Hello again, I want to express my apologies for my lack of manners in my first message. I feel like I jumped the gun a bit and walked into someones house without taking off my shoes.
I will start by showing my respect and thanks to the active members and founders of this forum and humbly make a second attempt at introducing myself. The posts and information
I have had the pleasure of reading so far are very informative and helpful.
As I am writing this I can feel the inner and outer energy field of my body and there is a noticeable sense of space between my thoughts and emotions.
I am currently based in Norway and a member of the SotoZen order over here.
I am into bodywork, meditation and different modalities of energy work.
About a decade ago I had a massive energy spike or overload form overdoing my breath work and a form of Osho dynamic meditation.
I have only shared this experience with a few trusted individuals but I think it is appropriate to share it here and maybe It will help clarify my intention for reaching out.
Back then I did not understand the experience but now believe I had what some refer to as a spontaneous kundalini awakening.
This was back in 2012 which lead me on journey to heal my nervous system.
For many years I was what you may call an “unhealed healer”. I had a spiritual awakening back in 2003 triggered by the passing of my Mother. Witnessing her spirit leave her body had me convinced that death was nothing but a transition. Determined to understand more I read all the classic esoteric material I could get my hands on and attended every available workshop and retreat I could afford on the subject of energy healing and light body activation.
In 2008 I found myself traveling to South Africa as a “Christ light healer “ where we as a small team of healers gave hundreds of energy treatments to teenage Mothers and children with HIV in the slums of South Africa .
I have seen and experienced many wonders and met some truly beautiful and powerful healers on my journey, but that being said, I myself made the classic mistake of never really working though my own mental and emotional trauma and unknowingly at the time I completely bypassing my physiology and ended up burning out in the “literal sense” by overloading my nervous system to the degree that it has taken over a decade to fully recover.
An experience I would not recommend but at the same time would not be without.
Today I am certainly more grounded and emotionally stable. I have for many years now maintained a simple practice of body awareness meditation and I spend plenty of time in nature.
I have an open mind and childlike curiosity when it comes to exploring “chi cultivation”
Not to step on any toes but I have found that techniques like semen retention and the micro cosmic orbit can only take you so far.
And I am now honestly hoping to gain insight into other alternative or better ways to build and maintain a stable flow of energy.
I firmly believe that energy medicine will in the near future play a greater roll in emotional,spiritual and physical health.
And I want to be a part of that movement.
I am sure there are many great chi healers and teachers in here that have more experience and I would appreciate a pointer in the right direction…
Thanks 🙏🏻
