welkin

No. It's the idea of nearly being out the door. Let me retract the idea that most are this way. It's definitely not above 80%. I don't want to make the mistake of joining idiotic war I see between people of young age and older age. Anytime I hear, "they all think this, they all act" from either side, i already know it comes from the limited perspective of what phase each one is in their life. I have nothing against people who are older than me, especially those whom are near granparenting age. I associate or understand them more than those of mid age.

As for Sir Grey, it just recently became apparent me what is the cause of his acting or behavior. Ironically, it's a reaction to those whom guide him. the problem is his subconscious decides to take it out on all others who aren't forced to go through the same trials of criticism and molding he went or goes through. It stems back to what i said earlier, not being able to simply just 'be'. What he's being taught as being is rigid and influenced by much more than just being. If the lessons or teachings being influenced upon him were true to its core, he wouldn't feel the need to feel resentful (something that would never be admitted to) towards others. Case closed

I've pondered the idea of old age for the past couple of days. It seems that I may have observed and blamed lack of consciousness, when in reality it may very well the inevitability of something else that comes with old age. Something that begins to be expressed in many different facets. I don't believe this to be the case for everyone who gets to that point, but i'd say it is the case for most. And so i decided to stop criticizing that which may be inevitable for most out of respect.

I even dropped the hint. Do you really think it takes a genius to know how you were going to respond. You took the bait... I already have you figured out, many of you at that. I could speak to "you" without having to actually speak to you because i know everything you'd respond with according to anything I say. I'm not trying to be condescending, i'm just being honest. Do you not think that's what happened in the mona lisa thread? Every potential response was obvious, so i just played it to my advantage just as you all believe you do unto others. Fair play. I didn't report anyone. I'm actually curious who reported Mr. Grey. It means some people do have common sense. Also the mods themselves reached out to me and warned me, so stop crying about how it's one sided So you're basically saying i'm harmful, being opposite of benign right? That's been your sense of judgement from the beginning. I don't think anyone would agree with you in saying i'm harmful. It takes poor judgment to reach for that conclusion.

I even gave you the opportunity to say anything else. ANYTHING... Made it straight in your face obvious what your response would be. You didn't even think to question what your automatic response did you? As expected. SMH

Your mind is already made up. I already know every answer you would give no matter what is said for the next 3 responses in order. So i respectfully refuse to answer. And I already know how you're going to respond to this one. Ironically, your second request just got answered.

No points actually made or spoken to. Only a pointless game being played in their own mind that never translates into reality. Stuck in the mind of theatre.

There is blame for the moderators, yet no responsibility taken for yourselves as a community. It doesn't take a genius to see that certain acts are wrong and harmful. And if you don't see that, then the level of perspective is way too low. Without the moderators, the community would sink itself into the ground, not because there is a lack of moderators, but because the community has proved that they can't hold themselves accountable for what they allow to occur within it. Through lack of voicing any opinion against others' wrong acts. I haven't seen Earl Grey's posts on threads elsewhere, only my own. So i can't comment on those. Personally, i don't think he needs to get suspended based of my interactions with him. Whether he's getting banned mostly for other threads, that's out of my hands. When people say that the community looks like a representation of the much bigger world, yeah i would say that's accurate. And yet why is that even an accepted observation. How can it be that community for the purpose of development and cultivation is a reflection of the supposed outside less developed world. That means there's very little difference between the two at the end of the day. It proves knowledge itself does not mean development or consciousness, or that one's own peace without caring the peace of another is enough to create a stronger maybe never before seen community. There are moments where we should care for more than just ourselves, that to create peace you sometimes need to break your own perceived idea of peace, which may not even be actual peace in the first place. But of mix of greed and something else. Blaming authority as to why certain people are suspended or jailed, etc. Instead of calling out what's wrong, keeping eachother accountable in the first place is exactly what goes on everywhere else. Taught to rely on a specific authority role instead of putting the responsibility on ourselves. I say bring Earl Grey back or at least cut the ban much shorter. Pardon him with the agreement of the community realizing it's condoning that behavior in the first place and the reason for the ban. Next time it happens, there should be no reason to doubt for the suspension and the community should just blame themselves. And if they don't they don't think they're condoning anything wrong, then man.. there's a lot to say about what's justified around here. Why do i defend in Earl Grey coming back? Because at the end of the day i know those actions have rooted reasons that he may not be aware of. Just as i have my own. We're all to blame than just he or the moderators. The idea that each person is responsible for their own actions is false. It's funny how there is a preaching of how we're all one, yet on the basis of how we act we just say each is responsible for themselves. Yet there is so much influence created upon eachother just based on interactions, hierarchy, friendships, society, etc. I also defend him because i know that not even so deep down, he's not a bad person. He has helped me when i needed it. Whether or not he or other people have hidden agendas here is another thing. Those agendas will be met by their own consequence. But if one looks for the positive while trying to avoid being cynical, then forgiveness is possible here. 60 days is a long time. And just as others have stated. For some, the community is a very important part of their lives. I say bring him back, and next time it happens there should no question about the consequence. As it should be realized at that point that it is only in the communities best interest.

