helpfuldemon

Unfortunately for me, I have my own experience as evidence that there is a God, or some entity outside of apparent reality that has certain powers. It is still a mystery to me, and probably even more of a tragic idea to know that this world is unguided. If I had to say, I'd say that God is not omniscient, and that He probably is the creator, and that He likes this place as it is, with its animal law.

Well, first you have to suppose that a God exists, then you have to ask yourself, what kind of God is this to have created this world, if indeed He is the creator. It is possible that there is no creator, but that there still can be a God. In all of this crazy Universe with its complicated systems, you think there must be someone that organized it. It is hard to believe this all happened by chance. It is possible there are more than one God in the Universe, but I'm saying look at this place and imagine a creator behind it, the laws of the animal world would be His laws, no?

I think we live in an animal world, with animal law, and we have an animal God. This God approves of animal law for mankind. I think we are stretching things when we imagine that God is this or that, God is simply as an animal; killing for sport or food, doing things that might be cruel, playing at things and doing things for the sake of doing them. There is no higher God of reason or forgiveness. God can forgive, but maybe He doesn't want to.

I've never been one of the faithful. I imagined death when I was young and vanished for a minute. There was nothing, so I told myself that there is nothing to fear of death. I walked away from the Catholic Church before getting confirmed and I refused to go, I just didn't believe that it was the truth of the world. Sadly in my older years I realize that I was right, but that it is a goal to attain to try and bring that light into the world. The world is animal in nature, and people aren't always at the top of their game when it comes to doing the right thing. Also sad is that I became no better, doing things that I now find morally wrong. I didn't straighten out until I was 22, and even then I did a couple deeds that I am ashamed of. Still, I became a good person mostly, just had a couple kinks. Now I realize that God doesn't play by the rules, and I wonder if there are any in His eyes. I see the animal nature now more than ever, and I realize that life can be a struggle, and we all commit sin from weariness or anger, or foolishness. I wonder how God could police it all anyway? I can't say there is a Heaven or a Hell, but my dreams are not the most pleasant for me, and if there is any indication of where I might end up, it is in dream. My dreams aren't terrible, just not entirely favorable to me; it's no Heaven that I dream, but it's not a Hell either.

We live in an animal world. Like animals, we kill, we love, we fight. We have higher reasoning and more developed language, but we are still just animals. Like animals, we kill for sport and food. I focus on killing because that is the primary moral truth that holds in most people's minds. But yet, we kill, sometimes for pleasure or anger. I don't think this is frowned upon in the Divine God's realm of thinking. We probably just die when we die and there is no after place for us. Everything is what it is til it's gone, and its mostly meaningless unless you hold value to something. I wonder what the world would be like if we weren't told there is a Heaven, or that God has a morality? Would it be better? I feel that it would be more dangerous. I think there would be more nihilism and oppression. The strong would dominate the weak and life would hold less value to us.

I'm sorry you are depressed, I know how painful it can be. I really feel for anyone that is suffering from mental pain, or physical pain. It can be difficult to suffer long term. I don't feel like my life is a task from God, that is an interesting thing to think. It's funny how we validate a not-so-great life in the eyes of the Divine. I don't feel close to having a purpose for God. I feel that life is given to us and we make the most of it while we can and when we can't, we can't. Right now I can't.

I'm trying to see it this way. I feel that I may be too depressed though. It's been a long time since I've felt the joy of being alive.

Thanks, I never thought of it that way.

I have this subtle pain in me. I think it comes from a sadness that is brought on by realizing our mortality. It's not a great pain, but it is always there, and when I find myself not thinking about it, I feel that I need to remind myself of it because otherwise I'm not thinking properly. I feel like if I ignore the pain and the sadness that I am failing at being aware.

Yes, it can lead to compassion, but it can also lead to anger and hate.

THERE IS NOTHING VIRTUOUS NOR NOBLE IN SUFFERING! It merely eats away at your strength and leaves you destitute! If suffering were virtuous then causing suffering would be good, and causing suffering is NOT GOOD, it is EVIL.

Sometimes I dream as if I am watching myself go through the motions of the dream. Sometimes I am someone else. Usually the dream defies natural laws, but sometimes it's very straight on real.

Yes, beliefs. We all believe something, and I am posting what I have concluded.

I believe that we are animals, and that we want sensual things. I believe we do not immediately know how to act, or right from wrong. I believe it is in our natures to do wrong if it suits our animal impulses. I also believe that God gave us the mind to overcome these things. I believe that God knows better than us, and I believe that God wants us to succeed, even after all I have been through. I think the occult is a step back from the higher minded thought of other traditions, for they honor the animal and the sensual.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-_Q8znGMRg

Love is an illusion that only we feel, but it creates kindness, and passion, and loyalty.

I don't think God created good and evil, I think it is a manifestation of our existence that we have those things. It makes more sense to look at existence as a whole and wonder why it is this way than to say good and evil were created. Certainly, if I were to create a world for people to live in, I would ensure that it is the very best for all, that all were safe, and that our labors would be simple. This is why I don't think God created our world, because mind is capable of imagining a much better place for life to thrive. if there is a creator God then it is animal and wild in nature, and mind is something either from a different source or it is the evolution of the animal, and we are better than the animal God.

When I was younger I got a lot out of the tarot. I didn't know about the Tree of Life back then. I think if I had, I would have had a more successful life. Mostly I listened to music and painted what it inspired me to do. I don't have much use for the exercises of the GD, I like practical wisdom that deals with people. I can see how some of it led to sciences though. I went to college for art, so I didn't have much science. If I were to compare the GD with Thelema, Thelema would win hands down, but in retrospect I realize that Crowley's Magick is neurotic, though when you're starting out in life as a youth, you need a reason to take actions. As an adult I realize that you actually don't, you just act. I also realize that if you're fit and beautiful, things happen for you, and that part of being unnatractive is neurosis. Beauty, money, and an education are the important factors in a successful life in the West.

Not much. It was just a bunch of exercises, some with not very good explanations, and rituals which you need a temple to perform, and still, not much explanation of what you are doing. Plus the secrecy of the grades bothered me. I found little use for it in the end. The only take away was the ladder of grades, that was useful for seeing your progression through wisdom.

So if God intended to create certain things but in his creating, he made evil, wouldn't you say He is imperfect?

I could always chalk up my experience as me contacting the Devil. After all, I did say "You're not the God of love". So it could be the Devil, or it could be that I insulted God, and He is punishing me for it.

How can you say God isn't non-dual? In my dreams, good doesn't outweigh evil, and if they are any indication, He is.

I am skeptical as well. When this being said he was the Sephiroth, and that he was all that is, I thought he meant that he was the only thing in existence. Upon reflection, I think it was the message to research Qabalah, and to realize that the sum total of existence is God. I don't know if this is acknowledged by Kabbalists or not, but it makes sense to me. I imagine that at some time in our history a Divine Being gave us some wisdom, but that doesn't mean we have it today. It could be that all information is man made, but that doesn't mean this being fails to acknowledge what we created and used it as a message to me. As far as how these visions were received I'd like to think that it was like a digital image transposed on my vision. I also have dreams that I know I didn't create, and I wonder if we aren't all on some kind of super micro chip and these higher beings work with us, though I can't imagine what kind of life that would be. I suppose if you can be anything in a dream and interact with other creatures with no consequence to what you do, that it might be entertaining to live like that. I don't know where these beings reside, probably within every living being? I can attest that we are made up of more than what we see and know.

Because these were words I'd neither read nor heard.

Well it definitely wasn't a hallucination. When the angel lifted me up I heard "Chesed Chesed" and I had never heard the word Sephiorth or Aiwass before.