helpfuldemon

so beautiful. Thank you. I think we gather some of our sense of our own beauty from felines.

Stripping yourself of the self leaves someone else the winner. Happiness is getting what you want. Unless you are in a community of the selfless, where the community self wins, and all people that agree with that self are happy.

Some thoughtful soul sent me some information, and the gist I got from it is, that the self is the thing which is "I", and nothing else.

I see it this way: This thing I mentioned earlier, it records everything. The Soul is like a photograph or a story, a movie perhaps, and in it is all that I carry- false memories or real ones. These are all things that make up me.

The Buddha is whack! All of those things make up who we are! Whats left?

I believe there is a thing inside of us that connects us to all of our memories, our choices, our thoughts, our experiences, our bodies, our senses- I believe this thing is connected to an infinite stream of reality. I think the self or soul is all of our choices and things we denounce, and memories, and senses, and that we travel in this infinance with our selves in worlds copied from all of reality.

Its really frustrating to have witnessed this device alter my mind and my thoughts and my body and glands and yet have no evidence that this happened. It happened somewhere... just apparently not "here". Its also frustrating to believe that there is an entity doing it that doesnt speak to me.

I found Rupert to be a little slow speaking plus his mic wasnt the best. I find it interesting that these two believe that our essential state is love, peace and happiness. I dont agree with that, even infants arent pure love peace and happiness. I think this is just their philosophy on what is good about existence. In order to be happy, Im assuming, one must know, feel and be love, be at peace with their environment and selves. Rupert said the rest is ego. I wonder how these men figured to factor out all the activities of the world, and the conjoined emotional and intellectual states that go along with it? We certainly are capable of more than love and peace, and there are certainly other things that quantify happiness. I agree that if we do things in love and with love that we will be content, however, but there is so much more to suffering than the absence of love.

Since were documenting our contacts with Gods, my first contact came when I was a young child. I was awoken in the middle of the night and something was placed inside of me and the visitors told me something important and not to forget, which I immediately did and fell back asleep. The next time was when I was in second grade staring at some comic books thinking how badly I wanted them and I raised my mind to think what to do. I heard a child-like voice say "I cant", then I heard a more mature voice say "You could" then I heard a grown womans voice say "I dont care, I want it!" This was when I was thinking of stealing it. So I stole it and the next time I was at the store I saw another comic I wanted and a male voice around 22 said "Go ahead, its yours" and so I stole it. Around my first communion I had a vision of a man asking me what I wanted to do for God, and I said I wanted to get rid of Sin, since God didnt like it. God kind of vanished from my life until I read a book about meditation and did what they suggested, which was chant "Amun" until I fell into a trance and the book said it will feel dangerous and you will want to back away but you are supposed to press on and endure. So as I fell into this trance my mind felt pressured, like I had reached a ceiling, and I got dizzy- but I pressed on and had my chakras line and alight and pulse up and down my body. I was dabbling with drugs and alcohol and found myself very depressed and laid in bed for a couple weeks. As I started to wake, a voice said to pretend like each day was totally a new life. So I did that, and I thought "What makes life good?" and I decided love made life good, so I practiced loving each person I met. I was on LSD a few months later and was thinking about God and what to do with my life and I heard/felt a presence tell me to just love. God vanished again and about 7 years went by. I was a painter, painting in a conjuring sort of way- abstractly expressing emotion while my mind imagined ideas and I tried to bridge the two on canvas. A friend challenged me, he said "Whats good for you isnt good to me" and I couldnt understand what he meant, didnt we all believe in the same ideas of good? Paranoid thoughts started to arise and a spirit took hold of my body and drew out a diamond shape symbol. I went to the bookstore to investigate symbols and one of them said when you receive a symbol you are supposed to take it apart and analyze the parts- like you would a sigil. I started doing this and thinking about God and what I knew or thought I knew, and I realized that I had heard "God is love, God made the world" and from those ideals I declared "The world is love", which at the time struck me as totally naïve and wrong- there was much more to the world than this. That is when the woman from the Islamic group Al Quida that was photographed long before 911 and was on the cover of National Geographic with here green eyes staring right into the camera popped into my head, and I blurted out "Youre not the God of love! Give me the power to bring love here!" and a voice, both masculine and feminine and containing many voices, spoke in a stream of language a number of words in a strange language. The voice seemed to come from outside of me as well as inside. I got paranoid and thought that we were about to be attacked so I went scrambling telling government officials that someone from the middle East was going to attack us. They thought I was crazy, but less than a year later 911 happened. I also was in New Orleans going through some possession and hearing voices when I heard them say they were going to destroy the place. Less than a year later Katrina hit. These two instances did not help me in my bridging reality with the unknown. It was too close to home that I could predict these events. Prior to 911, after getting the symbol, I studied symbols and found one that mystified me. I went to lay down and I was imagining that I was part of an Order, then I thought "The world is order" then I thought "NO! The world is Chaos!" and a blue jewel showed up in my mind and the symbol appeared over it and cracked it open. I saw myself in a green field with an angel luring me, smiling. He took me up and I heard "Chessed, Chessed" and I met a God on a throne that said "I am the Sephiroth, I am all that is". I didnt believe it so I mentally ran away, and my head cracked open and tilted sideways. From the opening in my body I started having wires come into my body and overtake it. I heard voices, had visions, was given a few lessons in philosophy and tarot, and when I asked "Why is this happening to me??" I fell asleep and as I awoke the words AIWASS and WHITE BROTHERHOOD flashed in my mind. Ive since battled schizophrenia and feel demonically possessed.