The Mona Lisa bares a line mark under her lower lip that looks like a scar. Theorists and researchers believe it is a scar create from a blow to the mouth possibly explaining her smile (i don't believe that). A few months ago I was led to the smile, ultimately being able to find the mark using a big image that happened to be on wikipedia. I have that same mark or birthmark, which seems i was born with. I recently contacted Martin Kemp, possibly the most renowned researcher on Da Vinci's paintings. He dismissed any significance of the mark stating that Da Vinci wouldn't paint that imperfection, and was most likely caused by accidents down the line. I don't believe that, because that line is coincidentally shown on the Virgin Mary in that same spot in the Annunciation painting. I have also found that mark in other paintings but on different areas since. Whether or not i have any past life connection to any of it, i still don't know. But it seems i was led to discover something in connection to da vinci and his paintings. And it seems I'm able to decipher many things from the paintings, even if only little by little. There is of course much more info that i've derived from all the research and deciphering, but at the end of the day they mean nothing until further truths are learned. John the Baptist is a very important figure here, mona lisa possibly representing him. The knight's templars seemed to have believed John to be the true Messiah over Jesus, and Da Vinci may have been connected to them. The only reason I believe i have connection to this is because i was led to find that mark. I'm not sure why, but i got insight into egypt and tutankhamun. If there's any truth to it, there's probably no one who would better understand that connection and the reasons than myself. That being said, do any of you have any insight into the purpose of discovering these coincidences. The automatic answer from mostly anyone would be to not make much of it. How can I not though? I've also considered the idea that spirit may have set up these premises for me, with no real connection to any of it, but for the purpose of directing me in a certain direction. But there's just so many other coincidences that it becomes hard to ignore just how many connections I have. things such as dreams, hearing specific messages, birthdate, birth marks, perspectives, tendencies, habits, natural abilities, etc. Is there any more i can do to find truth? I feel burdened since birth

Well i'm not upset to be honest. I just want certain things brought to light that you keep hiding And of course you're hiding your intent, you don't want to ruin your reputation and status of how you appear to others. Whether what I sense is true or not, i'm not attached the necessity of agreement from you to believe what i say. I still stand firm in what I sense. It's not necessarily the idea of harm against me. It has more to do with what you need to fill. Of course there's intent, i'm proving it in my previous post. My previous response would prove what i'm saying now, as it provesthat your comment in regards to me and weed was indeed purposeful. And as i stated in my previous post, of course you saw it, otherwise you wouldn't have brought up that specific topic. Unless it's such a coincidence mr Grey brings it up and within the next minutes you do as well. Everything i'm saying is provable if one just reads the thread in chronological order. As I said it's something you felt you needed to do. It's okay, i don't blame YOU for it. However, It does seem that there's a need continue to throw passive aggressive comments with certain intent. Such as the above. "not particularly interesting for me" The point of that is to prove that you didn't read the previous posts? That's false of course you did, i'm proving it in everything i said. I don't need to 'take it or leave it' as i'm not in any way angry or attached to the outcome. I stand firm in what i know. Good on you for leaving it. no hard feelings between us honestly, at least from my perspective.

