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Hi there... I am not familiar with FFM, but this phrase made me want to ask you a question... Do you have any reason to believe you might need to work with professional therapist about your psychological traumas ( possibly childhood ones)? Have you ever hear about "soul loss" term as relates to trauma? Perhaps you could google some of the terms and see if it is fitting. Qigongs are aimed to clear and nourish and tonify the body, but sometimes, one could be "allergic" to qigongs until the emotional/energy trauma is healed ( i.e. energy knot is untied). Your herbologist is probably already giving your herbs for kidneys. Perhaps you even have a paste which is healing ( vitiligo is my first guess, but eczema is a second one), so if all those treatments for some time did not work ( and they should), it is possible you need to look at "stronger" methods... purrrrrrrrr.... p.s. this is not a professional medical advice... just a random internet cat mumbling...

references please

Interesting... Well, somebody here referred to a book "Entering the Circle". ( https://www.amazon.com/Entering-Circle-Siberian-Discovered-Psychiatrist/dp/0062514172) .I bought it and read it and the second book. I see a lot of similarities with the medical qigong healing techniques, but obviously they are referring not to Daoism, but to some "hidden lands" somewhere North. Thus, the question, are they actually talking about real place and real humans ( beings). Starjumper, what you wrote in a quote is actually very similar to the myths the shrink is talking in the book about. As some old race who is capable of mental magic ( vs techno advances)... Interesting... Anybody has more books ( even if it is a sci-fi) on a subject?

So really, there is no mention of a hidden city in any Daoist scriptures? Then how come Shambala is in Tibetan Buddhism? They do have to have some cross references....?

I mean, really. There is gotta be a story about Shiny City? Shangri-la version?

Meow... I bet someone around here knows few people who make jewelry. I am looking to a custom order necklace. The person to make it has to have clean energy ( i.e. no drugs, crazy sh&t, etc), preferably from good family... The material I am looking for is meteorite. Preferably of asian origins ( not south america)... If you know one, please share their etsy/websites/etc. p.s. yes, jewelry will be used in Cats Invasion of the Earth!

@Nungali, thank you. I will sit with it. meow

hm....Gendao, perhaps you are talking to yourself on this one. If you do not understand how cards work ( it's just a tool/gateway to your subconsciousness), perhaps you might get some tutoring around here. Fantasies? Imagination? There are plenty escapes from Acquired Mind. You need to know the roads. You either brainwash ladies into dark sex stuff or you have no clue what the system allows them ( men) to do. It is easier to turn me into a victim ( and Sifu told me the moment I start playing victim it's over) from your limited worldview vs. trying to understand what would woman who was a subject to "not so nice energy stuff" feel. You want me to deny those experiences and feelings, to link it to "real ordinary" world. But there is no place for those "taoist sexual practices" in your "real ordinary world"... just read this forum on semen retention... how crazy they ( males) get after some time... and as a girl I do "feel" all their frustration...part of the yin-yang system... and their brains ( because THEIR MIND is limited to their dick) are generating what I call CRAP. Have you ever wondered how do you look energetically when your dick is "driving"? I don't eat that crap. I know some do, but I prefer my energy food be many grades of a higher vibration...If you always ate crap, you would never know about real food. /************************/ meow... perhaps it's time for you to ponder on this one:

hm... I better go do something else... That's enough of digging in crap for the day...

I know that everything that was happening to me was "way off" and nobody would believe me. For example, when I told yoga studio owner about what this guy was doing ( he was teaching at her place), she told me not to come there. When I read Lindsey's book, it was very eye opening. As not only guy was doing things by "the book", but he was also trapped into that "crappy energy" which I could not handle. I understand lots of people are hang up on "physical sex" part of tantra, but from my personal experience I can say that it is possible to never have physical sex with the guy and still be used as an "energetic" object. Of course, one has to be highly trained in this. I bolded the things the guy I am talking about is doing. Sifu told me guy did it with multiple women and I should be greatfull I kind of got "easy" out. Mentally ( and humanly) I forgave him long time ago, but when I get to energy work and such, my dragons are so enraged. ( and as Starjumper can probably attest from his experience, I have no control over those creatures, they are pissed off and they want revenge)... ... and I know only 0.01% of people who read this will understand what I am talking about. That "fairytales" and "myths" are not so much far from reality and some people do catch naive cats... oh well... lesson learned... all d*cks will be castrated on the spot ( unless you were given a secret password:p)

