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The sperm itself is not the energy, it's what moves it, namely the sexual energy. If you are horny, you can practice the jing-qi-shen route.

If you are interested in learning internal alchemy and advanced nei gong practices I suggest starting with zhan zhuang, and working up to at least an hour a day standing. You also cannot begin alchemy with the monkey mind, so through emptiness meditation, the habitual mind chatter should be quieted. Both take a lot of transition from today's very neurotic environment. Learn about the body's make up before trying to alter it. Then you instinctively understand what the texts are pointing to rather than doing a lot of guess work or worse, forcing yourself. These preparatory teachings are significant. Trying to do alchemy without going through a purification processes is like trying to learn how to skate when you have numb feet from years of terrible posture. Then choose a method or preferably a teacher. You'd be wasting your teacher's time if you have no awareness of even your present being.

You are constantly making issues out of things that aren't. Either you seek attention on thetaobums through extreme remarks, or you have deep seated issues regarding the very "cautions" you post about.

I suggest to drop the way your mind thinks in "possibilities." What's possible and what's not shouldn't be a filter between reality and your attempt to understand it. Simply notice what is, then whether or not there is a you or no you isn't so important.

IMO, thinking about these things are just a waste of time. If you want to get technical, you should start with the awareness you have now, and the energetic make up you can verify of your own body, and go from there. Don't worry about those lamas, because you don't know what they knew. It is also troubling that I get the sense that you are trying to justify suicide. As Fu Yue mentioned, you should look more into why you are being drawn to such ideas.

You are just making speculations.

I thought this thread was relevant to practitioners.

Is your mind at peace?

Well, tulku seems to be pretty against them. A lot of traditional ascetic texts do tell practitioners to cut off sensual desires, or in the more extreme cases to abandon hope in favor of the present moment. And Buddhist texts often say this desire will lead to that hell, etc. But I like this guy's reflections more insightful.

Let everything go. Trust your own being. It's that simple. The small confusions all come from clinging and attachment. When you have dropped everything, and your being is in its most effortless state, it's quite beautiful the way each movement of the mind and the body plays out its own creative nature. Currently you are dividing everything into thing you can control and things you cannot control. Drop the dichotomy, and know that there is not even the concept of control, but simply being, this aliveness moving, thinking...simply experiencing as is.

It was a torus!

Precisely! Forget the I AM, forget all these labels. Forget awareness or the 5 senses. Take language out of your system and sit in silence without structuring reality. Let it reveal itself, see everything simply for what is. Simpler it is the better.

@ Jconner You are overcomplicating things with the intellect. Don't understand awareness as a space where things come and go. Not because it is or it isn't, but because you are trying to understand its nature with a certainty. Be uncertain, be ungraspable, you can't understand "space" or the "infinite." You cannot understand yourself through a reflection, but only realize yourself by dropping all pretenses. All these lengthy posts are just unnecessary babble because you are trying to fit everything into a logical linguistic order.

Just go crazy with it and let everything become alive. Do not try to return to such a thing as the mundane world. There is no such thing. It's only a habitual label you are now realizing is false.

If you are using your will to cancel out your will, then you are lying to yourself. And most often people who come to an intellectual conclusion about free will fall into this category. It's a trick your mind does to justify indulgences and desires. To be truly without will is to be without possessions. It is also to be free of the mental magnet of the "self", the consistent reference to an "I." It means your actions are just left at their most essential, as simply life itself. And imo, that is very mysterious and cool, that you are alive, and you, this living body and awareness, has wants, preferences, feelings, and most of all, this insistent desire to create and delight in its own creations. Thats why you find life exciting, because it's filled with unknowns. The question of free will or destiny or some delusional story line becomes artificial. When you are in touch with life without engaging in all the filters associated with rigid ideas and paradigms, everything is just this crazy expression of energy. And you will often find that the more true you are, that everything comes to you easily, hence the wish fulfilling jewel is at your hands or so they say.

The dreamlike way of looking at reality is often referred to in Western culture as imagination. But there's a whole different context to it when you only emphasize detachment. I feel like creativity is the other half that's often overlooked when we mention illusion (and I don't mean creativity as making flower ornaments or jewelry. But daily life as well.)

