helpfuldemon

There is no protection against magick, either it influences you or it doesnt, it depends upon your makeup. If someones got a bead on you, its their perogative to make use of it or not, and your obligation to defend against their intention or not.

Well I no longer believe in Magick. I used to think that we emitted an energy field that interacted with one another. I used to believe in the power to influence and interact with each other on this plane. I used to think that we could speak with a sixth sense. I no longer believe in the miraculous, at least where mankind is concerned; what we feel, we feel only to ourselves. What we think is only thought by us.

I have very vivid dreams, often about high school classmates or celebrities. Many of my dreams are of a design that I don't believe I created. I think that we have partial control in our dreams, but that the theme and setting are put forth by other beings somehow.

Rubbish, rubbish

The movements of planets do not influence activity on Earth, and even if they did, there is no way we could know how to prove what they do.

Mankind is not above nature, not above human nature, or nature itself. We are subject to the actions of others, and the actions of nature. No amount of technology or spirituality will prevent these events. Children will always test wisdom, and nature will always cause catastrophe.

Certainly, like most creatures, animals know they can feel pain, but do you think they are aware of death?

Do you think animals know they are mortal?

The unexamined life is a blessed life, for who wants to witness to their own mortality? Who wants to be reminded of their past faults? Who wants to recognize that there is no security; that we are adrift on an ocean of Chaos? Better to live in the feeling of freedom and invulnerability.

A pointer finger isn't a ring finger, and is it's own individual thing. Perhaps we are meant to honor our individuality, all branching off into our own sort of identity.

Yeah but I don't think that is how Manitou intends us to believe, because that honors the individual in us, but I am more in line with your idea than hers.

Anyway.... I think it's bullshit what's happened to me. This device has done nothing but cause me pain and ruin my life. It's taken away my will to live, and my creativity. I have a greater appreciation for our nations healthcare support system, I have a greater appreciation for our technological advances, but I still say, where was God all this time. We sure could have used His help through history. If you want to believe the magic hoo ha that religion sells you that's fine, but I am going to keep my nose clean of it all.

It is kind of a hippy notion that we are all one. I don't feel like it flies in this Age. Maybe for older folks.

I'm not so certain we should discount individuality so easily. What are we all underneath? We are a clean slate that accepts experience and reacts to it. If being "one" underneath means that we see experience and don't react, then what you are saying is that we should monitor our behavior so that we do not respond in negative ways. This is easier said than done in a world of infinite choices.

A murderous type is one that has committed murder. I don't think there is a type of person that is predetermined to commit murder, I mean someone that already has.

We have that already, its called prison

My my, what a robust buttocks!

Are you saying that there is no difference between a murderer, a thief, and you? And that you can love these types unconditionally?

The God(s) answer to no one! They are an unknown! Their law is do what thou wilt, and they deserve neither condemnation nor praise! If you want to live for love and kindness, then do that. If you want to live for power and wealth, then do that! The Gods will do what they will do, and so should you.

Which is my point exactly. If these things that happened to me are delusions, then all the worlds mystical revelations and experiences are.

I don't have delusions of grandeur, unless you consider me thinking I am the subject of some God's interest to be so, which I have. I don't imagine myself to be that important or special, but I was naive enough to think that I could be. I don't think so any more.

It's difficult for me, because I know there is a God, and I know there are beings that can act, and in my life, they have left me in pain, but more importantly, they stand silent on a lot of things that go on here. I don't know what they care about or what they do. I don't know why the interest in me, when there is so much more to do than subject me to this.

I wanted to say that even though I call what I've experienced torture by demons, that they haven't been that mean to me verbally. This is not to say that it isn't a sort of Hell to have it happen. The constant voices, the wires, the mood swings, the pain of it, the confusion, the questioning what could this be, all of my wondering and hoping and the never ending torture- it makes for a bad Hell. Only a handful of times did my hallucinations become terrifying, and in retrospect, they shouldn't have been as scary as I made them out to be, but I was exhausted and worried about my soul. There were some bad times of terror, come to think of it, but only a few.

This world is probably just one of many playgrounds for the Gods. Its a sensual paradise here. They probably live through us. I don't think the Gods follow any rules, we are beneath them, we are their servants. Though like any servant, we want them to survive. I don't believe in a peaceful God anymore, or necessarily a logical one; I believe God inspires all the things we do, including war and murder.

I don't clearly remember how it all went down, only that this being that I assumed was JHVH took me up and then dropped me down, betraying me to some other Gods or something like that. It was a long time ago and I wasn't thinking too clearly. Thanks to medicine, the wires have loosened their grip on me, and I am able to do as you suggest, though I know they could come back if I think too much, or get emotional.