Phantalor

Hmm, seems to me like you seem to use your "outlet" to cope with the things you see or want to see and that you try to erase it from your mind or get results for whatever system you try to dabble in. Well not that i may judge, as im somewhat insane myself, but i am still clear in my insanity, which allows sometimes to see things more clear. But as for the things you see and feel, i for myself would recommend you to try to let it flow, as you may lose things you may very well loose forever. (as similar said by @blissdao9) Sorry if i offend you, but going by what you wrote up to now, i see you as someone who either has the eyes to see Chi, or as someone who wants to have them and get powers fast. First one would be a gift by nature to you, the second one is at least in my opinion the way to stray from the way as far as possible, which may also represent and cause your disorder. (sorry if it is offensive for you but i like to dabble in psychology, and this is what i read from you) Anyway, it doesnt matter which of the two you are, everything has a order, which should only be broken if you know what you do, especially energywork, which you seemingly did not (which may be the case for me too, but also for your disorder too). But you can not learn how to drive on a trycicle and then expect to be able to drive a porsche. So if you can see chi, i would recommend to try to "synchronize" your eyes witrh your feeling and mind. As a fracture of all of these can create your "condition". I would recommend you: Don´t start with energywork, as this will strengthen this fracture, as you already seem to have experienced. Start by meditating and breathing exercises, maybe use the basic balancing Qigong described in some works, for example Daimo mitchells (edit: scrap daimo ... there was one good work on zang zhuang afair ... forgot the names, try that one) . And really try to hold onto an outline without pressing for results, as this will be more damaging than useful. Meditation may also be a good way to start, coupled with sports like yoga, pilates or rolfing. Energywork has not to start with the big guns, it will grow onto one if one is concious of what he does and begins to have clear intentions behind his actions. But the main thing and in my opinion the most important one is to be completely in synch with yourself! Edit: Anyways teh Quokka is going to get a cake and coffe now....

May i have Access too?... Just want some News and thoughts that are less biased... I hope

Well, this whole topic, also hast a cause in working structure... looking at Germany at least here the working people have neither time nor the drive anymore(at least in working days). And thanks to COVID many are full of fears towards other people, so they isolate socially. Whereas the other people glue themselves to the streets or want to be "the last generation"(pun intended) Edit: Also what is wrong with being a virgin? At least energetically seen?

The promises of the text aside, calming really good and up to now No negative vibes/toughts/energies sensed like some claim https://youtu.be/PHjBiHYR-sM

https://youtu.be/4wyOy3ws8cY

Well it is more of a random Blog, but i write sometimes in it, and maybe somebody is interested and can read german. https://phantalorbloggt.blogspot.com/?m=1 If there is a wish to change some articles to english it is doable but takes time. And yeah it is kind of a lazy site.

https://youtu.be/K7ZqZVunCb4

Just as a Question, for ones that were offline a long time and missed the chance... (about 1 Year or so for me??) is there the possibility to get some of the "base" informations of these Seminars somewhere like on Patreon or Gumroad in a comprehensive printed (digital) form. I would have loved to attend the seminar, but due to this pandemic with endemic tendencies the work shedule for medical personel is such a mess, that there is hardly any time to go further into practices, without the danger to loose my job... So it would be much appreciated to get a way to acces some of the Information, up to a level where there can be no self harm of course. I know words loose out in comprehensiveness to meetings, but every tiny bit of a possibility for new knowledge would be appreciated.

Well, you certainly cant kill a person by hooking it up a respirator, as i was required while in university to be hooked up to a respirator for practical lessons, i can assure you, as long as it is not a self made one, but a certified one, there should be no problem at all. More of a problem is, that hooking up patients to the respirator is in some cases prooven to be of no help at all, as in the really heavy cases of infection the microcirculation of the lungs is affected, so even if you are hooked up to a respirator you don´t get enough O2 and suffocate to death.

Not only on the WHO ... i would even extend it to Governments, that pose themselves as opposing China ... Looking at Germany .. we are extremly dependent on China and politicians don´t even see a need to Change that Most apparent it became with the actual crisis, as instead of founding local manufacturers to produce facemasks, they were in bulk bought from China, as some of these masks were recommendet by the WHO additionally some conflict nearly started, because China gave the mask shipment our gvnmt paid for to the USA instead, and insted of recinding the paimend and getting the masks elsewhere our politicians waited paitently and crouched before the chinese to get the masks 4 Weeks later than promised. And it is worse to the US, instead of founding local manufactureres China is pressed through political means, to ensure production ... that is not how you change an autoritan regime ... tat is how you strengthen it.

Interesting read, albeit a bit heavy it gives some key points that lead to some later Problems ... sadly i have to use the words like Influenza So basically they confirm: 1. The Spike Proteins of the Virus mutate, even with only one Vector (the infected pets are not counted in), so the infectability of the virus has already increased and may theoretically get stronger over time or find other Hosts/Vectors 2. You can be infected with both Virus strains simultanious, but unbeknownst 3. The Virus RNA can be exchanged between strains, which may lead to more diverse kinds of this virus Which leads to some Problems similar to Influenza: 1. There may be no "the Vaccine" as multible strains are and potentially will be in existance 2. The Vaccine most likely has to be heavy in Adjuvances, which may! make it also more detrimental to health 3. Developement of a vaccine will take longer as mutations have to be counted in Thanks for the article, it was an interesting read ... btw. at the moment elesvier and pubmed and some others let you access publications about Virus related themes for free ... js