Abzu

ive been focusing on dissolving ego. I can feel myself in layers. I got the golden light to manifest briefly recently, and as it appeared, I saw a holographic tunnel, which I have seen a few times. now, If I relax right, and relax all of my self into one, I can see with my eyes closed very quickly. sometimes on a screen. before, I would get this black dot with my eyes closed. it has become an oval standing on its ends, which I am able to see through, and get a glimpse of something I cannot make out. very bright light is coming through it. I am just wondering if there is procedure I should be following, or if I am mostly doing things right already.

I will say this also. the problem with having any ego at all is that It is nothing more than made up parameters you impose on yourself. even the way in which you cultivate is affected by this. if it is done by adherence to a structure you made up, then it will only fulfill that path. (i am this, i am not this. if you think like this, you will breath in this way also.) effective from my pov is the quickest and most powerful reorganization of internal information.

hm. pre-natal qi: I (as a definitive set of variables) > manifest I:a (a subset of myself) , through ___ (birth, transaction of life, conception), in _______ (environment) > manifest I:b (a subset of myself) , through ___ (birth, transaction of life, conception), in _______ (environment) > manifest I:c (a subset of myself) , through ___ (birth, transaction of life, conception), in _______ (environment) ia l l ib-------------( I ) \------------------------------ic ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- post natal qi: I:a (a subset of myself) After transaction of birth, in __________ >carry out functions in ___________ ------------------------------------------ we are at ( I )/pre natal qi, but we are reading this through Ia/post natal ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- so when you're sitting down, running microcosmic orbit, if you're pushing the same breath up the spine, and down the front of the body, what is sitting inside the body, the prenatal, never gets touched. this effectively would mean, I am acting as prenatal qi, watching postnatal qi push itself around in orbit. so I can sit and not think, or ignore thoughts, or destroy thoughts, any of these 3, and continue to move the surface layer of energy up the back and down the front. every time, these thoughts will stack in the order they are interpreted, showing their meaninglessness this refines the post natal qi, and also whatever the post natal qi drags into its sphere of attention, and refines this also by default but in doing this, the prenatal qi, which is simply watching and even administering to the post natal qi, is untouched by this process. so this process must only be valuable to the post natal qi, and amusing at best to the prenatal qi. if however, I go inside, to the prenatal qi, I find it is always the same. it is never different than how it was before. it was only the post natal qi that changes. so it is both as pointless for the post natal qi to spin and speed itself up, as it is for the post natal qi to return to the prenatal qi except - when the post natal qi is occupied in spinning itself in mco it creates more of itself and in the same way, when the post natal qi returns to the prenatal qi, it formats back to it, as it is stronger and better in all ways. so then, the solution must be to allow the post natal qi to dissipate entirely not hold or return to the pre natal qi, as this creates a loop, but allow it to move, so to be open from within and pouring out, so that it may spread through the self, and AROUND the post natal qi, and PRESS it back firmer around the core ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- likewise, it is pointless to send the shen down the front of the head , and it Is much more effective to allow it to stay in the head. you might say, if I allow the shen to stay in the head, how will I keep the head cool? this is simple. if the shen is not moved from the head, the core will pull in enough of the excess to allow it to settle. so it is not the shen that needs to be cleansed and sent down, as the shen is a copy of the core of the dantian. it is the excess that rose with the shen, that must be pulled back down and compiled. the dantian is always the same dantian, so you do not need to send it back down. you need only deliver the dantian to the gate, and allow the lower dantian to pull in and regroup the fuel that brought it up …. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ running a continuous loop of cycling jing/chi/shen is going to consumer many resources and work slowly' jing(10)->chi(9)->shen(8) ; jing(9)->chi(8)->shen(7) ; jing(8)…... this is the implied mco ^^^^^^^^^ jing(10)->chi(9)->shen(8) jing(0)<-Chi(0)<-shen(8) jing(0)<-chi(1)<-shen(8) jing(_00)<-chi(.5)<-shen(8) jing(99)->chi(3)->shen(9) this is energy efficient .^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ likely this will pull some shen down the back of the neck on the exhale. this make sense to anyone? in tandem with this, pausing the inhale and holding EVERYTHING in place seems to work wonders,

Jesus said, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me”jesus said 1:i am - the way, the truth, and the life 2: no one comes to the father, except through me ; all things can be an idol, including English words allegory is beautiful ; there is a stark difference between following the way, and riding on the backs of idols

not the worst experience. actually, can be helpful in earthing to eat and tap into things you may have forgotten about

^ a lot of this. easier to clean without direct intention

i'd say this is very likely. this is why I mentioned the qi earlier. it's been set up as a streamline manipulation of qi utilizing people's subconscious. we're animals but most of the population is - not there, simply, and they are suffering for it. and spreading it around. we need more sun gods and less sun god worshippers. which is why breaking through these things is imperative. I garner they wanted us all to be "sticky" close but not too close,creates a sort of magnetic propulsion. the senses, they cannot fool. the nervous system knows. instead of basking in the light of the tao, they want people pulling on the grass and the cloth. remove the hands from the cold, and they will return to the warmth.

this sounds very healthy. it's a big piece I've been beginning to work through and see for what it really is, bar historical events.

YES! the sun god. I must watch this

inspirational precisely because it is an image of what the tao creeping through the closed door looks like

he says "I am god," and I am the way, but never that that which is not him is not also the way manipulative, yet artistic

although I am finding much value in the teachings itself. treating his individual words with the same discernment you would treat any other master of the way. hidden in the subtlety this for example: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.breaks the entire manipulated western lens, and would afford one their right to the way on their own terms, or it's own terms and the conflation with "the father" and immortality. applied for a sense of urgency, but wholly unnecessary

fantastic, and good find; thank you

the problem however, in the established construct stemming from manipulation of the way, are self evident, and reveal themselves with time

3 wise men - other masters. students of astrology at the least. giving their blessing to the work.

jesus basically said - these other teachers you've been listening to are idiots peter shared one vision and made everything clean to a group of people the entire old testament was the poison 10/10 long term koan

the blood of Christ, a transmission of qi that it is shed is not what is important the qi of Christ - exceptionally clean the qi of the eucharist ritual - dependent on the area in which it is performed

from what is in the text, it would appear as jesus merely showed his area a purer form of the tao. amazing what this has been conflated with

where is the ground? you are always on the ground, unless you are flying. would you ground to the plane? you do naturally if you are already grounded, why ground twice? what else is there to ground to? there is grounding, in an electrical sense, and there is holding on to what you see as the ground

amazing quote

yes to shield yourself from it through any lens is a waste of what is there

the only good way to cultivate is to not this requires no effort

what im moving towards now is trying to truly discontinue all motion, including the drive to cultivate or refine chi and thought

excellent information, thank you

yea that's what I'm getting at. it messed with me because I fell for the bait. then I thought it was hilarious afterwords. +1 tech to my toolbox regardless and lesson learned.