I agree, this shouldn't be seen as some attainment. It's just a measure to free yourself from years of being stuck up in head activity. When I started meditation I could not sit still for more than five minutes, because I thought my head was going to explode from all the neurosis.

A good way to stop thinking is realizing that thoughts are an activity you are consciously doing, like waving your arms, but it happens in the head region. Then you realize how much energy you are using keeping up the habit of thinking. Then you can think and not think whenever you want to. The energy will be directed in other ways. I don't know about communicating with other mammals though. Sounds cool.

Another good way is to realize that ego is an activity you don't have to participate in.

So you read books and practice according to your interpretations. Then what stage are you at in following the Mahamudra: The Moonlight text? Have you gone through the preparatory exercises? Have you mastered the stages of tranquility? Because I think what you do is a lot of hand picking. I highly doubt you actually studied through the text step by step. Furthermore, if you do not fully practice the Shurangama sutra, why did you post a quote from it to subtly criticize the concept of immortality as enlightenment in Daoist traditions, thereby glorifying Buddhism? You have no idea whether this is true or not, nor is it part of your practice. The only reason for the quotation was that it is Buddhist. And since it is Buddhist is must be right. As for the second part, is this your goal or is it the goal of mahayana? If it is your goal, as I have said beforehand, then you have yet discarded your personality/self or the duality of samsara or nirvana. Your vision of the world is divided into the current state of impurity and the future state of attainment, which is inconsistent with sutrayana teachings that there is no nirvana, no attainment, no liberation, and no sentient beings to liberate. If it is merely the goal of mahayana, then you are merely dogmatic and a true believer (or you are dishonest, replacing your personality with a doctrine, but still believing that to be your own). You are tied to language and shadows, which at best makes you an imitator. Also, in such a case, you can only prove your path righteous in its own context, more specifically, you justify Buddhism with a Buddhist context. It is like a Christian using the Bible to justify his belief in Christianity. If you think it's both, then you are probably just confused.

No it's not a behavior prevalent on this board. A lot of people on this board are individual practitioners who rely more on their self knowledge and experiences than any dogma or religion. This is just your illusion. People here don't write things off. You're talking more about yourself than people on thetaobums.

Yeah, you are a phony. A spiritual materialist at best. Someone who uses his knowledge of spiritual matters to fill in one's own insecurities. I don't see why you can't just answer a few questions. Why is it so hard to tell us where and how you learned the mahamudra teachings that gives you this deep understanding of the dharma? And I'll just copy and paste this: "Isn't it contradictory to have realized anatta and emptiness and yet strive for personal attainments or purification of such thing as the body? Shouldn't everything be, the nirvana or samasara arising, treated equally as it arises as one taste? If you reside in the ultimate, the relative, such thing as purification or transformation, should cease to guide your actions. If the relative still sways your direction in life, then you haven't yet fully discarded your personality or desires for preservation or escaping from samsara."

Nice reply there. It displays your oh awesome wisdom so well. . If you don't want to have discussion/debates (there's really not much of a difference) then don't post here anymore. It's a discussion forum, not a circle jerk on how great Buddhism is or how high your understanding of the dharma is. But really answer my questions if you can. Where exactly did you learn Mahamudra teachings? And also if you are striving for purification, you have not realized the effortless direct perception that liberates upon arising. You have to thoroughly see the absence of personality and of any duality between samsaric dirt or nirvanic purity. If you disagree, then write it out with your own words. You just sound immature replying like that above. I think you're high on spiritual pride when you present your own level of understandings by belittling others. Instead of claiming you have direct insight into the nature of reality, you should do more insight meditation into your personality and your behavior.

This is very insightful. Thank you.

Who and where did you learn Mahamudra teachings? The six yogas of Naropa is taught only to initiates who have gone through extensive preparation. You can't learn it from a book. Isn't it contradictory to have realized anatta and emptiness and yet strive for personal attainments or purification of such thing as the body? Shouldn't everything be, the nirvana or samasara arising, treated equally as it arises as one taste? If you reside in the ultimate, the relative, such thing as purification or transformation, should cease to guide your actions. If the relative still sways your direction in life, then you haven't yet fully discarded your personality or desires for preservation or escaping from samsara.