that's encouraging... I was waiting for a big fat NO. ( like death or tower)... p.s. Don't get me wrong. I do a lot of work to do "true healing", it's just no fair I can't do fun stuff and have to do this first and things are going very shitty. Like today, after my attempt for "love and kindness" I got so depressed, like scary depressed, like suicadal depressed, so much crappy heavy energy, so much "heaviness", could not even sit for meditation ( I had to lay down) and I felt asleep because I was exhausted. And when I woke up, I could not see anything, my vision was so blurry, I could not even read text on my screen. I was like, "hm... maybe I need help ASAP", but then, since I am aware of my mental and energy states all the time, I know that the trigger was this event this morning. Only I am not sure if all this crap is mine, or I pulled it from the guy in my attempt for "love and kindness". He would not even know ( I assume) I get this crap. And then, when I go as I was taught to "bring me more" ( i.e. if it gets painful enough, you just ask for more and "use water to distinguish the fire"), it disappears ( very weird depression...) I cannot get to root cause of it (i.e. "mommy did not buy me a barbie" issues are simply not there)... The guy did ( does?) some black magic stuff. Like "let's go to Vatican and open Hell gates" stuff. People who know him ( my Sifu does know him), told me ( too late) that there is so much darkness in this guy, it's not possible to help him. Sifu tries to be neutral in this, but the guy had some ( black magic) runs with him as well ( way before me). I am a naive fluffy kitty and I believe in goodness in the world and deep deep inside there is a little hope that all this sh&t is my imagination, and the guy is actually a good guy.... But that's not what I am hearing from people who knew him way before me... I just don't like being used as tantra battery in those "esoteric daoist sexual practices"...I think it is a very fair request...anyways... where is my ninja outfit.... gotta go get some swords out... to turn it to wands....

it does not matter, as Sifu says "until you sort it out,t here always be another one like that " ( I do have a talent to run into this kind of guys - don't even know how to call them? tantra maniacs? none of the usual boy-girl stuff... but lots of energy fighting...) What matters is for me to sort the emotions. I could write about how bad he is and blah bla blah, but it ain't gonna help me with anything.

did not think about it that way... I don't want to change him I don't even know him for that matter, so what is there to change? I just want that anger of ( energetic rape) to be gone. I was told to send love. Obviously ain't working... Oh well...My benefit is that 1) I am free from anger 2) Control emotions and 3) Get more training... Nowhere that guy is in the picture...

oh, I always do... that "supreme tantric goddess cat" always wins my human side... it's pointless to argue with her... she knows everything...

exactly... okay, my experimentations with "Love and Kindness" obviously do not work the intended way... How about I just "heal the whole universe" instead? By definition, if something is a subset of a set, it will be impacted ( have properties) or it as well. Thus, as everybody is part of the universe, I can technically send "love and light" and not have to deal with him at the individual level...

.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .... shit shit shit.... .... kitty is MAAAADDDD ... so like Sifu said... disperse darkness with light.... so here I am this morning.... after nice qigong in the park and meditation... doing "send love" stuff to the guy... I get the "feed" back... I am trying to hold it at the heart level...but his energy gets it all down there... I am like... dude... I am kind of hating you... and trying to do "love and light"... not to engage in tantric sex with you.... and so 15 min later I get full blown "I like your energy" energy "call"... and here it goes again ( full blown rage as why are you raping me without even asking me?) ... it never gonna work... ... I hate the guy originally for doing this tantric sh&t to me without a consent... and now I cannot get out of this situation, because all my "love and light" gets exactly to the point of what he wanted in the first place and that's what I am resentful for... like seriously people... aren't there are an easier way to have sex?...it's not like I can modify his brain to think at the "higher love and forgiveness" and not "dick level thoughts"... I am outa of here... It will never work... MEOWWWWWWWWWWWWW p.s. can anybody highjack his mindstream please ? without making it a group sex please? I have a business call right now.

hm... still two swords in the picture... even with monk's outfit... obviously my subconsciousness is trying to tell me something... here is what Sifu wrote to me... I've been sitting with it for a while, and I know what he means for some of it.... but some... any takers to decode? ( bolded stuff by me. As those things I am trying to "implement in real life")

nice outfit ( cannot get rid of my animal nature.... Pos are running wild...)

Institute of Dalai Lama and tulkus is built on this.... I have heard they found a reincarnation ( of a powerful tulku) in Minnesota.... But I doubt they go around switching bodies with "friend Bob" for fun...

that's the attitude I love. Experimentation! You go, boy ( or girl)! Please report back with detailed notes. We are all listening very carefully. p.s. I should not be encouraging such behaviors, as it is extremely dangerous and most likely result in permanent mental instability... ( disclaimer for the Divine and Sifu)

I think back in a day there were plenty of cat astronomers... not sure what happened though... got lazy perhaps?