it all go wrong? Perhaps it is all my clouded perception...but then there is a whole bunch of those like me...

listen, I got it you don't like me. I ignore you as much as I can. So let's leave it that way. Enjoy your life. I am not asking about males in this place, I am talking about males on this planet. If all males in your life treated you well, great, you are a lucky one. However, when I look at myself and I look around, I get a different picture. Do I need to pull a list of all the crap males do to females? So my QUESTION is why are they doing this crap? From paychecks, to promotions, to healthcare, to women's right, etc. etc.... Where in the hell is their hearts??? Perhaps I am delusional and all world around all of you is nice and fluffy... I guess I just got out on a wrong stop... p.s. is Trump a president in your world? Just to check...

Forgiveness is when there is no energy charge left in the situation. Some people prey on this energy, and like jackals gather around those who wounded to feed of that. They will try to poke with the stick in the broken heart to get more of that energy. It's human nature perhaps... or maybe those are not exactly humans, but ones made out of pigs? Weren't there a story about it in ancient Egypt as well? That some human-like creatures were bread for workers status and had zero heart in them? I dunno... All I know is that love-heart and sex have nothing to do with each other.

Why when woman is angry, all society wants to shush her? Why when woman is angry, she is treated worse than anything by those who preach 'Love and Light'? Why when woman is direct ( as any male would be praised), she is seen as stepping outside the bounds? Why?...

mods, I "edited" d(ck word... Do you all deny the BS that is going on in this world right now? Do you not think MALES have responsibility for it? ( females also, but females in this society has much LESS to say). Do you think the man on the picture raping a statute ain't represent the "Modern Hero"? ...

this picture sums up all "HEART OPENED" males out there. The girl is innocent and open, the man is driven by nothing, but his ???... Would there be any war if MALES had their HEARTS full of LOVE? Would there be abandoned children if MALES had their HEARTS full of LOVE? Would there be any poverty in this world if MALES had their HEARTS full of LOVE? God did not build males to be arrogant ????, the power was given to CREATE ( well, assist in creation), and not to fuck everything up. ...

Ok, so enough about hungry ghosts and such. Here is another theoretical question to fellow Dao BUMs.. What does a psychic attack ( by another human) looks like? 1. As experienced on self 2. As experienced by watching someone else meow.... personal experiences are preferred. I love to share stories at campfire:) p.s. if you HAVE to add a ghost to the story, go ahead, but I would really like to understand the difference between human vs ghost attacks. p.p.s. No, kitty ain't waging a war. Just purrrre theoretical question in regard to healing modalities...

I don't believe males are capable of experiencing LOVE. "Stick your ??? somewhere " feelings- yes, but LOVE - no. Even the most "enlightened" one are still only after some tantra crap. What's the point of showing them the heart if all they do is hurt it again and again? p.s. Jesus ended up on the cross for "LOVE", so... pointless discussion if humans are capable of LOVE.

yes. all energy is the same at that level... however, you are not operating at that level because there is nothing to operate at that level when I spoke to someone about the subject you ask he said "it supposed to be that way" "it's like a coin" "both sides" one is non-duality ( nothing, but energy, no grades/degrees/modalities/etc) and another one is duality ( hot/cold, male/female, yin/yang, sex "love"/heart "love", etc) the only issue is that humans are not built to exist at non-duality level. For those who had kundalini experiences ( after you pass the "ring of fire"), you are not "technically" human anymore. I always found it hard to explain in human words... *** added some background info sometime ago I had found a way with certain kryia to get to "non-duality" state within 20 minutes... I did not know anything about kundalini, dao, qigong, etc... however, my Being obviously was trained not one life time in this stuff. As a human, I was lucky I saved my brains and I think I am somewhat stable to function in this society after such experiments. I would NOT advice ANYBODY to do it ( unless you are a reincarnate I guess and know the stuff you are doing). Anyways, long story short, I found it very hard to INTEGRATE the experience of duality and non-duality at the point of NOW. I.e. how can I be here, walk around, do human stuff and at the same time be totally aware all of this at this very exact moment is nothing, but energy without any grading/any separation/any emotion/any devas ( i.e. level up)/etc. And when I asked one person, he said ( Shivaist Kashmir Tantra), it's what you think it's supposed to be ( separate) , but it does not have to be the way YOU think it supposed to be.