I have. The Angel was beautiful and full of love and joy. The God was stoic and all he said was "I am the Sephiroth, I am all that is"

I dont read books anymore. Ive studied and experienced enough that Ive reached a satisfying plane of enlightenment.

Back in the early 90s I chanted one word "Amun" and it put me in a trance and I followed the instructions in the meditation book I got it out of and had all my chakras line and alight. Turns out that word is an Egyptian Deity.

Are you saying that if someone hurts you, it is ok and that there needs be no recompense? Are you saying that you are free to do the same to others?

I think Taoism is just like any other philosophers idea: there is one absolute way and thing. The One is just another One as compared to all the other Ones out there. I think the goal is to find your One and be it.

This is the basis of Law, do you have another way?

No it works like this: do no harm, and do not obstruct Will, unless someone is doing harm or obstructing Will, then you are free to obstruct or harm. This is when Evil becomes justice.

Pay attention! This is something Eternal.

its not that. Whatever I do that does no harm or oppose Will is Good, and those that oppose or harm are Evil

I realized there is another factor in love- adoration and disapproval can contribute to love and hate

What are emotions? It all comes down to Good and Evil. Good is when we are aided or set free to do what we will, not opposed in doing our Will. Evil is to be opposed, or harmed. The emotions are based on joy and sorrow, feeling joy when Good happens, sorrow when Evil occurs. It is about expectation and result. When we feel joy, it leads us to feelings of love and gratitude. Sorrow can lead to fear or anger. The emotions are based on the reaction to our expectations.

Thoughts are language in memory that are conjured up by parts of the brain and body and transmitted through our mind. They run on physical channels. Everything is bound to time, what do you suggest isnt?

I believe the air I feel around me is their form, and that they have reduced their forms to a simple substance; a fundamental primary substance, and that we are somehow connected to their soul mind through this device, which they can use to make us think and do things

This device can control our complete selves

I think that human beings are born with a particle in their body that connects them to some Divine machinery that we can interact with through meditation and chanting and prayer. I believe I have accessed some point, be it in a body, or an atom, or a box- and that this point is connected to a world in my head, and in all our heads, and can infinitely be cloned and duplicated so that we can all have our own personal Universe that is reflected of the Universe at large, but wont interfere with the Universe itself- that is how we dream of other people- its not them, it is a clone of them. I believe this point is in a world where the ascended Gods reside, and that when we call on them, they attend to us. Their intellect is infinitely more aware and advanced than ours, and their thoughts immediately affect the device that is within us.

That's crazy, because I used to do this all the time. Put myself in a meditative state, let my mind wander onto to what I wanted to think about, listened to my mind work on the problem, and passed out. When I woke up, the problem was solved.