You can hide the fact that your accusation came from much more than what you believe you thought. It came from a subjective personal reason why you chose to say what you said. You can hide your intention all you want. I know you read the posts. You chose to act like i hadn't already mentioned my situation in regards to those things, they were even mentioned a few posts above. Not to mention where else would you get the idea of accusing me of that, if not from what you read that certain other individuals posted right above.

Lol. I'm definitely not lying or trying to be right. i'm being honest. But it's okay, continue with your life.

you say i'm predictable right. Do you realize that i gave you the benefit of the doubt in deleting what i was about to post. It went something like this "let me guess, you're going to say that i should've spoken about the time of which i stopped watching movies. Otherwise it can be considered as watching it recently." Unbelievable.. I know your entire pattern now. Like every possible thing you can respond with it. It's very very very patterned. Look, me saying that is going to hurt. I'm not trying to do that. i'm being honest in what i'm saying. My point is to show you that i'm not lying about things you should reflect on. whatever you do is your choice. Look at that, right after i wrote my last sentence, i already know what you'll respond with. and you will have changed it by the time i finish this, but will be predictable nonetheless.

Do you realize that movie came 8 years ago? You try so hard to discredit.

You read my response in that regard right. I haven't smoked in a very long time. I have no social media, don't watch movies. My phone which contains literally no apps, is usually off throughout the day unless i'm expecting a call. Typically watch educational videos, while doing practices and chores throughout the day. I'm assuming you knew about the weed stuff at least. Did you have an intention or purpose for having the need to include that? Especially the part about a friend? I have 0 friends who smoke weed fyi. Really didn't expect this from you.

i believe that the exact part that you quote says a lot about your intention and how it is decided that you perceive things. It's very selective. Not to mention, anyone who reads the phrase "think i'm better at that than 99% of people". What do you think automatically arises in their heads, that i'm simply just better than them. It's questionable for you believe that you can discern my ability to read people without knowing me or from observing an online thread.

Just amusement? As in not even a eeny teeny tiny bit of anything else. Come on man, that can't be true. Ok ok, i'm not good at reading people or self aware. I apologize if you see that in me. I actually disagree. I think i'm better at that than 99% of people. Maybe i just need to do a better job of showing it. I'll admit, many people have told me i don't sell myself very well.

I already took a step back. It seems that you should do the same. i can sense your anger

it's not me that's doing anything

There's something not right around all of this. If my spirit indeed comes from malice or negativity against me or others, i command it to do nothing. For i refuse that within myself. However, if it is full of love, justice, and righteousness, i give it the full freedom to do what it must to make things right and reveal truth, because it/I loves them. Don't let them run off and continue harming themselves. Stop them in their tracks and show them a better way

Ouch. Very defensive, and seems to be getting personal. For your information your entire first sentence has been false for a very long time now. Your purpose was to further discredit me right? Thanks for your courtesy, you're so thoughtful. You are hiding so much within your statement, yet revealing as well. Jesus

You know what, i'll accept not needing to be right about what i see or think. If you're that reassured about yourself about my statements being false, then more power to you. Truth evades no one. The 'thing' that guides me let me know to abandon the forum yesterday multiple times. I still haven't listened. But i'm beginning to realize why. The truth is so muddled in here and the entire forum. What a strange environment. I believe my intuition is very strong and has been my whole life. And i'm very analytical as well. I could point my finger at exactly what i see wrong. But since this is an online forum, i can easily just be made out to be wrong. So there's no point. It's just strange, very strange. Something's not right

The only reason you feel the need to point out this "wrong" idea of needing to feel special is your own mirror. Trust me, i identified it in of our first interactions a year back. You don't even realize what it is do you? It was the moment your former (or current) master Fa Xin showed a sort of acceptance or approval on me. This is what caused a shift in your attitude towards me. If you doubt that, why would i make it up? Whether it's jealousy or another thing, i'm not going to judge. But you have things to take care of. You don't need to keep doing what you still do. In fact, no one's talking to you right now, if you want to communicate later, that's fine.

I've questioned it many times over the past year, not because of suspicion, but more because of assurance. that is why i ask. There is a fear of it being a negative one. Is there a way to know what type of guidance i'm dealing with.

I'll take a step back and consider the things you said. I did drop my ego a while back. But that doesn't mean you can't be right in other aspects. Can you further explain why you are highly suspect of it.