I am going to my first retreat at the end of the month. Total n00b ( minus past lives of course). I will let you know what it looks like.

Gerard, what about this color? Imagine it is "moving". ( this is the closest I found on internet, but you probably know which one I am talking about).

ah, boys, boys, boys, no need to pick on each other... it is all a learning process... the color combinations sometimes are very interesting and I don't have enough clinical experience to figure it out... so thank you for your help and no need to start a fight:P especially an astral one:P or perhaps you both could.. and then share what does a psychic attack looked like:P ".. but he did it first"... lolz

interesting... what about dirty green blobs on lungs?

well... ( as used on kitty-Self..) 1. sage ( herbs) works 2. holy water works ( I got a present from a Vatican. Very strong thing. I use it few drops only in extreme situations. Although, I guess you should be able to buy one online? ) 3. Mantras/Praying works ( "any legitimate lineage", I was told. ) 4. Neigongs work 5. Heart projection ( perhaps what they mean by "compassion"?), but need to be careful not to get any "hitchhikers" attached. 6. Bells/music ( classical, not screaming teenagers:P) 7. Fire ( candles or real fire) 8. Knives:) ( I love weapons:P I love watching taichi with weapons from old school masters, you can see what exactly are they doing. And it has nothing to do with actual human fighting...But I think with the sword/fan/etc you are on the fastest route to chop off energetic crap from yourself.) Energy shield visualization is the weakest one ( i.e. golden light, spinning spheres, fires, etc). I find it to demand lots of effort and almost no result. This is of course all "low level" stuff. "Garden" variety. however, if you think you are a "hunted" by more serious spirits... perhaps you need to check on shamanic calling?... those won't leave you alone with bells and water...you either die or you Die... great choices....

I'd like to think about it from Krishna's words: just meditate, even if it is 5 seconds in your total lifetime, it will be added to your "collector bill" and eventually you will get there... "On this path no effort is wasted, nor is there any danger of adverse effects. Even a little practice of this Yoga protects one from great fear." Bhagavad Gita: Chapter 2, Verse 40

wow, yes, yes and yes to all points. thank you for sharing! Yes, on personal level I can relate to your experiences. I usually draw a Tarot card on yes/no to confirm my suspicion if somebody just "randomly" walks in to my thoughts out of the blue and I get weird intense stuff. I guess in order to see it between two other people, you have to be in the field of those two to see what is going on.

So I was doing qigong in my class and I see a black blob attached to my fellow student's back above his right kidney. He was acting kind of weird and was telling weird stuff. I told my teacher what I see and I think he took care about it, as guy later kind of calmed down. But this is HIS own(?) thought form, not a psychic attack? I think psychic attack is mostly weird headache and third eye heaviness? But how can you see it in other people? Lots of weird stuff kitty sees...

Let's say you have a client, whom you suspect to be under psychic attack. Of course you will start digging in, what happened, when, what are the feelings, etc. Usually people will reference standard DSM-V issues, such as fears, paranoia, etc. I am just wondering how it can be perceived by a doctor from a "vision" perspective. I have "seen" things on people ( black blobs attached to external of their bodies, i.e. not inside the organs, that's different). I have "seen" black blobs on the perimeter of my aura ( 1.5 meter), but I shush them away if they try to "come in" or simply observe them and let them be, but not interact ( I was told so by my teacher, as if there is no attack, no need to attack them; but you know curious cats, right:P). But it seems black blobs to be a "thought" forms vs psychic attack? Just wondering how other people feel/see/perceive it from an experience ( i.e. not book theory).

like a pulsing ectoplasm octopi perhaps? ( energy level of course, not physical)