Hey Guys
Thanks for setting up his site and sorry for. It posting earlier.
Being bipolar sucks for anyone wishing to pursue a spiritual path. I am prohibited from attending a Goenka Vipassana retreat. The Tantric Yoga course I attended last year gave me such a blissful experience that I feel compelled to pursue an energy-based approach, however, it catapulted me into a manic state that almost landed me in prison. (Yes I kept taking my meds)
Hence here I am at Tao Gardens after week 1 of the Innner Alchemy summer retreat believing that the Taoist path would be safe for me than the Tantric one.
Before arriving I have been practising the inner smile and six healing sounds. My long term aim was to eventually attend the Dark Room retreats and experience DMT/Fusion (not sure what Fusion means at this stage). Short term I wanted to accelerate my progress in developing the micro cosmic orbit.
Master Chia comes across as a rambling old man who cannot stay focused on a train of thought and continually mixes up the thymus and the thalamus. I have learned some techniques from him which are not in his books but mostly the experience has been frustrating. There are 40+ participants, MC is explaining/demonstrating/story-telling from the stage, randomly replaced by a UHT instructor. There are only 2 volunteer instructors assisting and they have hardly ever checked our performance of the forms on an individual basis.
His books all carry the warning: “Readers should not undertake the practice without receiving per- sonal transmission and training from a certified instructor of the Universal Tao, since certain of these practices, if done improperly, may cause injury or result in health problems.”
I have spent a fair amount of money to be here and I have a week to go. I do not feel I have received much greater “transmission” than would have achieved watching a YouTube video, although MC did step down from the stage once to check our sacrum wiggling and once to tap us on the head.
i expressed my concerns to a UHT instructor who told me that I would have to wait 10 years for initiation.
Any advice?