Tidao

Wow. This experience seems to be like mine. It is tough one. It is not easy to face that kind of people. I almost die from this. I think will not help simple methods, they are evil people. It is possible that they went on a wrong path and need energy from other people. This experience bring me to find qi gong and taoism, even prayer, hard to admit-it-i used to be an atheist. I read a book, who i find very usefull for this subject- The anathomy of evil in our times, by Adam Michaelis, an antroposophist. You may find an explanation for this kind of behavior, for the perils of many so called spiritual paths, in this era of "new age bullshit". I dont think the problem is yours, but him's. This book seems to be hard to read, maybe too christian biassed, but it is rewarding one as informations who provides in relation with "evil". Also, i think may be will be usefull to go on therapy with a person who knows this sort of phenomena.

Thank you For the moment i am interested in internal alchemy, after some negative and tough experiences. A ”guru”, which i discovered later that he was involved in a hideous tantric sect, made saktipata to me, without my consent, in 2009. I felt some kind of energy, or pressure in the forehead area who goes to the top of the head, in an arranged situation by him, some kind of ceremony. 5 years ago i collapsed, i experienced a psychical break down: psychical numbness, depression, a kind of dissociation from my body, most felt in relation with some difficult people. Now I practice a form of qi gong, wuji gong, and try to find proper methods to practice internal alchemy. At the beginning, I read some Mantak Chia, but feels hard to fallow his theories and methods, some Michael Winn, Taoist yoga (...correction ...) by Charls Luke which i found to be very interesting, ( i like that book, but i think it is a little more cryiptic )

Hello and thank you for the acceptance My english is not so good for proper exposing of my experience, but i will try to wr