Sublimation

Thanks guys I actually try to eat Paleo. I will mostly eat grass fed meat I also usw this kind of butter f.i. I think my diet is ok at the moment though I tried a lot in my past. I was raised as an omnivore and became a vegetarian around 16. When I got 17 I moved to veganism and now for around one year I am back to meat but try Paleo at the moment Thanks so much for your comments folks!

Thanks again for your answer Stosh 1) You are right, I think your question is a good one. What can a teaching help. I think I gave up already that anything will ever change my views on the world. I am not a spiritual person really though I like Meditation f.i. I am not into Metaphysics at all. I think that some things, like Qi Gong or talking to other sensitive people can help me a little bit in my everyday tasks. My view on the world won't change, and my whole philosphy neither. So I think it can only help me to make my everyday easier. 2) I can take an advice of course, if it makes sense for me. I will try different things like I said. I am a rational person, but some things worked for me like Qi Gong, and that is a thing that is not understandable rationally at all in my opinion. 3) Drugs didn't work for a long time. Only for very short times like a month or 2. But these were the longest lasting times. 4) I am not depressed or anxious every minute of my life. If that was the case I would have already killed myself probably. There are days where nothing is easy and some other days are better. I even can go running then or enjoy the company of other people. I also make music with a band f.i. Thanks for discussing

Hey Stosh! Thanks for your answers I am not depressed for a reason. It is mostly an issue with Serotonin/Dopamin in the brain. It is a disease that is found a lot in my family. So I guess genetics is a huge part of it.

Homosexuality is found in a lot of other species, not only humanity. So your theories don't proof anything in my opinion. To think that only hetero people are living healthy is quite dangerous in my eyes. It leads to fascism and a lot of buddhist/zen/daoist thinking is like that. fascists thoughts because of a view on the world thats purely biased by mysticism. A lot of this Yin/Yang talk is not really balanced like they want us to believe. You should give U.G. Krishnamurti a read if you have time. He confronts a lot of the holy men and sharlatans from the east and they are talking like you. It is not meant as an offense but your ideology is harming a lot of people.

Thank you for your comments! I don't know what Vesak Day is but I will check it out. I actually do not believe in a certain religion or a divine beeing. I started reading a lot of spiritual books about buddhism/taoism when I got 16 and stopped around 22. I got more and more into Marxism because it helped me to understand the world better. I still enjoy Taoist thoughts or things like Taiji/Qi Gong. I am not really sure if I can overcome depression because it started already as a kid. I also suffer from ADHD and have problems to concentrate or sleep most of the time. I try a lot nowadays to make it bearable for me. I took a lot of pills the past year whic neverreally helped. I stopped but it didn't change anything. I really can't say why I am sad. It just feels like waking up is really a huge task for me to do. I sometimes need 2-3 hours to get out of bed. It feels like there is something heavy sitting on me and dragging me down. I feel lonely even when I am around other people. I did think a lot about suicide because I am so afraid of the future and how to cope with my life. I am never longer than a year in a job and when I am doing a job I just feel bad also. If you could explain me a bit about your background and what you think could help me, I will appreciate that