helpfuldemon

After having climbed through the grades as far as I can see, I find myself at a certain peace with the world. I still fear the pain of dying, and I worry about our world and the events of nature that debilitate us. I fear accidents and sickness just the same as anyone. I am not a Master of Magick, for I have abandoned that line of thinking. I have little Will towards anything, and I see little reason to do much.

Ever since I was a child I have had prophetic dreams. They stopped for awhile, but after I had a close encounter with the God that touched me, I have had them again. Sometimes my dreams appear meaningless, and sometimes they have a theme. Sometimes I think they are a manifestation of my mind, and other times there are elements and language that I do not know or use. I believe that whatever is going on in the supernatural realm occurs not in our daily lives, but in dream. I believe that the ultimate language and reality of the Gods is far beyond our deciphering. I also believe that we transcend the body at death and exist in dream states, especially if you have been chosen to participate in the business of the Gods.

I know there's another place. I've watched my dreams closely. While I believe it is possible for us to created whole landscapes, some of my dreams have themes that I couldn't have imagined myself.

We live in an imperfect world. We suffer disease, accidents, natural disasters, war, poverty, and ignorance. We are told to learn about ourselves, discover our Will and find our way. We ignore what is ugly to us and praise what is beautiful, forgetting many along the way. We do not regard this place as a world family. Our Father indeed! We are prone to weakness of body and spirit. And so the Jews devised a way to explain. This is a fallen world, one where Sin entered and we became vulnerable. Then we have Jesus, who knows of our ignorance and defends us against Gods wrath. We still have to contend with this world though, and this world is going to Satan (at least in the West).

I think its safe for you to practice, but be careful not to wake the Gods.

Mankind invents God. But how do we do so? We look to ourselves, and to the world. An accurate portrayal of God is who we are and what we do, and the environment of Nature, and what it does. We are God to one another, and how we act shows what we understand about God.

Why am I a Thelemite? Because I believe in Free Will, and I believe that all things have part to play in the drama of this devouring Universe. God is all of us, and therefor God is both Good, and Evil. I believe that Christianity is the greatest Good of Wisdom, but we are all human and often there have been failures to represent it. Should you be truly Christian, you would be considered wise and Good. Thelema honors all paths, and accepts that sometimes Evil is necessary, or accidentally indulged in, and I believe this is the Law of our reality, and I think Christ saw that too, which is why He preached forgiveness. Ultimately this world is chaotic, for how could it not be? There are so many beliefs, and we are not all on the same footing. I mourn for this place, for I once saw all of this as a thing of beauty, but now I see the suffering it causes us.

I dream a lot, and have always wondered what they mean in terms of a hereafter, or what their purpose is. Last night I dreamed a dream that made me realize, the purpose of life is to entertain the Gods with our souls in dream and in the world. We are all actors.

The Gods kill lovers.

I submit to the Law of Thelema. It is the truth of life that we begin with our Will, and do what we think is best. It is also true that Love is the uniting factor in life, and that we are all divided, but with Love, we come together and there is peace. I think that if we do not approach life with love and kindness, people become callous and cruel, or angry; for we expect respect and love, because that is what raised most of us. Love is the Law. Do What Thou Wilt is the first rule of philosophy, and Love is the Law is the last. Between Will and Love, there is action, and if we are in line with the rules of these, we will avoid much error. Thelema is the open air of truth in a world of restrained and often overlooked ideals that we often fail. I do love Christianity for its hope of their ideals being held, but life is not an ideal, life is Chaos, and things happen, emotions happen, complexities arise. We aren't always strong enough to live by their ideals, and that is why it is an untrue faith. Do What Thou Wilt is more honest in light of life, and I submit!

It's just a phrase that is meant to inspire. What I mean to say is that when we aren't treated with kindness and respect, we grow callous, and indifferent, or we get angry. Love as a general rule is a good habit to get into.

Unfortunately a meeting of the minds in way of convincing another person that your ideals is correct fails. People don't like change, and they don't like to be told their way is wrong, thus; WAR!

I don't understand how this became to be desired. Sure, it is peaceful and you don't cause any problems in the world, but is it really the best state to be in? I think desire is fine, and chasing your desire is the spice of life. Why do so many want to attain to nothingness and lack of ego? Is life so painful?

Chaos is the True Law, it is the center, and it is God. As Chaos expands, it finds order, and at the farthest/highest reaches of the Heavens, there is Order.

I know this may be a sensitive subject for some, but for those brave souls that want to share what extraordinary things they have experienced, please do so! I know I can't be the only one with stories.

I mean, what would be your Will after you found the Will to love? What is next? The Will to freedom? The Will to do? Could be, but if you master the Will to love, then you will always love, and so, it is the final revelation, in a sense.

The Will to love IS the final interpretation of life. There is no greater intention.

Love is the Law is a personal axiom. Of course it's not everyone's law, but if it were, imagine what a beautiful world we would have.

I don't mean to say to love intensely is the way to go. I mean that as we mature, we become emotionally intelligent, and love becomes kindness, and generosity. It isn't just being polite, either. To love is to be genuine, to listen, and to have compassion.

Yes, it is like limbo. It's Hell. I have to sit here with a blank mind or I feel agitated. I hate it but I don't want to do anything else either. I have no desires and I have no internal world, unless you count dreams. In dreams, I do a lot of things and see a lot of things, but in life, I do and see nothing.

The Gods work on deception. They are silent, invisible, and they do not reveal. Magic is unreliable and we do not know the result of what we do with it. We do not know the acts of the Gods. We cannot rely on these things! From my experience I can say that the only good prayer to the Gods is a thanks for mercy, for they do not have to be. We do not know what they do or why. Thank them for their mercy and let them be off to do what they do. Magic has a way of biting you in the ass, for if you have magic, then so too can someone else, and then you get into witch wars. Keeping track of your spell craft is annoying and pointless. If you desire something, then do something to acquire it! All you have to do is ask, don't be neurotic about it! I know that the magical life is appealing, trust me, I know. But it is madness I say! Do not let your Will go to waste! Face your fears and attain to your desires, it is as simple as asking.

Are they punishing you?

I was disrespectful. I didn't approach with love. I demanded favors. These Gods are perfect and won't be disrespected by inferior beings.

Be humble. Do not desire. Don't ask for favors. Be respectful. Honor the Gods with love.

The Devil is a symbol of freedom and desire, but also destruction and torture. Magic is all about desire, and therefor is the work of the Devil. Be careful you don't call on the destructive aspect.